Idk Smth About This Is Similar ….

dazai :) i love abstract art stuff so much its so fun and quick to make!!

ᴵ'ᵐ ˢᵒʳʳʸ ᵖˡᵉᵃˢᵉ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᶠᶦʳᵉ ᵐᵉ.

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ALTERNATIVE UNIVERSE IN WHICH AKUTAGAWA NEVER OPENED THE ENVELOPE TO SEE GIN'S PICTURE SO ATSUSHI AND HIM ACTUALLY BECAME FRIENDS. AND/OR THE ENVOLVE DIDN'T HAVE GIN'S PICTURE AT ALL.

HE DOESN'T KNOW ATSUSHI IS THE WHOTE REAPER BUT KNOWS OF THE WHITE REAPER.

ATSUSHI STARTS TO WEAR MASKS JUST TO HIDE THE FACT THAT HE IS A MAFIASO.

BAMB! ONE WAY SECRET IDENTITY BEAST SSKK!

That's actually such an insane idea and I need it NOW. It would never happen, because Dazai is a bitch and he won't let me have anything, ever, but suppose he's not in such a goddamn hurry to die, okay?

Atsushi meets Akutagawa and is instantly so taken in by this detective who is able to understand him so well. Akutagawa has no idea Atsushi is a mafioso– suddenly the White Reaper starts hiding his face. Atsushi shows up at the café at random times, hoping to run into Akutagawa again- and he does! He gets to go on dates with the detective, gets to learn more about him and the people at the Agency that he cares about. Tentatively, Atsushi also opens up, tells him about Kyouka.

Then Atsushi learns about Gin, about how much he wants to find his sister, and he thinks "It can't possibly be the same Gin, right?" He's hoping it's not. He's really, really hoping it's not Gin-san, because there's one rule Atsushi should never ever break, and that's to eliminate anyone who inquires about Gin.

The last time he disobeyed Dazai-san's orders...didn't go well.

But Atsushi looks at Akutagawa, at his serene face and dark eyes and small smile when he's really content and thinks, "Just this one thing. Let me keep this one thing."

The way that both Atsushi and Fitzgerald sought the page to bring back the family that they’ve lost.

A place to call home ⭐️

“teenage Dazai this” “teenage Chuuya that”

WHAT ABOUT TEENAGE FUKUZAWA

I know where Ranpo gets it from.

Bsd 121.5

Atsushi: I…I can’t..

Dazai (hallucination): Why not?

Atsushi: I can move forward or backward. But I don’t know how to walk toward the past or the future.

Dazai (hallucination): It’s simple, feel strongly. That’s what you do when you want to experience the past.

(This moment here reminds me of this one.)

Bsd Chapter 39 - Portrait of a Father

Atsushi: I…What kind of expression should I make? It’s obvious that the person I hate is dead and no longer of this world.

Atsushi: Yet I don’t know what kind of expression to make to that.

Dazai: Those are your feelings. It’s okay to make whatever expression you want. I can only say one general thing.

Dazai: People tend to cry when their father dies.

(I think it’s also important to note that chapter 39 ends with Atsushi crying for the first time in the series.

Crying is something Atsushi has been told growing up is a privilege he doesn’t posses. But Dazai gives him permission to do so and in that Atsushi lets himself feel strongly to experience the past.

Which may be why the hallucination of Dazai is giving him that same advice here.)

BUBBLEGUM 🍬