凶残的弱智

work in progress

Arsonist's Lullaby

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Does anyone else ever like forget how to socialize when you're tired/stressed/sleepy/hurt(or sometimes randomly)? It's like I no longer remember what's an appropriate thing to say and have to take longer to cycle through dialogue options in my head before I can decide if it sounds okay or not...I've always just said 'my filter disappears when I'm tired' buts its more like my brain can't keep up with the social cues and dialogue possibilities after a certain point and starts shutting down and my 'mask' slips completely

As someone who really struggles with unclear rules/concepts, being a system is a very difficult idea to grasp or accept personally. Every few years I go through a cycle of denial and then rediscovery and exploration that eventually I get frustrated with and abandon. Perhaps it's a lack of self assurance in myself. Whatever it is, I hope this time is different somehow.

It's hard to do the difficult thing when it's much easier to just continue trudging along in a fog.

no one is born to be alone