Luxlila

Shyness...

One of my goals this Winter is to become less shy and more comfortable speaking up for myself. I talked about this before but I wanted to dive deeper into myself and understand where this shyness comes from.

I am naturally more introverted. I am aware that being introverted does not equal shyness, but I do enjoy being alone and hanging around people drains me.

Guys make me shy. I don't know why but they do. I am not shy around girls the way I am around guys. I think it's because I think they are super judgmental even though thats just an assumption.

Group settings triggers my shyness as well. I can have a 1 on 1 conversation with a stranger and do fine but put that stranger and I in a group setting, now I don't know how to act.

My shyness has definitely improved but I have a long way to go. And if you're wondering why this is important to me, it is because I see myself living a very fun and amazing life, and being shy and not knowing how to have a simple conversation with people is going to close more doors than open, so its important to me to overcome this.

Thats all,

Walking such an underrated exercise.

Something in my gut is telling me the year is going to be filled with even more blessings.

2 more months of hell (school)

Being at university has allowed me to spend more time with my extended family, and honestly, it's been the highlight of my year.

Seeing the loving environment my mom grew up in, I now understand what she means when she says she didn’t feel poor growing up.

My birthday was three weeks ago, but I couldn’t see my extended family that weekend. I went last week instead, and my aunts and cousins surprised me with a small get-together. It was so sweet. I felt so loved.

My time here has really changed my mindset. I’ve always believed that money was everything and that you could be happy alone. But now, I’m starting to realize that no amount of money compares to having a loving family or community to share life with.

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