Getting Ready To Live My Cottagecore Lesbian Dream After Everything 🍂✨

Cute cottage core animals I found on pinterest!!

Source: https://www.pinterest.com.au/darkvail/cottagecore-animals-3/

more on my substack <3

My thoughts :)

i think I will spend some time sharing some images on here that bring me happiness so I can have a place to escape to for savoir from sadness and anxiety and overwhelm :D <3

The first time I saw her, I would say she was a fragment of the moon, an arched and silent smile… “full of enchantment, alchemy and tenderness”. Art Jeremy Sams.

A YouTube comment that spoke to me <3

I don’t know why people would continue to choose me and invest in me.

One day, between the headlights and the sound of the shower, it might start to get easier. Everytime it does, I start to drown again. Maybe it’s because after a while, I’m sick of fighting and It’s much easier to sink, to falter, to fail. After a while, people stop expecting things from you, teachers favourite loser. Pretty horrible for a perfectionist and overachiever.

I don’t know why this is something I continue to struggle with. I have food, money, a girlfriend who treats me like a alluring flower, even though I have bugs inside. They start to eat me every so often and people get to peer inside, behind my petals. I shouldn’t be struggling and yet I am.

It may be the writer in me but it’s something I can’t contain. Enough to scare my friends, enough to make my girlfriend hold me tight, enough to keep my mind occupied. Like a dark cloud that follows me, I can’t shake it. I know I’m a bad person, I’ve tried to change, but inside I feel it. The anger, the pain, the sadness, the frustration. Almost reluctant to admit how often my mind feels like an LDR song.

It makes sense that people wouldn’t want to be around all this. My mind constantly running, never turning off. Why would someone want to be with someone who always has a running commentary and an opinion about everything. I should get paid for the way I ruin peoples days, on and off again, like a carousel.

But it’s okay, I don’t care at the end of the day. Isn’t that right?

Classic literature !

J'aime lire, surtout Shakespeare et Keats! Classique Livres sont très intéressant et un tres amusant lire! Mes livres préférés sont Pride and Prejudice, The picture of Dorian Gray, Emma et Wuthering Heights ! J'aime aussi la collection de poèmes de John Keats et la collection de pièces de William Shakespeare !

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