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Queen of Air and Darkness theory

I’ve noticed that basically everyone in the fandom thinks that the Seelie Queen is the QoAaD but personally I find it too obvious. I mean, if this is true, then why hasn’t Cassie already told us? So my theory is that maybe the QoAaD is an Unseelie Princess who hasn’t been killed by the King yet and, in the end, after her father’s death, she will become the Queen and will rule over the Unseelie Court. Yes, I know that Cassie said that we have already met the QoAaD, so I think that maybe she could be one of the girls who tied Mark and Cristina together. I remember that someone (I don’t recall who, sorry) theorized that, since one of the girls is said to be horribly scarred, maybe the King tried to kill her but he didn’t succeed and she ran away.

After reading the post of that person (again, I don’t remember who, so please, if someone knows it, tell me and I will tag her/him) I decided to reread the description of the girl and this is what it says:

“One of them [the girls] pulled the ribbon from around her throat. Cristina stared; her neck was horribly scarred, as if her head had nearly been severed from her body.” -Lord of Shadows, page 182.

After reading this I started to agree with that person. I mean, if this girl isn’t important, then why describe her like this? I find it very strange…

‘What was [Achilles’] best part?’ ‘His lover Patroclus.’

—Odysseus, Circe by Madeline Miller

The first and only person Kit ever says I love you to, his whole childhood, is his father. His father who left him to be “raised scrambling through the Shadow Market,” who basically neglected him unless he was being “very useful in [his] line of work”, with his “quick hands.” His father who, in Cassie’s own words, “didn’t love him”—not in the way he came to see the Blackthorns loved each other. His father who, as inadequate of a father he really was, was the only constant in his whole life, and who was eventually murdered, ripped apart in front of Kit’s own eyes. The only person he ever loved, didn’t really love him back, and then died. Kit, so clearly starved for love that the whole series he clings to any tiny moment of affection he receives, from Clary, from Tessa, from Emma, from Ty, was left with nothing and no one.

The second person he says I love you to is Ty. He clings to Blackthorns, and to Ty is particular, after his father dies, not because he thinks they need him, but because he needs them. He desperately wants someone to love and care for him, and so he does whatever he can to fill whatever role Ty needs in that moment, to keep Ty in his life. He never wanted to go along with Ty’s plan, he constantly hopes that it doesn’t work or that Ty will give up on the idea, but he goes along with it anyway, because he knows that if he doesn’t Ty will leave him behind and go off to do it by himself. In a moment of desperation Kit tells Ty that he loves him, hoping it will make a difference, hoping that somehow it will change things for Ty, but it doesn’t. Now, to be fair, Ty is in no place at that point to say it back, or even to really process what Kit is saying to him, but even so, Kit, who has never been loved in return by the only other person he’s expressed the feeling to, can only understand that Ty not saying it back, and not indicating in some way that Kit is important to him, is Ty basically confirming what his dad always did, which is that Kit, still starving for somebody, anybody, to love him back, has nothing and no one. Ty is mad with grief over Livvy, in middle of trying to literally bring her back from the dead, but all Kit is capable of feeling is that Ty not acknowledging his love in that moment is a sign that he never really cared about him at all. The only person he’s ever expressed this love to besides his own father essentially rejects him, and he’s so hurt and humiliated by it that he literally flees the continent without saying goodbye. Again, feeling like his love hasn’t meant anything to the person he gave it to, and he still has nothing and no one.

The third person he says it to is baby Carstairs. He holds her in his arms one night, rocking her quietly to sleep so that poor sleep-deprived Tessa and Jem can get a few hours of rest, and without even thinking, he just says it. He looks at her adorable, squishy little baby face, and he feels protective in a way he’s never felt before—he’s in the middle of promising her that he’ll do his best to be a good big brother, when he says it. It just slips out—it’s the easiest I love you he’s ever said, and maybe in part that’s because he knows she doesn’t really understand what he’s saying and so she can’t reject him. But she then suddenly grabs his finger in her tiny little fist, and he almost starts crying. He stops himself because it feels silly to cry when intellectually he knows this tiny baby has no idea what he’s just said or what she’s just done, but it’s the first time his love has really been received. She doesn’t want anything from him, she doesn’t need him to bend himself to fit into her life—to fill some kind of role. He doesn’t have to lie and steal, like he did for his father to be proud of him, or go along with a plan that went against every moral fibre of his being just so the other person wouldn’t leave him behind, like he felt he had to do with Ty. He just has to be himself and care for her in a way he’s always wanted to care for someone. It’s his chance to love someone and have them love him back, to have a family. It feels like acceptance, without expectation. He has something and someone, or at least the chance to have something and someone.

The fourth and fifth people he says I love you to are Tessa and Jem. He’s already felt it for a while, but never had the courage to say it. He can’t help but feel that he’ll be coldly rejected, or, more likely (but somehow even worst), that they’ll be kind and gentle and pitying as they tell him that they care for him but don’t quite love him. They’re so good to him, but considering his love has never really been met with love in return by anyone besides a baby that he might just be projecting his own desperation on to, he can’t help but feel unworthy of it. As kind as they are, how could they really love him? Why would they? And so he doesn’t say it, and in the end, they are the ones to say it first. They’re sitting at breakfast one morning, in their cozy little kitchen in Devon, and Kit makes some silly joke that is so insignificant he can barely even remember it after he’s said it, but Tessa finds it so funny that she chokes on her tea, and Jem stops in the middle of feeding the baby to affectionately ruffle Kit’s hair. Kit smiles teasingly at Tessa and says that the joke really wasn’t his best work and he sort of judges her for finding it so funny. She grins back and counters, “It’s a wonder we love you so much, considering how much you make fun of us.” Kit’s stomach drops. “ What?” He chokes out. Jem laughs along with Tessa and ponders, “Is it a parent thing? To love someone even when they make terrible jokes and insult you?” Tessa smiles and nods and they go back to what they were doing before, as though they’ve just had a light conversation about the weather and haven’t just dropped a bomb on Kit’s whole life. He’s quiet for a moment and then, before he can stop himself, the words burst out of him.

“You love me?” Jem and Tessa look at him teasingly, evidently about to make some kind of joke, but stop short when they realize how serious Kit is. Tessa immediately grabs his hand from across the table, and Jem turns to face him. “Of course we do.” Tessa says. She whispers it but there’s something in her voice. It’s the same tone she uses when she talks about James and Lucie, or when she’s with the baby. A fierce tone filled with the kind of love he’s always wanted and never could have. Jem then grabs him solidly by the shoulder and Kit can see the expression in his eyes matching the tone of Tessa’s voice. Neither of them say anything else, but Kit knows that they’re telling the truth.

This time he really does start crying, and before he has the chance to feel embarrassed about it, they pull him into the tightest, warmest hug he can remember ever receiving. At some point, he sniffles and mutters that he loves them too. He feels like a child as he says it, but he can’t bring himself to feel embarrassed about it anymore. They both kiss him on the forehead, and as they pull away, he sees that Tessa has been crying as well, and Jem’s eyes are quickly filling with his own tears.

He’d thought, for a while, that they’d asked him to live with them because they were trying to somehow re-create a bond that they’d had with their own lost Herondale. That they’d wanted him to be like Will somehow. And he knew that it was their loyalty to Will and his family that had brought them together in the first place, that had made them search for his mother and eventually for him, but he realized now that somewhere along the way they’d grown to love him for himself. He didn’t have to bend to fit a role in their life. He could be himself, and they loved him for it.

Kit eventually insists that he’s done being sappy for the rest of his life and that they should go back to eating breakfast, without any more crying. Tessa and Jem oblige.

Breakfast continues; Tessa, Jem, and Kit discuss their plans for the day as the baby gurgles away happily, completely unaware of what’s just happened, but smiling toothlessly at Kit anyway, as though she understands somehow. It feels like home. Like family. Like love. And Kit knows that he isn’t alone anymore.

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Fanfic: So they’re getting along really well.

Me: Aww that’s nice.

Fanfic: But get this.

Me: Yeah

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Me:

1 day until Queen of Air and Darkness

You look like Naya Rivera!!

i was in a wedding today and decided it’s time i post a selfie 🙈

stop asking who’s the man and who’s the woman in gay relationships and start asking which ones the serial murderer and which ones the one trying to catch them

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