Lonelyoneszone - Ash's Zone

a girl whose love language is physical touch is also a girl who hates people touching her

I shouldn't make a conclusion on if I have a serious life altering disorder by myself without a professional opinion, therefore I can't and don't know for sure if some of the people I call head mates within the system are actually alters or if they're just the side affect of my living situation and an overactive imagination with a side of diagnosed ADHD. I will not overthink this and ponder if I'm even a system at all and that I'm just appropriating a disorder that I do not have. although I have always stated that I suspect that I have it and have never definitively stated that I have said disorder because I am not a professional so even if I've done a year and a half worth of research and have been provided many bonafide articles, I am still unsure until I go to a professional about this. And no I will not overthink that some professionals are essentially toddlers with a clip board and a piece of paper at times, even if I'm only saying that because of my experience with doctors and multiple professionals. Especially ones that had extremely terrible bedside manners.

I have endured trauma, and I have had blocked memories. I have experienced the symptoms of DID. I have an online journal of most of the symptoms that I and the others can remember that we have experienced. I am fine and I will not overthink my validity as a possible system based around what strangers say on the internet.

/slowly going insane.

-Viv

Oh no. No, can people not say the kitchen scene was 'abusive' please? It's so distasteful and honestly disrespectful to survivors of actual DV to twist a moment of human frailty into fuel for your dislike of a character/ship.

That scene was raw and desperate and driven by grief. Eddie let his frustrations boil over, and Buck immediately made it about himself and twisted it into a personal attack ("You think I didn't do everything I could to save him?").

Neither of them was dealing with their grief in a healthy way and they ended up taking it out on each other. Unfortunately that's what often happens when your emotions are in a bad place. It's why people keep a professional smile on their face all day at work and then rant at their partner the minute they get home. It's why children are perfect angels at school and then throw tantrums when they're back with their parents. Because they know that person is a safe space and will always forgive them. And guess what? They did forgive each other. Easily and without judgement or grudges. Because they are a family.

People are messy, life is hard and love is imperfect.

what kind of dumbass binges the crowded room in one afternoon/evening?

this is going to be a generalized take, so please forgive me, but women are an underrated enforcer of femininity.

I’ve noticed this with hairdressers. multiple times I’ve gone to lady hairdressers and said “cut it all off,” and they’ve gone “hmm alright,” and basically just trimmed the split ends. meanwhile I can go to a dude and say “hey, can you make my hair slightly shorter?” and he’ll go “on it boss,” and shave me bald.

twice now, I’ve also had lady tattoo artists add pink to femme up a tattoo, despite that not being on the initial design.

god, also thinking about this brought back a memory. my mom once threw a fit because my shoes were “too masculine” (they were black women’s flats), saying that I’d upset my dad and ruin the formal event we were going to. I wore the shoes, my dad didn’t give a shit.

I dunno. it just feels like the misogyny is coming from inside the house sometimes.

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