Smau: in which they call you clingy Warnings: cursing, ANGST, not proofread Featuring: Gojo, Geto, Choso, Toji, Nanami, Sukuna, Yuji, Megumi, Inumaki Pt 2, Pt 3, Pt 4, Pt 5
I think about this a lot... Solomon you menace...
Also not asmo having nothing with his brothers
living with yelena headcanons. bc i can. (some r spicy some r not but im putting it all under the cut just in case)
yelena x gn! reader
warnings/notes: this is modern! au + reader is implied to be shorter than yelena
grabs your hips and waist from behind whenever she gets the chance.
she also loves guiding you by your hips/waist.
she just loves grabbing those parts of you
usually wakes up before you on weekdays to make breakfast for you and her before she heads off to work.
she LOVES watching you get dressed. not even in a sexual way, just knowing that she's the only one who ever gets to see you like this makes her feel so special. not only that, but that also lets her ogle at you and check you out.
ADORES when you scratch her back with your nails or just rub her back with your hands. she gets so relaxed, completely sinking into your touch. she's like a cat, putting ALLLL of her weight on you while taking a good ol' nap.
(kinda nsfvv? hinting) sometimes she randomly dry humps you. she doesnt tell you when, so it's always a surprise. one time she woke you up from your 3-5pm nap by doing that to your ass and was annoyed when you gave her the silent treatment.
(okay actual spice lol) backshots are everything to her. she loves bending you over the bed and pounding you till you break. seeing your ass jiggle and watching how you writhe with every thrust makes her want more and more<3
SO CLINGY. she had to constantly be touching you. doesn't matter if it's the privacy of your own home or out in public. in public she just holds your hand or puts her arm around your waist. but is private she's AAALLLLL over you. kisses, hugs, cuddles, (sex), or just simply messing around with you.
(nsfvv) addicted to eating you out. she eats you before she even fucks you. she just can't get enough of your taste, how you feel, how warm you are. god, and she loves how she can feel you twitch and squeeze around her tongue when she puts it inside you.
because she works, you do most of the housework, but you really dont mind. she cleans up her own messes and tidies around the house when she has the time, so it's never super dirty or anything.
HOWEVER
your room is a different issue... it's not a trash mess, but it's a clothes mess. clothes on the floor, on the bed, even in a mess in the closet. but for some reason she knows where everything is???
one thing she doesnt mess around with when it comes to keeping tidy is her work clothes and documents. she keeps those safe.
SHE IS SUCH A GREAT COOK. loves loves loves cooking for you. even after work too!!! she'll set down her stuff, get into her comfy clothes, and then get to cooking immediately. no matter how many times you tell her to take a break she will NOT (that only urges her even more)
on her days off, she loves sleeping in with you<3 she just adores how peaceful your sleeping face looks. she cant help but stare at you and think about how lucky she is.
Genshin men as things that guys at my high school have done pt3
Childe, Kazuha, Kaeya, Itto
Childe- The east european exchange partner of your classmate. He was supposed to stay one week. Not enough to fall in love right? Wrong. He was talking with his friends, looked at you for 8 seconds, and turned to his friends and said " I just saw the most beautiful girl". He then told Lumine who then told her exchange partner who was your friend, and that's how you knew.Like every girl you obviously had a crush on him so you tried a relationship. Sadly you were forced to separate after the week, and long distance didn't last long.
Kazuha- your first crush in the class. At an event for the high school you were invited in back in middle school, you saw a boy, a very beautiful one at that, walking around alone. He had snowy white hair and looked...majestic. You were totally lovestruck at the first sight but eventually forgot about him because what were the odds of seeing him again? The odds were high apparently because not only was he in your class with the same schedule as you, but he was sat next to you in French class. You thanked the gods for your similar last name and stared at him all the time period of the lesson. You eventually became his friend and realized just how much weirder he was now that you guys are close. He's way funnier yes, but less attractive. You lost your feelings for him, but why is it that he's always touching you and around you? You've yet to figure that out.
Kaeya- Kazuha's best friend. They share a room at the boarding school so you figure it's normal for them to get close, although they are really a peculiar pair. Since you became friends with kazuha, it was only natural you'd become friends with his best friend, right? Yes indeed, but it was not natural that he'd start teasing you, sitting next to you in all classes, running to you during school projects, calling you for hours for a week and then nothing. You didn't know what you did wrong, he never wanted to tell you. He eventually stopped avoiding you but you now keep a security distance from him, just to not be hurt again.
Itto- the ex boyfriend. Your boyfriend back in middle school who broke up with you after you got the news that you guys were going to a different high school. You eventually moved on because he was kind of an idiot and you were glad you had some peace of mind for once in a long time. But one time he added you on social medias and you accepted, and then everything went downhill. He was texting you non stop, "accidentally" bumping into you while coming home from school while he lives in the opposite area as yours, saying non-stop that he's so much better than any other guy you could find. One time he was insisting on talking about you guys' breakup and you cried a little, he took a step closer, but you took a step back. You didn't want to be hurt again by him.
Note- kazuha and I are both in ib in a class mixed with regular students so we share every class. Childe and I are now friends and itto stopped annoying me. Kaeya sometimes refers to the week where we were friends but nahhhhh I am not falling into your trap again. Also Childe is smoking hot.
Basically it's an albedo x reader I think the prompt is "first time meeting them" and we're a big fan of Alice's book and find out that our parents know her so we meet her and we talk to albedo because he's her child and he shows us his things in his room and he's never seen at school but he comes to our class to talk to us so all of our classmates are shocked, and his mom thinks he likes us but he put on a pokerface and said that he doesnt. If you come accross something like this please tell me I miss this ff :(
small rant đ€: types of men in genshin i find ridiculously annoying and attractive
pt. 1
the alhaitham type: knows you want him but pretends he doesn't notice or care because he's above all that jazz. sulks on the inside if you stop swooning over him tho or don't show it as much. secretly wants you to send him love letters sprayed with your perfume (to which he will jerk off). Will give you the cold shoulder and speak with even less words than usual, convincing himself he's not hurt by your lack of attention. after many months will randomly realise you've probably figured he has no interest and are trying to respect that. what tf does he do now? can't just start sending you flowers, that's so not him. going to cyno for advice (for kaveh not him) was not very productive. took cyno twice as long to grasp what has happened and by the time he was about to say it all seems too trivial to him, alhaitham had lost his patience and left. next time he sees you he'll just tell you " like obviously I like you and you didn't get that so you've to work on your perception skills - welcome btw. so now that you know, I'm going back to my research. don't try to hold my hand next time you see me, i will slap it away"
reasons that's annoying: he knew that you both share mutual attraction for each other but has the emotional availability of a rock therefore took him months to do smth about it. he thinks you're his gf after that speech btw.
reasons that's attractive: he's hot.
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the Kazuha type (i swear I'll die after writing this): has absolutely no idea that you like him. wouldn't realise you like him even if you told him that you're into him like with the actual words "i. like. you." love for him is living his life in harmony, taking his time to follow the course of life the way it is without outer forces meddling with that balance. relationships seem too possessive and engaging to him so he's automatically excluded them as a topic of contemplation. love equals freedom. can't grasp that someone might love him without wanting to capture him. all your hints go over his head until beidou nudges him in the right direction. only then did he start to notice your interest, but that triggered a whirlpool in his heart and stomach and he felt as if he had to flee. best way to cope is pretend it's not there so he doesn't have to hurt your feelings directly and ruin your friendship. doesn't cross his mind it might be selfish, because that's the way of life for him. eventually you'd realise he's not into you and would drop your feelings choosing not to be resentful for something that was never yours. what could change his mind is if you ever manage to stroke his heart where he has forgotten it hurts.
reasons that's annoying: avoidant as fuck. a lot of patience and quiet selfless dedication is needed to break through all that built up fear (of abandoning his freedom). that's not helping someone face their trauma, that's making it worthwhile to see another perspective of life (but your talking buddy majors in philosophy so gl)
reasons that's attractive: the loyalty you'll receive once you're through will be unshakeable. and he's also hot & charming which is a disgusting combo (extremely rude, kazuha!)
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jjk fushiguro megumi x fem!reader
all megumi fushiguro does is apologize when he rejects you. everything changes because of your confession.
content: angst, fluff if you squint, all characters aged up to 17-18!!!, misunderstandings, confessions, eventual relationship!, megumi is so bad at feelings, ooc megumi a little sorry, takes place at jujutsu tech high school and shibuya has NEVER happened so life is good, yuji and nobara are your besties
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âi like you.â
for a moment, the world stills. everything comes to a halt.
megumi is sitting across from you at your favorite cafe, just down the street from tokyo jujutsu high, the school youâve been attending for nearly two years now.
in that short amount of time, youâve grown into a person you think the past you wouldâve liked. youâre taller now, more fit and lean. youâve got bounds of experience from your missions piled on your shoulders, the unwavering burden of being a jujutsu sorcerer making itself at home.
youâve grown in other ways, too. youâre stronger now, youâve got a good hold on your emotions. you havenât seen your parents in months, but the sting doesnât hurt anymore. youâre wiser. older. youâve got a handle on your feelings.
then thereâs megumi fushiguro.
oh, how enamored youâd been.
heâd spared no glance when he first met you. you had trudged into the classroom, eyes darting at the unfamiliar faces. gojo satoru, the undeniably handsome teacher of yours, introduced you brightly albeit the low energy of the room.
you had weaved your way into the jujutsu world, just as you had been able to slither your way into the lives of your newfound friends.
but megumi, oh, megumi fushiguro.
it had taken you laborious months to befriend the raven haired boy. his uninviting attitude hindered your relationship with him for some time, and you had half-heartedly decided to pursue something else, but your near death experience during a particularly difficult mission with him had sent him reeling. he had held onto you the entire time you cried for your mother.
you donât talk about that day. he doesnât mention it, either.
âwhat?â his eyes, dark blue, blink in surprise. his lips are parted slightly. âwhat did you say?â
your throat constricts. then, the words flow: âiâm in love with you.â
love. itâs too strong of a word. youâre not even quite sure what it means, or if what you feel is actually love.
the cafe begins to bustle with life again. the barista from behind the counter steams some milkâalmondâand she glances up at a customer approaching. the music from the overhead speakers filters itâs way softly into your ears. itâs a cheesy love song, and you canât help but feel like it isnât the right time for that.
âare you serious?â he says, almost spitting out his drink.
âi mean,â you shrug, âyeah? i wouldnât bring you all the way out here to fuck with you.â
he blinks again. his lashes flutter perfectly. itâs annoying how perfect he is. thereâs a slight hue of pink to his cheeks, but not enough to confirm anythingâjust speculation.
âiâm sorry,â he begins, breathing it out all in one go. âiâm really sorry.â
if youâre being honest with yourself, youâd seen it coming from a mile away; megumi fushiguro is different. heâs got the composure of a brick wall. the perpetual frown on his face never, ever leaves, not even when heâs with you. he doesnât crack, doesnât shake. his soul is hardened from things that heâll never speak of with you.
âitâs okay,â you say, but itâs not.
youâve changedâgrown into a person youâre proud of, but youâre still stuck sometimes. youâre still a pushover. still just a small shrimp in the vast ocean. still apologizing for your existence.
âiâm sorry,â megumi repeats.
you know heâs apologetic, that he really means it, just from the way his brows furrow slightly. you know him too well for your own good. you donât think he can say the same about you.
âitâs fine.â your voice breaks. you duck your head in embarrassment. rejection has never hurt you this badly. âyou donât have to apologize for not liking me back. itâs not your fault.â
you wonder why youâre comforting him when heâs the one who has ripped your heart out completely.
âiâm gonna head back,â he mumbles out, hesitating to reach out and dab away your tears with the napkin heâs been wringing around his thin fingers. âyou⊠should come, too.â
you shake your head. âi think iâm gonna finish my coffee.â
he offers a smile. âyou can finish mine as well, if youâd like.â
ânah,â you say, scrunching your nose through watery eyes, âblack coffee isnât really my thing.â
âyeah.â his laugh is soft, almost forced, but you can tell itâs genuine. âi know.â
oh, you think. it really hurts.
he knows.
something inside you snaps. your lungs feel itchy. your ribs squeeze. you think that it wouldâve been easier to never say anything at all.
megumi leaves the store. the jingle of the bell above the frame rings through the air. youâre left with your cold cup of coffee and megumiâs cup across from you.
the barista gives you a look of pity. you chug down your drink and chug his, too.
itâs bitter.
-â
megumi arrives to his dorm exactly five minutes after four pm. he slips off his sweater and changes into a pair of sweatpants and a loose t-shirt. his mind is blank, except for the image of your teary eyes.
he swallows nervously. maybe heâll sleep it off.
âyo, megumi.â yuji slams himself against the door impatiently. âhowâd it go?â
megumi sighs, the irritation swiftly making its way into his fatigued body. he opens the door and yuji tumbles in without an invitation.
âwhat are you talking about?â megumi mutters with another sigh.
âthe confession,â yuji says matter-of-factly.
megumi stares. âyou knew?â
yujiâs smile slowly removes itself from his lips. ââŠyeah? it was pretty obvious.â
âwhat was obvious?â
âthat she likes youâŠ?â yuji tilts his head. âand you like her back, right? so i figured you guys would be all cuddled up in here.â
megumi doesnât say anything. the gears in yujiâs head begin to turn as he looks around the room, noticing the comfy attire megumi has on.
âyou said that you liked her back⊠right?â he raises an eyebrow. âbecause itâs not a secret that you do.â
âi left.â
âyou left her there?!â
âi didnât know what else to do.â
âso you said âyes, iâd like to be your boyfriendâ and then dipped out on her?â
âi didnât say yes.â
yuji pauses. he looks at megumi, then at the made bed, then back at megumi.
âfor fuckâs sake,â he groans, running his hands through his pink hair. âiâm gonna go.â
megumi stands there, appalled. the door is shut harshly and the hinges squeak. heâll have to scold yuji about that later. for now, he wants to take a nap.
maybe heâll feel better about everything when he wakes up.
-â
on the other side of the building reserved for dorms, yuji crosses his way into the girlsâ section. it still feels wrong no matter how many times heâs made this trip before.
he meets you on the way there. youâre dragging your feet, headphones strapped on your head, and lips quivering.
âhey,â he calls out, tapping your shoulder. âyou okay?â
he waits until you hang the silver headphones on your neck. theyâre megumiâs, he realizes as he sees the fading stickers on the metal plate.
âhm?â
âyou okay?â he asks again. his eyes scan you for any signs of distress, and he can practically see it radiating off of you.
âyeah,â you hum, âiâm cool.â
âwant me to grab nobara?â he suggests with a grin.
âsure,â you say.
the sun feels hot on your back. you hate the way the school is so widespread for having such a small population.
âi can grab some ice cream,â yuji rambles. âand iâll get us a notebook so we can write shitty things about megumi.â
you pat him on his back, but his sturdy body almost sends you flying backwards. he catches your wrist just before you fall, and heâs laughing at your expression with glee.
âyouâre so funny,â he says through his fit of laughter. âyouâve gotten scrawnier. you needa eat more! iâll get us snacks, too.â
you pout. âshut up, yuji. not everyone can be as buff as you and todo.â
âoh, todo is a whole different story.â
âtell me about it,â you say, playfully rolling your eyes. âiâve seen him beat you up into a pulp.â
âhey! in my defense,â yuji says, his hands coming up to the sides of his ears, âi couldnât do much against him!â
youâre nearing nobaraâs dorm, which is right across from your own. you like how homey hers is compared to yours. sheâs got a knack for interior design, or so she claims.
she swings the door open the moment you reach the inside of the building. youâre halfway down the hall when she sticks her head out from the frame of her room. her black roots are showing more than usual.
âhow was it?â she asks once youâre close enough so that she can whisper.
you want to tell her that thereâs no point in keeping it a secret. you had told yuji about your feelings far before you even mentioned to her, mainly because yuji had been your first friend at jujutsu high. megumi isnât here, either, so thereâs no reason to whisper when everyone knows.
âbad,â is all you reply with.
her eyes soften a considerable amount, an expression youâve never seen on her face before. she takes a small breath and pulls you into her room by your arm.
youâre met with her fragrances, vanilla and strawberryâa nobara kugisaki signature scent. she had begged gojo to buy her shelves to place her k-pop albums on and sure enough, the white furniture stands proud at the far corner of the room. there are fake vines hanging from her ceiling right above her desk, where she has an organizer messily places over a few books.
âyou wanna dye your hair?â she jokes, looking back at you. âmy roots are coming in so we might as well dye yours while we touch up mine.â
âis orange all you have?â yujiâs nose twitches. âi donât think sheâd look good in orange.â
âgee, thanks,â you sarcastically respond.
âsorry.â
nobara clicks her tongue. âwanna unpack?â
âkinda,â you say, your body going limp once youâre at the foot of her bed. you sprawl yourself on the silky sheets and stare up at the ceiling.
âget out, yuji,â nobara demands. she doesnât even acknowledge his downturned lips.
âi know everything already!â he whines. he shuts the door behind him with much more care than he had with megumiâs.
âstill!â she insists. âi wanna have a girlsâ talk.â
âiâm one of the girls.â he crosses his arms.
nobaraâs shoulders sag. âfine, but you need to go buy ice cream.â
âwas planning on that already,â yuji replies. he taps quickly at his phone, presumably asking gojo for his credit card.
when yuji leaves the room, he promises that heâll get your favorite flavor. once nobara senses that his presence is completely gone, she turns to look at you.
âiâm sorry for making you confess,â she whispers. her tone is comforting, genuine, soft. she takes you into her arms and squeezes your shoulders. âi really thought he liked you back.â
âitâs not your fault,â you reply earnestly. âi chose to do it out of my own selfish feelings.â
âyou can cry,â she says, patting your head. at times like this, nobara seems years wiser than you are. her touch is warm.
you bite your lower lip. âdonât wanna. i think iâll be fine.â
âokay,â she says, and you feel her chest vibrate with the word. âyouâre allowed to cry, though. megumi wouldâve been a shitty boyfriend, anyway.â
all you can do is let out a watery laugh. you donât tell her that he wouldâve been an amazing lover. he wouldâve taken you out on dates at your favorite places because heâs observant like that. he wouldâve known your favorite foods, though he knows them even as friends. he wouldâve kissed you tenderly because thatâs the type of boy he is. heâs the type to love carefully, like heâs afraid heâll lose someone forever if he doesnât.
âiâm up for dyeing your hair,â nobara pipes up after the silence that penetrates the room. âyujiâs right, though⊠i donât think orange would suit you⊠ha.â
you giggle. âletâs just touch up yours, yeah?â
yujiâs footsteps can be heard from outside the door when youâre a third of the way done with nobaraâs roots. she complains about how long heâd taken, but thereâs no real malice in her voice. he explains that he had ran into trouble obtaining gojoâs card (âi had to beg him for it!â).
the ice cream is all melted. itâs gooey and delicious and makes you smile. as you look around your friends, your crinkled eyes say more words than you ever could.
âyouâre welcome,â yuji says into your ear. âyou donât have to thank us for any of this.â
-â
the next morning comes by quicker than you want it to. you mentally prepare yourself for seeing megumi in class at eight in the morning. you havenât made a mistake as bad as confessing your dying, unrequited love on a wednesday afternoon quite like this before.
nobara had suggested walking with you the night before, but youâd sternly told her that you could handle it. looking back, maybe you shouldâve agreed with her offer.
megumi isnât in class when you come in. heâs usually there at least five minutes before gojo starts teaching. something inside you tells you itâs because of yesterdayâas much as you hate to admit it.
he walks in through the sliding doors a few minutes late, but gojo pays him no attention. megumi has privileges like thatâat least, with gojo. heâs practically your teacherâs son, and though youâve never heard of the full story, youâre well aware of gojoâs slight favoritism.
the class is short. all jujutsu sorcery classes are. they mainly consist of typical real school lessons, only because under the law, jujutsu tech is still a high school. the other, much bigger portion of class with gojo is focused on maintaining cursed energy and providing yourself with the best possible victory in battle.
when itâs over, you donât know if you should be relieved or upset. you wonât be able to see megumi after this, assuming that heâll avoid you for a good month or two. however, you think youâd rather die than attempt to make conversation with him.
âdonât do anything stupid,â gojo warns, signaling the end of class.
you hear yuji snicker quietly and say, âyeah, nobara.â
the bickering brings a smile to your lips. from the corner of your eye, megumi shifts in his seat.
you decide that itâs best to let the feelings marinate, as stupid as it sounds. itâs an infinitely better choice than moping around and begging megumi for a chance. you may be soft, but youâve got pride.
âsee you guys,â you announce, more to yourself than to anyone.
âalright,â yuji calls after you, âsee you later.â
you canât help but feel a little disappointed with the lack of clinging when it comes to you. your absence doesnât seem to cause a ruckus like it does for most people. you wonder if it had been yuji retiring early; would everyone else ask him to stay a minute longer?
thatâs how life is for a while.
you attend class, spar a little, and sleep. some days you go out into the city with nobara. you avoid the cafe, even though itâs your favorite. perhaps itâs because youâre still embarrassed by megumiâs rejection. on other, slower days, gojo takes you all on outings because heâs basically everyoneâs replacement father.
itâs still as tense as ever between you and megumi.
the boy doesnât make any effort to reach out. you donât blame him, though you should. he steals small glances at you, particularly when youâre smiling and forget to cover your teeth with your hands. thatâs all he takes from you, and he canât be the only guilty one, because thatâs all you give.
on this day, gojo takes you all out to the fair. itâs annual, taking place in the beginning of summer, and itâs a great way to practice forming barriers and such. the fairs always bring out a few nasty curses that need to be exorcisedâthe four of you are already used to being dragged out here for that sole purpose.
as if gojo knows, he sends you out in pairs. of course, youâre paired with megumi fushiguro. at first, you open your mouth to reject gojoâs demand, but you notice the way megumi doesnât seem to care and your resolve hardens.
âitâs really awkward around you guys.â gojo pretends to act busy, flicking something from his nails. heâs got his sunglasses on and the ladies around him fawn.
âhuh?â you and megumi look at him with accusing glares.
âis something going on between the two of you?â
âno,â you say almost entirely too quickly.
âright,â he drawls, a smirk forming on his face. âanyway, good luck out there. get rid of the little ones and thenâi donât know/-meet up with yuji and nobara if there are gross ones thatâll kill you.â
megumi nods. âokay.â
âthis was what i was talking about,â gojo mutters as he walks off. âitâs soooo awkwardâŠâ
megumi gives you an apologetic look. âfor the record, i donât think itâs awkward.â
âitâs fine,â you say. you find that youâve been pardoning him quite a lot. âyou donât have to lie.â
his face flushes. âiâm not.â
âi confessed to you and you donât like me back, so thereâs really no need to tiptoe around it anymore,â you rush out. âjust treat me like normal. i donât really care.â
he looks hurt, and you want to laugh.
you discover that, in those days of being alone, youâd rather megumi treat you like a friend again than be completely ignored. at least then, youâd have a part of him. at least then, heâs not slipping through the cracks of your heart, becoming a distant memory.
you want him to be anything but a memory.
âyou want me to treat you like normalâŠ?â he repeats your words. he paces himself just a few steps behind you when you begin to walk away from the conversation. âwhat does that mean?â
âi think you know what being friends is like,â you attempt to joke, but it comes out harsher than intended.
the fair is getting more crowded by the second. the shopkeepers are yelling out cheap deals and there are children that snake in and out of the lines of people. paper lanterns are hung at the front of tents to attract foreignersâit seems to be working because there are more people surrounding shops with lanterns than without.
megumi takes a breath. âhow could i do that?â
your steps falter. âwhat do you mean?â
âhow can i go on to treat you like normal,â he says softly, âwhen i know youâre in love with me?â
you bite the inside of your cheek and taste blood. âi donât know. youâve done it before without knowing my feelings. you can do it all over again, right?â
you look over your shoulder to see his lips part. heâs given up on the cool-guy persona. his vulnerability begins to show through the dents in his personality.
âyouâre saying that youâve liked me for that long?â
âyeah,â you admit. something about this is more freeing than you couldâve imagine. âi think i always have.â
a man shoves himself into you. heâs older with a beer belly and a scruffy beard attached to his face. he barks at you to move out of the way as he drags his young daughter through the sea of people. megumiâs warm hands come to rest on your waist, pulling you aside and closer to his toned chest.
you do your best to ignore your beating heart.
âiâm not,â megumi starts shakily, âlovable. i donât know why you like me.â
your body goes cold. it's even worse than when he'd rejected you.
âcurse,â you say, detaching his hand from your body. âi feel it around the back alley.â
the night ends. nothing is solved. you go to bed and curl into yourself.
-â
loving megumi is weird. thereâs an odd sense of comfort to it, like youâve known him for longer than you actually have. he makes you feel safe even though he's gruff and a little mean about it. maybe that's just part of his charm, though, because it makes you love him even more.
he seems to have taken your words seriously; he starts to treat you like normal again. he doesn't avoid you anymore, and the obvious tension surrounding you two has disappeared for now. he lets you take a few of his sweaters when you forget to do your laundry and he buys you your favorite snacks sometimes.
it gets to be too much. you almost wish he'd go back to ignoring you. the grass is always greener on the other side.
summer goes by slowly. it's the prime time for bad feelings to manifest into curses. you push away your lingering feelings, convincing yourself that you've gotten over it. it's been more than enough time now, coming up on two months since you've confessed. you don't want your resentment, if you can call it that, to form any bad cursesâyou'd hate for them to be attached to megumi. that'd be a burden too hard to carry.
a few missions involve partnering up with megumi. gojo thinks you two work well together; there's a sort of synergy that you have with each other that is hard to come by sorcerers nowadays. you don't mind the compliments, or at least you pretend you don't.
the missions aren't difficult, but maybe that's because you've grown stronger. megumi has, too.
summer passes. it still hurts.
"you're confusing me," you whisper.
you and megumi are shopping for a surprise birthday party that gojo is forcing you guys to throw for nanami kento, a good coworker of his. you've met him more than once, and you're not really sure if he'd appreciate such a last minute party. regardless, you and megumi are tasked with finding enough balloons to fill the poor man's office.
megumi doesn't allow you to hold any of the bags. he lies and tells you that it's out of habitânobara makes him carry her shopping bags every time they go outâbut you know he's doing it just because he wants to. you're perfectly strong enough to carry a few paper bags, and he doesn't carry nobara's bags like he claims he does. megumi doesn't even go shopping with her unless yuji's there and even then, yuji holds the bags.
"sorry?"
"why are you doing this?" you refuse to look at him.
"doing what?"
"this," you say, gesturing at the two of you. "why do you act like we're close enough to do this?"
you cringe at yourself, aware of how hypocritical you're being. you had wanted this, wanted him to go back to being a friend, to treat you like he had before you went and ruined everything. why are you angry? why do your eyes well up with tears as he steps closer to you?
"we aren't close?" he asks. his arms fall to his side.
passerbys give you curious glances. he takes off his sweater, the one he always wears depsite it being humid out, and wraps it around you. the paper bags filled with confetti and paper plates are set down by your feet. he pulls the hood over your head to hide your wet eyes.
"we are," you mumble out sorely, "but not like this."
"i'm sorry," he says, and you're brought all the way back to the day you had told him about just how much you liked him.
"'s not your fault." you sound like you're trying to convince yourself and not him. "i'm being an asshole. you can forget about this."
you don't want him to feel guilty. he can't help how he feels, after all. you don't want him forcing himself to love you.
"what you said that day," he coughs out. the bags crinkle as he lifts them from the pavement. he continues, "what did you mean by 'always'?"
you squeeze your eyes shut and he pauses next to you. you can feel his soft gaze on you and you're glad you can hide behind his sweater, the cloth draping over you like an oversized blanket.
"i don't know..." you tilt your head up to look at him. he looks like the boy you think you'll always love. "i think i was doomed from the start."
"doomed?" he says, a little amused. "loving me is dooming? how sweet of you."
you need to remind yourself that he's not playing with your heart; this is how he copesâand how you cope, too. he must know you better than you had thought.
you nearly scoff. "it's because you're you. you're so good at being you that it hurts."
megumi slows. you hadnât even noticed that he'd been guiding you down the sidewalk the entire time until now.
"i think it applies to me, too," he say quietly.
"what?"
"'always' applies to me, too." the clarification does nothing to settle your nerves.
"i don't understand," you blurt.
he gives you a look, as if to say, "really?", but he keeps talking, "i think i'm used to this feeling because it's always been there."
"what feeling?"
he shrugs. "you pissed me off when i first met you. you're really stupid, you know?"
your face morphs into an irritated expression. "thanks. you're pretty great yourself."
he laughs and it sounds like music to your ears. "i wasn't finished, dummy."
"sorry."
"you're pretty... a lot more than you think you are," he admits shyly, "and i guess that annoyed me because i kept feeling all weird around you. i got used to it, i thinkâthat weird feeling. but it's always been here. it never left."
you stumble, tripping over your feet at megumi's statment. you don't want to interpret it the wrong way, but with how he's looking at you, you can't help but maybe think that he likes you too.
"this isn't how i wanted to tell you, but," he breathes in sharply, "i don't like it when you cry."
it's awkward. perhaps a little funny, if you really look at it, but it's megumi and you can't hate him. you'll never find it in yourself to truly hate him.
nanami's surprise birthday party isn't much of a surprise. though gojo nor nanami say it, you all know yuji is a favorite of theirs, and no one is surprised when yuji says that he had accidentally revealed the party a few hours prior.
gojo has fun. even shoko, who never shows up to any of these events because of her busy schedule as a doctor, seems to enjoy herself. nanami pretends like he's not entertained, but he has on a fond smile that looks weirdly similar to the way megumi smiles. you're all old enough to party now, as gojo puts it, so it's a little less like a classroom celebration and more like a familial one.
it's the third of july, nearly two months and a half after your confession, when megumi hints that he feels the same way about you.
you don't know what to make of it.
-â
"i like you."
you're in the middle of getting ready to go out with nobara and her favorite upperclassman, maki, when megumi tells you he likes you back. your eyes widen and the mascara you've just finished putting on smears on your lid.
megumi hands you a makeup wipe as if he's done it a million times before. (he hasn't, but he just knows.)
"w-what?" you stutter out, your breath catching in your throat.
"it took me a while to figure that out," he says.
he's flat on your bed, covering his face with his arm. his t-shirt rises with each of his nervous movements. according to the rules set by gojo, he shouldn't even be here in your dorm. he shouldn't be on your bed and listening to your playlist through your shitty speaker gifted to you by yuji.
"are you joking around?"
"what?" he sits up and turns to you, frowning. "why would you think that?"
"is this you pitying me?"
"i just," he sighs, frustrated, "i needed to tell you before i chickened out. i meant what i said the other day, you know?"
"about you getting 'used to' the strange feeling?"
he nods and then slouches back against your pillows. if it had been any other day, you would've felt shy about sleeping in his scent.
"yeah," he says, running his slender fingers through his jet black hair. "i really did mean it. i think i justâi don't knowâpushed you away because i was afraid."
you've given up on applying your makeup by now. your hands are shaking too much, anyway.
"i'm scared sometimes, too," you reply, catching his eyes in the reflection of your vanity mirror.
you see the side of his lips turn upwards. he looks as handsome as ever. he's gotten older since the first time you met him, and it hits you harder now that he's on your bed, his features sharp and his body lanky and tall. there's a sort of intimacy that you sense between the two of you.
"i'm not afraid anymore." his legs swing over the bedframe and he easily reaches the ground even though your bed is raised. "i'll be brave for the both of us."
oh.
"what do you think?" he tilts his head.
you stay home that night.
-â
"so are you guys dating now?" yuji exclaims.
you both freeze.
"fuck off," megumi says instead of answering the question.
"god," yuji huffs out. "finally! all those peptalks and you don't even tell me that you got the girl?"
megumi blushes from beside you. neither of you had expected yuji to be awake to witness you two watching the sunrise on the hill beside the school.
"you know," yuji grumbles, "it took a lot of convincing to have you realize that you've been in love this entire time, megumi. the least you could've done was tell me."
megumi ignores him and snuggles further into you.
"why are you up so early?" you ask, shuffling underneath the blanket that is covering you and your boyfriend.
"instinct." yuji's shoulders drop, defeated. "'k, i'm gonna leave you guys to be romantic and shit up here. have fun explaining this to nobara later."
nobara almost wrings your neck out when she catches megumi holding your hand that saturday morning. she tells him that he needs to make up for the months he left you feeling sad. he says he's already forgiven, and he's not wrong (because you're weak when it comes to him, just like he's weak when it comes to you).
you think that you would've chose to love him no matter the outcome. loving him is easy like that.
a/n: oh my god. this was a word dump and not proofread. i am so sorry this took forever to come out but i ended up changing the plot like a billion times cus it wasn't good enough.. LOL. hope u enjoyed this!!! thx for making me write more megumi because i love writing him (he's been my fave character since the anime came out three years ago hehehe). ngl it was kinda rushed bc i wanted to get this out but i think it turned out fine!!!! ok thx once again ily muah xx
ASKING THEM "WHO I'M THINKING OF" JUJUTSU KAISEN EDITION |PART 2|
MEGUMIIIII <3
SATORUU <3:
CHOSOO <3:
TOGE <3:
The day after your first kiss
Including: Gojo, Nanami, Choso, Sukuna, Toji, Yuuji, Megumi, and special guest Toge !!
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how do you study/code everyday? Genuinely asking, like how do you maintain focus and not get distracted or stop when it gets hard? Ignore the following question if you live your major and school and all that: how do you not get sad? And if you do what do you do when that happens?
With love and admiration, a fellow computer science student who is struggling so much
Heyy and thank you for the ask!
Honestly, I get very distracted a whole lot. Like 50% of my days are procrastination bc I donât want to do things. And I donât study every day, but most days just bc Iâm bad at taking full days off bc of The Guilt lol. Waking up early has helped me a ton, bc even if I procrastinate the morning bc donât want to start doing things, itâll still be early. The annoying thing to say, but it rly does feel like u have more hours in a day that way.
For stopping when it gets hard: I have this one playlist thatâs like 30mins long, and everytime I wanna give up, I put that on, and itâs like a âokay just gotta work until this playlist stopsâ-thing. And sometimes I do just stop after bc Iâm getting nowhere, but sometimes that âpermissionâ to stop doing things actually makes me want to get them done. And sometimes u luck out and figure out the thing in that 30mins. (Sure a timer would work as well but I time my time with music a lot of times idk)
And yeah I get sad, bc like who doesnât. Idk, I feel like the key is to try move on the second u can. You had ur bad days and canât do anything abt that now, so wallowing & feeling guilty about that is not gonna do anything. Itâs a marathon, not a sprint, and a week or so wonât ruin things. Trying to not get stuck in it, the cycle of âIâve fucked this up ohnoâ and getting more depressed from that and then continuing to not being able to do anything is very real. At that point, u gotta remind urself that any little bit helps (if thatâs either towards the school things or like washing piled up dishes; anything to move anything along helps to get urself out).
Also big thing that has helped me; no social media when it gets bad !! All that ârespect the grindâ âthat girlâ âgrind mindsetâ etc. makes it feel way more shitty. But also the mental health awarness side sometimes makes it too easy to be âyeah so im sad, im not going to even try to do anythingâ (itâs fine obv when u just canât, but when u notice 2 years have gone by bc âiâm just having a bad day todayâ everyday, itâs no longer selfcare). So idk, what helps for me is to have the bad days just by myself in the bubble and at some point getting up and doing a thing. Which sometimes/usually snowballs into a couple things. And never underestimate the power of taking a good long shower. Everything seems more doable after a shower idk why. Also I think I say this in about every ask but WALKS !! Are so good !!!!! For everything !!