Littlecigs - Out Of Body

"Why are you so negative?"

Because growing up, nothing ever went right, so now I just expect things to go wrong. I expect abandonment, so I either cling on or push away, I expect things to not work out because that's what I've known. Whether it's a relationship, a goal, anything.

I also just have a severely low self-esteem that was consistently reinforced.

It's true that I can be positive when it comes to others' lives. I believe others can heal and become the best versions of themselves, I believe anyone else can deserve happiness and love. Me, on the other hand? Nah.

i h8 being suspicious about things but damn that gut feeling really is always right

wow I should really go 2 bed omg

I wish I felt connected to these people that I’ve known all my life but I don’t

If someone changes their tone of voice during a conversation with me I feel like the whole worlds collapsed on my body.