Littlecigs - Out Of Body

We’re All Going to the World’s Fair (Jane Schoenbrun, 2021)

Yeah maybe I am a little desperate but I'm making up for all the affection I never got growing up 🙃

perpetual fuck up

unfortunately i have whatever the opposite of charisma is

Been having a hard time with emotional regulation lately, and it just makes me feel so much worse. I really hate the feeling of being angry, and every time it hits it's like oh this feels BAD.

I'm starting to struggle with my weight again too. I thought I was better, but I guess eds don't really leave.

I can't even afford to go to therapy or get pills or anything. I know my problems are small in the grand scheme, but damn I'm tired.

: )

-happyface

I want to be more than my disorders but I also want people to be aware of them and understand them and I find that people think I'm trying to push my problems onto them and force them to be sympathetic but like...

I don't need you to feel sorry for me I just want you to understand me. I just want to be respected...

And when you're tired, think of me

And when the world is all dark and bad dreams, think of me

And when you can't talk, can't walk, think of me

And when the air gets thick and your lungs get twisted, think of me

And when you're lonely, think of me

I'll be there

Ok y'all I admit that some situations are my fault and I did it to myself. Self sabotage goes crazy because I low-key don't think I deserve nice things.