Occultural Magazine Abrahadabra Issue #03, 1985

I don't want to be alive right now

Steffen Lipski

Elbaue

2023

“you’re so mature for your age” thanks I was not allowed to show any vulnerability as a child

I don't deserve the things I want

I hate the days where everyone and everything makes me mad or annoyed because I don't wanna be that angry person but I literally can't fucking control it then I take it out on the people I care about and they don't deserve that

I want to be more than my disorders but I also want people to be aware of them and understand them and I find that people think I'm trying to push my problems onto them and force them to be sympathetic but like...

I don't need you to feel sorry for me I just want you to understand me. I just want to be respected...