Anyone Who Allies With The Agency Has To Go Through The Atsushi Test.

i think a lot about how atsushi sleeps in kyouka's closet. like. boy did you need a den. did you need a little tiger den

i love your blog can you write about atsushi being feverish sick or hc about it? sorry if i have poor English.

thank you so much!! and no worries your english is great!! I'm writing a fevered atsushi sickfic for Sicktember under the "Persistent Fever" prompt that I'm very much enjoying writing so far hehe...

- atsushi definitely has a lot of problems speaking up when he doesn't feel well or just recognizing that he need to slow down because of how he grew up. he has some pretty serious anxiety so when he doesn't feel good he either gets all in his head about or he doesn't realize it

- he gets low grade fevers often when he gets overly stressed out/exhausted/overworking

- kyoka and lucy have learned to keep an eye on him while he's working because he tends not to realize when he has a fever until it gets really bad

- kyoka is very sweet about making sure he looks after himself and lucy scolds the ever loving shit out of him

- sometimes they don't notice in time and he passes out :( they have to take him to the infirmary and keep a good eye on him to make sure he rests

- he's very prone to hallucinations and nightmares when he has high fevers 🥺 he'll turn over in his sleep, shake and breathe heavy and whimper, sweat through the sheets, and wake up sobbing and desperate for comfort

- atsushi is terrified of needles so they have to be sneaky when yosano needs to give him injections. dazai is a pro at distracting him but sometimes atsushi is just so out of it that he doesn't notice. sometimes his fever is so high that he's completely delusional and becomes terrified of yosano💔 he's accidentally hurt her in the past with his ability and they've learned to keep dazai handy to prevent that

- kyoka has to take him home when he's really not doing well because he's sensitive to the antiseptic smell in the infirmary and it makes him very nauseous, and he's very emetophobic so they try to avoid that as much as possible

- everyone in the ADA looks after him very well and sometimes he cries and wonders what he did to deserve their love and care 😭

atsushi with more cat/tiger behaviors but some lesser discussed ones:

he scratches all the doorways of the agency building and his dorm. kunikida scolds him for damaging property for over an hour but while he apologizes he’s strangely uncontrite (at least for atsushi who tends to overapologize) about it

/

a mostly nocturnal sleep schedule feels the most natural to him but since his orphanage’s schedule was (quite literally) beaten into him, he regularly wakes up early, though after a long mission or multiple in a row, he tends to sleep through the day instead.

/

when really frustrated (usually during an argument with akutagawa) he has a tendency to stomp his feet. it tends to break the tension, and atsushi finds its super embarrassing. akutagawa finds it cute

/

he’s constantly fighting the urge to sit on his coworkers desks while they’re working and distract them. same with knocking things off their desks.

/

head bunting!!!! he first starts doing it to kyouka after the end of the guild plot. just does it to her one morning while they’re cooking breakfast without realizing. he’s mortified for a moment until kyouka does it back, equally shy yet earnest about it. slowly he catches himself doing it to the rest of the agency: when kenji gives him a hug after a mission, when yosano buys him something he was looking at during a shopping trip, while sharing lunch with the tanizakis, to ranpo after atsushi solves his first mystery on own, to kunikida and dazai after a dangerous mission. he hasn’t worked himself up to doing it to the president yet (and fukuzawas kind of sad about it). dazai and kunikida are the most flustered by it, kenji and kyouka do it back to him the most.

/

as much as he hates being locked up or confined against his will (and he really hates it), he genuinely loves being in small spaces. he sleeps in the closest for kyoukas privacy but he does geniunely feel comfortable there. sometimes he eats lunch under his desk or in the supply room if he’s feeling stressed. dazai did give him a giant box once to see if he’d sit in it and he totally did.

/

he tends to suck on the corners of blankets and things like his shirts or sweaters when he’s asleep or distracted. dazai used to tease him for it until he read that it was often found cats taken to soon from their mothers. he didn’t really find it funny after that

/

he will just Stare at people. agency members look up from their work and will see him looking directly at them. he usually snaps out of it right after and apologizes but just like slow blinks and winks and closing his eyes, he starts doing it more and more as he gets in tune with his ability.

naomi: hey atsushi do you have an extra-

atsushi, not even looking up from his work, just reaching into his desk and pulling out a hamster:

naomi:

naomi: thanks but i was gonna ask for a pencil

atsushi, taking back the hamster and putting it back inside his desk and giving her a pencil:

naomi: thanks

Hc that atsushi's pupils dilate like a cats when he's happy or excited

Or when he's fighting his eyes narrow into little slits and he hisses

And when he's eating or looking at akutagawa his eyes get really big

Makeshift parental figure (byakkos on her way to work

this fic is one of the best things I've ever read https://archiveofourown.org/series/2388478#bookmark-form

I want a bsd au where Atsushi ran away from the orphanage at one point (maybe the tiger took over and ran off or something) and just ended up living in the woods for a while

Cannon eventually catches up with him one way or another and he’s still Atsushi but his feral cat meter is dialed up to ten

Like, he pushes Kunikida’s paperwork off his desk when annoyed

He takes naps whenever he ends up under a sunbeam

He has Matt Murdock super senses

Whenever he decides Akutagawa is being to much of a dick he just, Chomps™️

All that fun stuff

(I also really like the idea of Dazai having to explain things like curse words and sex and drugs the Atsushi ‘grew up in a catholic orphanage and then The Woods™️’ Nakajima)

Dazai makes one suicide joke and Atsushi is like "what's that??" and everyone just freezes all ?????

YESSSS to the"feel strongly, that's what you do when you want to experience the past". atsushi's hallucinations mentioned by fake dazai YAY next month has to be about atsushi's ptsd PLSSS (also, AWWW atsushi's expressions when he's overwhelmed😭 i want to hug him)

The biggest misconception in the bsd fandom ever to me is people constantly portraying Atsushi as someone who trauma dumps excessively when he canonically barely talks about it at all.

The entire point is that Atsushi does not talk about his trauma he’s just constantly thinking about/reliving it. He can’t escape the memories of his past so he tries not to acknowledge about them.

He only mentions it when asked, either directly or when someone asks him to explain himself.

Atsushi doesn’t even give a cohesive explanation for what he saw while under Dogra Magra, he just apologizes to Haruno and Naomi.

If Lucy hadn’t had her whole “you’ve never suffered the way I have” spiel then I doubt even the audience would’ve gotten to find out about his scars

If Akutagawa never asked him how it felt for the orphanage headmaster to die Atsushi would have never told him that he’s been hallucinating.

In the omake where Kyoka asks him why his hair is like that it’s clear he wouldn’t have told her that unless she had asked.

In 55 minutes Atsushi very briefly mentions sleeping on a dirty floor somewhere to Kunikida because he was trying to explain and justify his behavior.

And the thing is that there are scenes that implies that the other characters see Atsushi behaving strangely and are visibly confused because they do not understand what’s wrong with him.

Remember, we as an audience get to see things about characters that the main cast doesn’t. Just because we see into Atsushi’s mind doesn’t mean the other characters know what’s going on in there.

Also little footnote here that I think the scenes with Lucy and Akutagawa in specific are probably references to the moon over the mountain but I digress