DAY 26

I’ll w3!ght myself tomorrow and I’m scared (even if I løst 1 cm around my W.. anyway)

I know it’s normal to get bløated and a little bit bigger during your period which leads to a temporary w3!ght gain… BUT WDYM I FEEL LIKE A HIPPO HEYDWHEJDNKAN??🦛

And I have to step on a sc4le in 2 FCKING DAYS !!! Imagine.. just imagine.. if the cøll@rbønes I’m seeing RIGHT NOW are just an illusion due to my důmb, deficient, m3nt4lly ill emotional sponge that serves me as a brain??

I think I going crazy, this is irrational thinking but I can help freaking out aaaaaaah

I’m again, going to a 3 days trip (two of them is the time of the travel lmao) and I feel like I’ll be able to walk out of this experience in cøntrøl and with a smile on my face

DAY 4

UGW: 40

I never been to this point, people started worrying before I could. I think that’s because I’m short and when I løs3w3!ght it’s rapidly noticeable. My lw was 41 or something (or little løw3r [?]) I don’t remember. It was 5 years ago. But I think my ugw is more to tell myself to not go løw3r.. I don’t want to worry people again and being forced into “r3cøv3ry” one more time. I don’t want to see my parents' teary eyes and watch my father delaying the moment he has to go to work just to make sure I 3@t something.. it really broke me at the time. At the time, I didn’t realise that it could impact other around me that way and I don’t want my friends and relatives to go through this once more just because I kinda f~ck3d up again. When I come back, if people ask me, I’ll just say “Did I? Idk.. I guess I’ve just been really active in the past month :)” which is actually the reality soooo half lies half true haha

But yeah that’s the reason my ugw isn’t løw3r sorry for this self centred story, thank you for reading it <3

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE🍁

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 soft baguette + 1 ice Americano Snack~ Fruits (melon, water melon, pineapple, mango, and some other) Dinner~ 1 ice green tea + steamed vegetables with roasted chicken and creamy mushroom sauce + løwc@l lychee candy

Total:~ 1600

Couldn’t 3@t more anyway As always it’s an estimation + always add few more c@l to the total “just in case” (lmao 400 ≠ a few more but okay girl) so don’t count like I do, it’s not accurate <33 Just something to track wieiad

Tomorrow I’m gonna try a 24h f@st ! (I don’t count coffee in the equation)

And it start right now!

Basically not 3@t!ng anything until I come back home:)

My life is full of challenges Imputed by myself

The next one is to not have my p3r!ød next month HAHAHAAAAA

Wish me luck ✌️

DAY 22

The typical “Are sure you gonna 3@t more”

Aaaaaand one that I found terrible “ If I push you, you’ll roll ”……. This one hurts pretty bad The funny part is that I wasn’t even f@t, I wasn’t sk!nny either, just normal lmao

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🦎

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ Salmon wrap Snack~ 1 ice tea + 1 ice Americano + 2 lowc@l lychee candy Dinner~ Japanese Soba salad and 2 pcs of tofu filled with meat + 1 serving of shirataki + 2 apples and 1 matcha ice cream

Total:~ 1200

Love the people around me, they gave those 2 pcs of tofu out of nowhere, it was delicious 🌺They are so nice <333

I almost fck up my day with a craving but I found apples and lowc@l ice cream so it’s okay I’m at my limit tho

DAY 5

TW toxic

I used to watch a lot of mukbang content before but I don’t anymore I still watch spsi vs spsk tho (over and over again haha) and now I watch W-H (iykyk), they are really toxic in my opinion, I don’t like them and it’s scary to think that teenagers and children can end up watching they video (that why I won’t give any other info) BUT let’s say that it’s my m3@nspø of the day