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I THINK I HAVE pneumonia, haven't been able to rest, keep coughing so hard I throw up and feel like a pool of liquid is at the bottom of my throat,it clears for two seconds if I clear it right...though everything hurts from the near constant coughing for one...why

Still making opal, just lack a drive due to personal reasons... But once I am able to I want to make other stuff, more detailed I guess, like practice with bodies I guess, it might help me with my drawings and what not, it just seems I can pump out sculptures more than I can drawings, so it’s kinda discouraging when I draw something for a long time I don’t get as much satisfaction as seeing something sitting in front of me. I love drawing, it just feels kinda pointless even though I think I finally found “my style” after all these years, it’s funny though, ever since I was kid I’ve always been involved/interested in the same things, drawing, minerals, outerspace and sculpting, I would rarely hang out with others. I’d always just draw and dig outside looking for pretty stones and stuff, a teacher handed me clay with a sculpting book on how to make beads and tiny food when I was in 5th grade, I enjoyed building things out of wood in middle school and then ceramics in HS, it’s funny in HS it got to the point pretty much any teacher would let me sculpt and draw in class, I miss school, I miss being able to feel “important” or like I meant something, that I had people to talk to about whatever, being able to actually step outside without having a panic attack (heck a bear running in front of me at 5am on my way to school didn’t even freak me out as bad as just speaking to someone now. I’ve regressed so badly, I want to be how I used to be, I want to be able just to walk to a park and sit outside, I want to try my hand at an anime con again and maybe even trying to get a table in AA, but....I don’t know what’s happened to me, all these hopes and dreams I’ve had are all just....so hard to comprehend anymore. 

Reblog art. Always.

Here are wips of a few things I’m working on, forgot to post.

I haven't much to post because of tedious painting 8) I got a laptop recently but havent felt like investing time in drawing on it yet.

I forgot I kinda tried to draw something super quick, like where I didn't take breaks or anything. (this took maybe only under five hours?) But I also didnt want to draw her skirt, too lazy for that..haha.

I forgot to mention, this is the Peridot I have, bigger than I remembered so a figure would be too big to make for this. I might make a plaque instead, that or find some more peridot that is smaller (this is the smallest thing I have besides jeremejevite, which is the size of a grain of rice and some cut gems.) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This is one of my favorites in my collection, I love when they have inclusions. I consider the first pic the front and the second pic the back.

In case anyone was wondering (I doubt) I was just in a mental hospital for a week, gonna go to jail soon too 8D for a slap, for an involuntary movement I've done, it is the same as going to jail for kicking someone while having a seizure....I hope I'm allowed to complain because I personally think my life is shit right now and keeps getting worse. 

You know...I'm trying my best to make money, I just don't find weeks working on something (every second compressed would mean days of work, at least 40 hours straight.) Is really worth only getting 20$...heck even 50$ isn't worth it. The only real "worth" is possible "publicity" I have no other way ME myself can make money...and I am almost positive no one would want to pay what I would find fare for my time taken, my skills, etc.

Some random up closeness from the last Lapis picture I made. :D