My mom called me evil cause I have two stuffed animals named Orpheus and Eurydice and I keep them separated from each other
“I lied and said I was busy.
I was busy;
but not in a way most people understand.
I was busy taking deeper breaths.
I was busy silencing irrational thoughts.
I was busy calming a racing heart.
I was busy telling myself I am okay.
Sometimes, this is my busy -
and I will not apologize for it.”
- Brittin Oakman
- Artwork : Sivan.ka
i do believe Todd's love language includes physical touch but he had a weird relationship with it when he first met the poets. like, all his childhood, he saw Jeff being covered in hugs and kissed whenever he'd come back with a really good grade or be 1st in whatever competition he was in. so without really paying attention, their parents created a weird dynamic where Todd thought that physical affection was something you needed to earn, to deserve. and like, he doesn't even realise it, it's just what he saw his whole childhood, so it's how it works in his brain
obviously, when he was a little kid he was so excited to bring home brilliant grades and medals and trophies too, so he'd get plenty of hugs and kisses from their parents, too. but it never came :( his grades or any other achievements were never good enough, he'd only get a "that's great, Todd. now go tidy it up, would you ?" and an occasional shoulder tap
so, imagine the surprise when he would get hugs from the poets without doing anything special ?? when Charlie would randomly affectionately ruffle his hair or kiss the top of his head, when Meeks or Pitts would gentky squeeze his shoulder out of the blue, when Knox would wrap his arm around his shoulder when they were just walking and talking ? when Neil would hold his hand everywhere and cover him with cuddles and kisses when they were laying in their dorm ? (he didn't expected much from Cameron but he'd get a genuine shoulder tap from time to time). he wasn't entirely comfortable with it at first because he felt guilt, like he didn't deserved it, but that went away real fast and he fully embraced physical affection surrounded with people who love him <3
“Stay close to anything that makes you glad you are alive.”
— Hafiz
“The world gives you so much pain and here you are making gold out of it — there is nothing purer than that.”
— Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey
Some of my favourite positivity birds from 2022!
Thank you for all of the support for my art this year - it means a lot to think I can add a little brightness to someone's day!
I hope 2023 will be full of gentleness, acceptance, and peace for us all!
thinking about him again
“Please be patient with me. Sometimes when I’m quiet it’s because I need to figure myself out. It’s not because I don’t want to talk. Sometimes there are no words for my thoughts.”
— Kamla Bolanos
“I think too deeply about everything. I still don’t know if that allows me to see more of the world, or less of it.”
— Mobeen Hakeem