It is hard resisting being so clingy and begging for constant attention. But I know it is wrong. But. I still yearn so badly for their complete attention. It is so hard not talking to them and giving them space. All I do is wait for their attention.
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my rules ♡
1. at school we’re fasting. doesn’t matter if the schedule is short or longer. PE is not an excuse :)
2. avoid any sort of fast food, butter, instant soups, bread, sugar. you’re not fast, easy, fake nor cheap.
3. if you go over 1000 kcal in one day you have absolute rights to call yourself a pig. because that’s what you are.
4. the only liquid you can drink is water. tea (without sugar, of course) is also acceptable.
5. the first rule of fight club is: you do not talk about fight club. if they care, they will find out by themselves.
6. smile. just smile and act like everything is fine.
just finished
Got an important entrance exam tomorrow that I haven't studied shit for, time to rewatch F**** C***
Jesus fucking hell he does NOT deserve this after his death what the fuck man what is wrong with people. HIS DEATH SHALL NOT GO IN VAIN. HIS DEATH WILL NOT BE ALLOWED TO BE IN VAIN. REMEMBER AARON BUSHNELL. REMEMBER THE YOUNG MAN. REMEMBER HIS SCREAMS.
Got an important entrance exam tomorrow that I haven't studied shit for, time to rewatch F**** C***
the 100 pills and blades I have are my only permanent comfort source
why do I fucking fall so hard and then proceed to get kicked for it
always the idiot with the slowest heart and lowest worth, right? go ahead, yell at me more, father and mother. tell me how useless, lazy, selfish and horrible I am. how i do everything wrong, how i screw everything up. won't matter anyways, when you see my maggot ridden, bloated, decomposing corpse, right? atleast it'll be quiet for me. no longer will i stare foolishly at your faces when you yell, no longer will i object vocally to anything you say.
i will give you the peace you want, mother , and father
Obsessed with his eyes …Â
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