It's 1 Am Here And I'm Just Thinking About How Absolutely Broken Lucy Was At The End Of The Tartaros

It's 1 am here and I'm just thinking about how absolutely broken Lucy was at the end of the Tartaros arc.

I absolutely adore her. So many people hate her and I don't know why.

1. She was never meant to be a fighter. She never felt violence was the option to go for.

2. She's a power house when she needs to be.

3. I just fucking love how much she loves her friends. How she treats everyone. How she forgives and let's go. How she's everyone's moral support. She whines and she's loud but that's what makes her Lucy. I love an outgoing confident personality.

She'll do everything she can to help, in her own way.

- She risked her life when she was stuck in the clock. She didn't mind being thrown into the sky to God knows where if it meant saving everyone.

- I remember she stopped fighting Flare when she realized Asuka was in danger. She ended up getting tortured but if it meant keeping Asuka safe, she endured it.

- She forgave Gajeel for the way he treated her ( more like she never held it against him and treated him like she did everyone else ). Tortured rather. Being lifted up by your hair is probably one of the most painful things ever. She fuc**** forgave Minerva. I mean. Wow. Girl you're too sweet.

- Juvia had no one once her guild was defeated by Fairy Tail. Despite facing off against a person who wrecked her guild, Lucy ended up saving Juvia from literally becoming some bat shit crazy chick. Juvia was so moved to hear that Lucy thought of her as a friend. ( I don't know why this was never brought up later. Juvia saying that Lucy was her first friend is something I'll never forget. Such a beautiful scene. )

Finally....all the other crazy situations we know where Lucy was being her amazing beautiful self- Rewriting the book, saving Natsu, future Lucy sacrificing herself for her friends and the future, she closed the eclipse gate, yadayadayada.

How can someone really hate her? She's everything I'd want in a friend.

But damn. The end of Tartaros.

She sacrificed Aquarius.

Her best friend, her guardian. A celestial spirit that was like a mother to Lucy. She sacrificed someone she held so close to her heart. Watching her cry.....I know her heart was torn to a million pieces. Losing someone precious to you is one of the most heartbreaking and painful things to happen.

She did this to save everyone. To save Natsu.

And to see him leave her when she was already hurting.....I'll never understand how he could do that.

Yeah he left to get stronger to protect her and everyone else etc. Fine. That's fine. But.

I just can't imagine how I would've felt knowing that I sacrificed someone very dear to me, to save someone else ( a bunch of other people ) very dear to me, only for that very person, to leave without saying anything.

Man. I wish Natsu and Happy took the time to ask if she was okay before leaving.

If she was broken before.........Natsu leaving probably left her shattered.

I love my girl. She deserved better there. 🤍

Long rant. I'm sorry.

Edit: By the way I know just how traumatized Natsu was too. In the comments I've mentioned how it must've been for Natsu to lose his father. How traumatic it would've been seeing his father ripped apart like that. That truly truly scars someone. No one can comprehend what it could've been like for him. Which is why I wish we had a chapter dedicated to Natsu coping with that horrible experience. But I still truly believe that him leaving Lucy behind like that when she was broken too, wasn't the best decision. ( Granted he didn't know. But he did know how much she cared for him. )