Idk I Kinda Look Better With Short Hair

vulnerability is like handing someone a sword and hoping they give you a hug instead. It’s gross. It’s uncomfortable. It’s sticky and awkward and makes you want to crawl out of your own skin. deeply hate it but it can be good, i guess.

I think I can be very selfish with my space and I can be very hard to reach emotionally. thinking out loud…

I feel like research these days people want to do things that are “relevant” and they’ll gain traction. And yeah I get that research has to be relevant I guess. And tbh I feel myself falling into that hole too cause your ideas need to be remarkable to be accepted into a PhD program yk? But it’s like I don’t want to stick to one “genre” or field of research. I want to dig into things that interest me or pique my interest? But I also want my work to mean something that even if a random person who’s not into research picks it up they’ll throughly enjoy the research? Idk

breakfast

good morning (i want to go back to sleep)

I hate the fact that sometimes it feels like I have to apologize for being a quiet person. I’m not broken. Don’t project your discomfort onto someone you don’t understand. Stop trying to prod and “fix” me. It’s annoying as shit. My silence is not your puzzle to solve. I speak when I have something to say. My quietness doesn’t mean I am disconnected. I’m constantly processing. Constantly watching and observing. It just so happens that I open up more to people don’t demand anything from me. Why do you flinch at my stillness? Bruh, people are annoying as hell.

solo dinner date

ALL MY MOTHERS - Joanna Glenn