i re-read our old messages just so i can remember your
voice
Christmas dinner! Spent Christmas alone this year, again. Nice and peaceful. đ
In the past year I have been really learning what it means to live with constant forgiveness towards myself. It is so easy to carry resentment and shame that I lose understanding and touch towards my true character. I am creating space for a version of me who can make mistakes, yet be loved unconditionally. Self love is not based on performance, but genuine curiosity and understanding of self.
i find it a bit ridiculous that people are posting âmy 2nd or 5th year unemployedâ on YouTube. Meanwhile they have over 200k subscribers. Am i missing something?
I feel like research these days people want to do things that are ârelevantâ and theyâll gain traction. And yeah I get that research has to be relevant I guess. And tbh I feel myself falling into that hole too cause your ideas need to be remarkable to be accepted into a PhD program yk? But itâs like I donât want to stick to one âgenreâ or field of research. I want to dig into things that interest me or pique my interest? But I also want my work to mean something that even if a random person whoâs not into research picks it up theyâll throughly enjoy the research? Idk
thereâs something super sinister about a sunday afternoon
everyday I wake up and Iâm so grateful to know that women exist.