Kyrie (eleison) 2020, 10x20-ish Mixed Media On Masonite Media, In No Specific Order: Watercolor, Acrylic,

Kyrie (eleison) 2020, 10x20-ish mixed media on masonite Media, in no specific order: Watercolor, acrylic, acryla gouache, gold and silver leaf, gold mica flake, lace

Done for @capri-bigbang2k19 

According to the date on my phone, I finished the sketch in late August. I finished not too long ago, making this my first painting of 2020. How fitting, given this piece includes a lot of firsts: mounting a piece on masonite with matte medium as an adhesive; using squeeze bottles and blunt needles to do fine lining/piping (I need to go thinner,) and making shell gold for the purpose of being liquid gold paint (a technique adapted from how Russian icon painters make shell gold, which is both time-consuming and kind of fun.) I also used matte medium as more adhesive for the lacing after looking into how collage and assemblage artists make their pieces stick without fear of glue breaking or yellowing.

I'd visit this intermittently along with working on bees for my local town - it became a form of therapy in which I was allowed to “get real fucking weird,” as some professionals say.

The dried grass, camellias, roses, sweet peas and baby's breath are a reference to my writing contribution to the Captive Prince Big Bang, which needs to be worked on oops, but I got until Saturday.

Title is from the Christian liturgy, but also a reference to my album of 2019: Lingua Ignota’s Caligula, specifically If the Poison Won’t Take You... (TW: loud music, references to domestic abuse.)