Flights To Japan

5 things I love about you.

1 Your smile

2 loved it when you held my hand and put your he's on my shoulder.

I know you don't like showing affection in public but when you did that it made me feel special.

3 only twice did you say I love/miss you first. That kept me glowing for months.

4 you met my family and chatted with them comfortably

5 when we where lying next to each other, cuddling, I closed my eye and felt our hearts beat the same. X

I miss you Aleema Ali

2013 Eurovision song

The following song i wrote back in 2004(I think or even earlier) and was hoping someone would take it and win the Eurovision contests with it. The plan was to get at least 8 or 10 points from most of the country's and we could we. I also planned to do this because i want to get out of debt and to take the next step, to write a Christmas Number one then a James Bond song.they follow was on the internet for years:

You Are The One For Me

This song is meant for female vocalist (no not me ;), I cannot sing). I was watching the television and trying to write a song but nothing was coming to me until a advert for Tina Turners Greatest Hits came on and thats when I had the idea of writing for a good female vocalist. I just to thinking that ladies like the fairy tail story of when a Knight in Shining Armour comes along and there is a spark between them, which leads to them both falling in love and having a happy long life together.

So with that in mind I just got writing and in about 40 minutes I had a completed song. Hope you all enjoy reading it. Thank you.

V1 I've searched along this lonely road, So I can find someone to hold. I saw you there in the shining light, Could you be my one and true knight? Bridge Helplessly i gazed to you, Will this make my dreams come true? Chorus In your arms I'm flying to the sky, On cloud nine we both can agree. Shoot by Qupid we dont ask why, I just know you are the one for me. V2 Like a flower we grow and bloom, I'm your bride and you are my groom. Down the eilae I feel my heartbeat, With are rings the circle is complete. Bridge Are future is assured, Are children are loves reward. Chorus X2 Music Fade

The Ballad of George Harrison

The Ballad of George Harrison

11 years ago, I was watching the news, getting ready for college, when news broke that George Harrison had died. During the news footage, I heard that he died with one thought in his mind, which was 'Love One Another', and decide to use these words for the song. Enjoy

V1 Come the day I die, I find the place I lie. For the search of God begins, the fear of him is held within. Chorus Minds at peace, my soul still sings, Love one another (my sweet lord). I just want to see the world in peace, Love one another (my sweet lord). V2 Purpose in life is to answer questions, Question with answers are hard to find. I can see the meaning of life; The answers are all in the mind. Chorus V3 Guitarist I am, musician I've been, For my songs are of great artistry. I left the world with my love, And I'll be watching from up above. Chorus and fade

So yeah 2021. Turns out this is the worst year I've had since I was 20.

I was a gambling addict and lost £19k at 18/1o. Wanted to raise the money to go into further education in courses I wanted, not what others wanted for me. I lost the family money, had to get a. Job to pay back what I lost and more into the mortgage and too a loan out to pay my uncle back, with both combined mounted to £65k. £65k of debt and nothing to show for it plus the fact all the education I had I was losing. I was very good at maths but I could tell my skills where fading away. I could read English properly as I'm dyslexic but I could read sheet music. That too was fading away. I had to work to pay back what I lost. I was stuck, didn't want to know the world as everyone my age where going out, having holidays, finding partners and settling down. There was NO WAY I was going to settle down while in debt, depressed, suicidal, feeling worthless, miserable. It wouldn't be fair on the other half. So life was passing me by. I had to live with the consequences of my decision to gamble.

Why I gambled I will post in a later blog, but that was the worst point in my life. My matter what happens going forward it good deal with knowing I won't get the life I wanted, but I still have a life and will make what I can out of it. That mind set ook me till my late 20s to get.

I liked 2020 personally. I enjoyed being on furlongh, I'm home and getting paid. I had over time at my 2nd job. I proposed to my Girlfriend and she said yes on the 12th Feb 2020. My spirits where high. The early scare was my mum when she had Covid but she survived thankfully.

Then it falls. From October onwards. Stresses and mentally drained. Like many others. I felt my fiancee was pulling away from me. I get she was scared of covid and didn't want to hug but I am an affectionate person. She would always reject them which in turn I stopped trying as rejections is painful, esp from the one you love. It was great that I only got a response every 2 days or once a week, but I loved our walks and talks about finding a house. I get she was going through personal issues but I was shut out by her and she would only respond once a week from November. At the same time I had banter go wrong with a colleague I worked with at Asda Small Heath. He started a banter with me that was of a Rasical nature and Deformation of Character, but I knew it was a joke but he couldn't take the joke back.

I told my partner and she did not want to know as she had too much going on. I personally think she over thought it and I wasn't expecting anything from her but she went quite again. I said to her I can't keep meesaging you everyday with Good Morning and Good night, as I don't think I'm helping. She thought I was going to get her to beg me to text back. Wow, that was not the case as I was texting her everyday, beginning for a response and she would one res9one a week.

I made a birthday video for her at the be2of December and the only response I got was, 'thanks lol'. I was thinking

'is that all you say to your fiancee!, you didn't even remember my birthday and your not putting any effort in after you freaken moaned!'

I got a couple more messages and the last was on 23rd December. Didn't here from her on Xmas day nor new years day. Wow. I felt the love! I was, and still am in pieces. She had a go at me for not putting the effort in yet I texted her every day but she didn't. I don't mind her not remembering the anniversary but when I sent her a photo of the flowers she did even say happy anniversary, yet she moaned about Valentines day the year before. She moaned about my lack of buying presents on her birthday in 2019 Christmas 2019 but 2020 she forgot my birthday and as you read, she never messaged me on Christmas.

After all that I still love her. No one's perfect, I'm not, she not, I'm not, but my world feels complete with her. I continued to text her on good morning and good night on Mondays Fridays and the weekends. Sometimes in between but nothing, even on valentines day 2021. On the window sill, I have her Birthday, Christmas Valentines presents with flowers and I took a photo and sent it to her. As I sent the photo to her now knowing it was over.

I never wanted it to be over.

Star Wars Trilogy missed opportunity

Hello All

hope you have watched the film and got the feel of an adventure back.

I did and really enjoyed #TheRiseOfSkywalker

I feel 3 things have been a missed opportunity

Spoilers alert

I would like to have seen the Skywalker blood line continue,

I liked the idea that Rey is a Palpattine, but this is what also should have happened.

1: Luke should have been Rey's dad. When they were talking on Ahch-to Luke could have said to Rey.

'i knew your mother. She had the Force but didn't know how to deal with it. Knowing she was Palpertines daughter I was careful around her. But I had just turned Sidius's Apprentice against him, I had hope I could bring her to the light and help give her balance. We worked closely together. I fell in love with her. We talk about working together to open an academy to train future generations of Jedi and undo what our fathers did.

I came home one evening to find she had gone. Only one note left behind saying

"For the future, I most go. Sorry Luke. Love you"

I could no longer sence her in the Force. I meditated but she closed herself to the Force. I carried on with the Academy while also looking for her, but I never did. My hope laid in the academy, making it a beacon for all Force uses and hope she would return, until it burnt down. I had lost everything, and came to Ahch-to. Closed myself to the Force, and when I became one with the Force I learnt why she ran away. She was afraid. Afraid that the unborn child(unknown to Luke) would have been more confused with the Force and her father would want his Granddaughter to be his new vessel, with his blood line and the 'mighty' Skywalker blood line combined.'

Rey looks up and says

'Your my father!'

This would have given more of a backstory to Luke and why he went to hide.

2: Billie Lourd should have been a secret Skywalker. Leias daughter, after her relationship with Solo ended.

3. This whole trilogy didn't have 2 grand masters fight it out, should have happened in The Last Jedi. I have posted this somewhwre over the internet 2years ago.

May The Force Be With You

Many Social Sites

I for got i was on here, I started on Hi5 Then MySpace, Facebook (still Use), YouTube: Post videos i like. Twitter(still use most), Blogger(use to be my F1 blog, stopped 2 years ago), AudioBoo: thats i use for mt F1 commentary for every race i watch on the BBC. VYou: just joined cus Doctor who said they would follow me if i did lol. Tumblr: Wanted to use this put my Lyrics, and write the eurovision winning song for   the UK. Instergram: new good one for photos, make me wonder why twitter didnt add more effects to the pictures, then they would have done the same thing 1st

WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER WHEN YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD?

Playing my Guitar

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