He's Trying To Be A Good Bf

Dream home 💚

Amazing art keep up the amazing work. Also if it's ok for me to request some nightmare/derpy being in love I would appreciate it.

Been thinking about them for a while

Cumture

FUCK THE QUEUE IS EMPTY AGAIN

I’m so sorry finals have kept me so fucking busy I can’t even. Like I didn’t even notice

once summer break starts I’ll try to not let this happen as much

i’ve had these sketches of Kitty lying around for a while now but I never ended up finishing it because I had to finish drafting my bachelor thesis and then it was my birthday and THEN it was easter and family dinners. But considering it’s April 1st and I don’t think I’ll finish these properly I decided I might as well post these in honor of Kitty because she would LOVE April 1st (idk if that’s a canon thing but in my delusions. This is true)

and yeah my art process is this messy. always. if you zoom in on my art you’ll immediately see it

Them again

I love being alone most of the time. It's the only state of being I know of how to be. Like a concrete flower. There, but not noticed, or acknowledged. Crying alone when nobody else is awake or around. Never having space to myself. Everybody wants to be involved now for themselves. I'm just tired, really. Tired of never feeling like I can achieve a deep emotional connection to anybody, or being completely myself because of things I can not help. It's just something too far out of my reach. I have to just accept my role of being the called upon one, who nurtures and cares for somebody, and being ditched when the person they really want comes back, but still being there. It's my birthright. My curse of life.

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wish is was easier to distinguish between what is my gender identity vs gender presentation. Like I can wear whatever clothes I want, but how do I want them read on me? >:( I'm hoping and praying I get approved for a chest reduction. I want it flat and I want to be free, I can take it from there. With my chest being so big, it's hard to really see myself as who I am....whoever that may be. It improperly fits my body and so clothes are always too fucked up. God I want to be able to see myself aside from this fucked up body.

God every so often I just get that absolute primal urge to just be mlm. I don't know why. I don't know if I find even men attractive, or just can't in my state of presentation. All I know is I want boyfriends sometimes, but only if I can also be boyfriend.