My Range Of Emotions Go From “it’s Scary How Much I Feel” To “it’s Scary How Much I Don’t

Tw: discussions of sh

Me to the voices whispering to cvt after every argument or bad interaction with someone

i need to cut i need to cut i need to cut i need to cut i need to cut

the “i wanna go home” never leaves my head even when i’m physically sitting in my bed

lay on my chest while you tell me about your day

they will replace me so easily and never remember who i even was

Gettimg a random burst of energy but I still wanna kms is so weird cause wdym I'm jumping around and acting silly but in my head I wanna die like what 😭

its okay. Its okay i know you hate me. Im so sorry. I only make things worse and im so sorry, i really did try my best to make everything so nice and perfect for you, but i know im cursed to only make things worse and for you to hate me and to never be loved. Theres nothing that could fix me and i deserve the loneliness i feel. Im so sorry i got so attached. Im so fucking stupid for thinking things can be okay when im involve with it. Im such a dumbass. I deserve to be killed. It would be the greatest mercy anyone could grant me. If i were to kill myself and succeed it would be the one thing in my life i ever did right. You deserve better. Im not good enough for you and im so sorry i made you like me for the idiot that i am. I want nothing more than to bash my brains in with a hammer and wish that the sight could make you smile one last time, because at least then i would still make you happy instead of being angry and disappointed with me.

i can see it in the way you text and write to me. You havent told me things were okay. I didnt mean to make things worse.

Please. Just kill me