*whispers* (I’m Whispering Because It’s Very Important That We Keep This Very Low Key)

~ It was better to be alone than to be stuck with people who were supposed to love you, yet couldn’t ~

Ottessa Moshfegh | My Year of Rest and Relaxation

4.28-5.3

This week has been great honestly. I started back on my cut and focusing more on my weightlifting and cardio (peep the cute gym fit). I’ve been fairly productive study wise, just didn’t take pictures.

My boyfriend came up to visit me this weekend and we went hiking on Saturday and went to the gym. Side note: Emily Henry is probably my favorite romcom author and I’m getting a little sad that I’ve read all her books already lol.

I aspire to be the kind of person who'll stare at your soul from across the road and then disappear when a bus goes by.

| 13 february 2025 |

lecture notes from e&m. this is one of the nicer looking ones haha, kinda struggling with e&m but it seems like it gets better in the 2nd half of the semester (hopefully)

🎧 highway robbery — de'wayne

a masterpiece of tragedy

If life is a never ending loop of dirty dishes and laundry then that means life is a never ending loop of home cooked meals and comfy clean clothes

⎯⎯⎯⎯✮ 4/3/25 ✮⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯

→ Thermodynamics Exam today

→ Engineering mechanics HW Wednesday

→ Math quiz Thursday

→ Computational exam Thursday

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✮⋆˙ Busy busy week and I HAVE been studying daily, just, not maybe the right things whoops

✮⋆˙ Yes I got a coffee today, Frappuccino 8.5/10

✮⋆˙ Lent began on the 3rd and I'm giving up desserts and Instagram. I still open the app reflexively and I'm starting to realize yes maybe it really is that damn phone

✮⋆˙ Anticipating my after-exam dinner (burgers and fries because I've been craving)

tuesday | april 15

lots of biochem going on this term – if i'm not working through a paper for my seminar class, i've got gels to annotate or protocols to study.

SDS-PAGE from a protein purification i did in last week's lab – not 100% pure, but i'm happy with the yield. personally i would have used more resin (that flowthrough is just begging to be repurified) but it wasn't my call.

Thursday, the 15th of May 2025

After I came home from rowing, I couldn't move a muscle. We hadn't the time for a break out on the water and had foolishly chosen a more difficult to handle boat while also not having someone to steer it. It was exhausting to do both. I kept turning around since it was busy out on the canals and I had to steer us with the sculls myself. Nevertheless, I adore being out with the boat. The sky and sun are bright, the wind refreshing and on the shores sit happy people: reading, playing with their dogs, having a barbecue or a drink. I too treated myself but to a pizza and quiet night with a book. Despite that, I carried the exhaustion into the new day and find it difficult to focus on my Czech essays. Somehow I have the ludicrous expectation to make it perfect, all-encompassing, when a good reflection is simply dependent on a specific question and a well-conceived argument.

February 27, 2025 • Thursday

--- 30 days of productivity • COLLAB CHALLENGE WITH @studaxy • Day 20/30 ---

💛 Axy's study time: 0h

💙 Iris's study time: 4h

[Axy's sleep time was like 17h lol but in their defense they were sick and terribly sleep deprived]

Made some IT notes. I'm not drastically lagging behind on that subject anymore :)

🎧 On the Run — Glass Animals