I Think What A Lot Of Ppl In The Saf Fandom Dont Realize Is That The Lovable, Stupid And Reckless Brute

i think what a lot of ppl in the saf fandom dont realize is that the lovable, stupid and reckless brute that we see for the majority of saf... isn't who curt was before the fall.

was curt arrogant and careless before? absolutely, and he does do a lot of admittedly stupid things in the glimpse that we get of who he was before owen's "death." but a lot of people tend to write and interpret him as this like, egotistical buffoon who was nowhere near as skilled as owen, or that was constantly putting him and owen's lives on the line and having to get owen to clean up all of his messes. and it always irks me because there's a REASON curt was so confident in himself, why he called himself one of the best spies in the world---because he WAS. he wouldn't be so famed if he hadn't been especially skilled on the field in the first place, and was able to think with a clear mind at times. he couldn't have been piggybacking off his partners work everytime he went out. he was good at what he did, which allowed him to be a little cocky at times.

its important to remember that the curt that we end up getting acquainted with---this asshole who is clearly out of his depth, not thinking logically, and trying to cover it up with false bravado, is curt at his lowest. curt who just got out of a four year break that he spent grieving the lover he essentially killed because he let his flaws get the better of him in order to combat his insecurities (bc someone i follow said that he probably acted that way during a1p1 because he wanted to impress owen and they are SO RIGHT), curt who's desperate to be like the skilled, suave, cool agent that he was before instead of this useless alcoholic mess. to be the agent that would take stupid risks because he knew he could get out of it without consequences. to be the man that owen loved.

his arc is coming to terms with the fact that he can NEVER be that person again, that owen's "death" has irrevocably changed who he is and how he functions. but that that person is still worthwhile, too.