[my Eyes Wandered, Took The Sights From Both Sides

would you be very kind and share with the class i am shit at navigating fanfic searches

I have found a genre of GenLoss fanfic that I’ve dubbed “Ranboo’s safe but doesn’t know it” and omg I’ve just been crying

Ryan “I fell into a pile of bricks as a kid” Bergara and Shane “I had a nose bleed the first time I entered a church” Madej

Flappy hands and rocking side to side. Intensely. I have fallen over many times. Also if i am really stressed then leg bounce and flappy hands but bigger motions and everything

i just think it’s real interesting how during the code segment ranboo was adamant that we’d choose wrong on purpose because we wanted to kill him. of course we spammed into chat that we would never and we were here to help him, and we cared about him.

gl!ranboo only knew we voted red. for all he knew, the code could have been one of the others he didn’t try. he had no reason to trust us, he thought we’d want to kill him.

and after us screaming at him that we wanted him to live, that we loved him that we would never kill him, thirty minutes later we voted for him to die.

gl!ranboo died thinking we voted because we thought he deserved it. gl!ranboo thought we wanted to kill him. gl!ranboo thought we probably wanted to kill him the whole time because we hated him. gl!ranboo never knew we killed him because we loved him.

Lmfao hey. This is a reupload of a ‘do you love the color of the sky post’ (the philza version) because my first art account got yoted. Very sorry about this (not really). Also is ‘long post’ still banned. Can y’all see this?

Do you love the color of the sky, Mr Minecraft?

Hello, you’re here now.

This took a month - I am sloww. From July 23rd to August 23rd 2021

Edit after reupload: a cut up version is on Twitter lol

The rest of this will be a copy a paste (with edits) from the previous blog. All the rambles and explanation for each part and each person (as in why Tubbo is being held by his leg/ my thought process for them)

Before I start rambling, I want to mention the fact that Phil is never looking at the sky around him, but at the faces and expressions of his friends.

There are two more people in addition to the sbi and Kristin from the last one (The first version of this post). Tubbo and Ranboo, whom I just consider sbi++ tbh.

First one is none other than Miss Kristin herself. I actually used a picture from their Instagram as reference for their clothes. I actually straight up imagine this was from their wedding day(?). I hope I drew Ms Kristin okay. I’m still figuring out how to draw her tbh.

Second is Wilbur. So when I was drawing all of them, I was thinking of what expressions they all would be making. Like Kristin and Phil would be all happy and stuff. And the idea of Wilbur just fucking grappling with the idea that if Phil drops him, it’s fucking over. He’d be done for. Dead (maybe). That idea was funny to me for some reason. So I imagine he just has a look of acceptance/fear while Phil is trying to figure out if he’s okay.

Third is Tommy. He probably gets dropped. L. Because you probably don’t carry someone like that while flying. (Probably because how am I supposed to know.) Tommy is just fucking screaming his lungs out btw.

Tubbo! He actually fucking fell. I asked my friend, “Help me make a decision. Tubbo and Phil. Cute. or Chaos.” “chaos” “CHAOS IT IS” So the idea, in my head, is that Tubbo was originally given a piggy back ride. Tubbo, chaotic, just sort of climbs Phil like a jungle gym or smt and sits on his shoulders. It was great for like five seconds and then he fell. You fucking bet he’s grappling with the idea of death.

Ranboo. The one picture I had in my head the whole time I was drawing them was just. “L o n g c a t.” Cause Ranboo was drawn in such a way that I was thinking of cats being picked up.

Techno. Again, that’s not the way you hold someone while flying but yeah. Techno is probably the only other person to not feel fear in this whole thing. The first being Miss Kristin

(It seemed fitting for Ranboo and Techno to have the aurora scene)

And the last one. Idk man I just wanted to draw a god.

This is the Angel of Death, between storm and chatters.

(The feathers mean nothing, they’re just a nice transition)

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genlosers!! nathan hanover, the composer for the genloss soundtrack (along with a lot of other cool music) did an interview abt his music, i rlly recommend giving it a read its really really interesting :D (he also talks abt working on the blood in the bayou and riptide themes for all the jrwi enthusiasts!) 

https://www.sinclairclarion.com/home/tartan-news/2023/06/14/generation-loss-part-two-the-interview/

Trying out brushes and my gillion design!

Context: this was supposed to be the last panel to a comic called “ dyed hair “ where after meeting Edyn ( that now has pink hair streaks and short hair ‘ , gillion wants to color his hair to look like his sister but makes a mess and chip helps him and after crying a bit because Gill misses Edyn ,chip gives him a little forehead kiss

Probably will finish the comic idk

If you write better than you draw i think i will die reading it cause this is amazing

drawing for my fic on ao3, because apparently I have lost my goddamn mind

(I write better than I draw, I swear)

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kind of a follow-up to this post:

hc that charlie and sneeg once made it out before. something happened, and one of them broke free of showfalls control, and he managed to get the other and get them both out. and once their out, they meet some people, ranboo among them. showfall, pissed at losing two of their actors, two of the ones they've been molding since childhood no less, goes after them with a vengeance. and showfall doesn't care who else gets hurt in the way, so maybe they take the kid whose house they're hiding out in as well. and maybe they decide that the best way to keep these two unruly actors in order is to make sure they know that this kid is on the line if they act out again. so they play within the lines. and they look out for this kid, who wouldn't be here at all if not for them. amd sneeg, he tries so hard to break back out, so he can get both his brothers free again. and charlie, he plays along, and he puts himself between ranboo and the danger, so that even if ranboo is stuck here because of him, at least they're safe and alive. and ranboo, he is drawn to them because they know they've met them before, and he decided then that they dont deserve this, and they know they still feel that way. and why would he be upset with them? its not their fault. its showfalls. they just wanted safty for themselves and eachother.