Hello. Imagine A Meadow.

It's a shame when youd give anything for one man to message you bakc.

You cant even fantasize about him anymore because youve changed so much and you know he must have too.

Complete strangers, and yet... You're a stain on my very existence. I stain on my heart.

Part of me is so done. The rejection is too much and i dont want to subject myself to it. My walls rarely get broken down and once a piece of that soft gushy underside is bruised, I have no problem with immediately cutting that person off.

The other side of me is so entrenched. So in love. So hopeful.

I know my reality. And my reality is that ill only be allowed glimpsed and pieces. Ill never be alloted the full blown love and happiness others find so easily. I'll be alone forever and I just have to accept that.

I've lost everyone I care about and I'm not good at acquiring new friends. I guess I'll leave it in Gods hands. Now that I've gotten closure, I pray that He opens new doors for me into new, life long, fulfilling relationships

"your credit card statement is now available" make it unavailable brother

People are so.... unintelligent

I love people. You can learn something from anyone, even if they cant speak. The problem comes when youre so hyper aware of the world problems and how attainable the solutions would be if things were just a little different. So many people are content. Blissfully unaware of the problems this world faces. Ignorance is bliss. But when youre no longer ignorant, it can be a heavy burden to bear.

im not attracted to men because im not attracted to weakness. Men are weak in character. Weak in morals. Weak in values. Weak in wisdom. Weak spiritually. Weak in their capacity to be vulnerable. They have no honor, no integrity. they're a phallic attached to a headache and i want no part of it.