Darkness Shall Prevail And Light Expire.

"He was weak." 17 Days.

I'm so looking forward to see the Final Mix cut scenes ingame!! = u = / So much more Saix. So much more emotional Saix, höhö.

(Also, I love the fact that Axel and Saix are sitting across from each other in the Round Room. I can't stop imagining Axel to grin and wave into Saix' direction, especially in the beginning when they first joint the Organization - and if just to cheer him up.)

Di[e]ce Appreciation Week | Day 1: The Die is Cast.

Don’t leave me.

I love how you start reading Di[e]ce and you’ve got no idea what’s going on. The word itself isn’t even mentioned in the manga’s first volume and even later on, whenever it seems like things are getting clearer, they just don’t.

This manga turns everything upsidedown. The plot, the characters, their relationships … There’s just so much tension in this manga, it’s incredible.

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 5: SET C - “Lyrics (Hearts A Mess)”

[ Pick apart the pieces of your heart Let me peer inside Let me in where only your thoughts have been Let me occupy your mind as you do mine ] [ Hearts A Mess - Gotye ]

“We shouldn't. Something about the castle isn't right, I can feel it.” “All the more reason to uncover what's going on! We need to know what it is, so we can protect town!” “Protect town? And how on earth are we going to do that?!” “We'll know once we know what's the problem in the first place!” “... Seriously, you're such an idiot.” “Aww, come on, Isa, I need you on this! I can't do it on my own!” “Then how about not doing it at all?” “Uh, no. Bad idea.” “... I really can't talk you out of it, can I.” “So you are helping me!” “You knew exactly that I would.” “Hehe. I just know I can count on you!”

I kept quiet about the way I felt, all this time. I was happy with being near you, with being your friend. I couldn't risk losing you. Yet as time moved on I realised that your presence filled up more and more of me. Whatever I did, whatever I thought, you were always a part of it. At the same time I felt so distant from you. I know that I kept things from you, things you could never know, but were you hiding things from me as well?

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Di[e]ce Appreciation Week | Day 4: Love

awww sions heart is beating for kazuki and sunflowers

day 4 is just a little doodle since im sick in bed and its a miracle that im even awake at all  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I made myself a little reference sheet for Isa’s new clothes! I’m pretty sure they get warped a little by the animation, so some of the details are probably a bit off, but I did my best anyway.

I decided to share it, because maybe it’s a little helpful to others too?

Tumblr crops the pictures by the way, so it’s better to click them.

Messy lighting experiment from a few days ago featuring my two favourite not-quite-human boys. I’m very much in love with Shin Megami Tensei IV: Apocalypse.

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 5: Mm, you’re warm.

“You too ...“

Art source

(referring to this post)

So, I decided to do it like this from now on. Writing all the background info on my pictures in an extra post, rather than stuffing it into the caption. I just don’t feel very well when people reblog pictures with my sometimes very personal thoughts in the captions. It’s strange to see that on other people’s blogs. Also, this way I can write to my heart’s content. All of the unnecessary stuff noone wants to know anyway! <3 Yay.

(I’ll tag this as “dias art blabber”, by the way.)

So, let’s do this. Background infos, thoughts and close ups below the cut.

Starting Point // Summary? There were three reasons for this picture: a) another onset of winter in the midst of May gave me the right inspiration to finally get that spring flower thing out of my head; b) the nice tags by some people added drastically to that + someone wrote that they “miss miss miss” my art and apparently they only ever see my akusais, so here you go ;) ; and c) it’s my 78th post. It called for some AkuSai. -like stuff.

Finding the motif // flowers The basic idea behind this picture was Roxas with this flower. We call them Sky’s/Heaven’s Keys. (sky and heaven are the same word in German ... I guess it means heaven, but I always understood it as sky. When I was a child I’d always imagine flying and unlocking the sky with one of those flowers …) They are my absolute favourite spring flowers and I found them fitting for Roxas. Not just because of the name, but also on an emotional base.

I figured quiet fast that I should get Xion and Axel onto the pic as well. Xion would of course get Forget-Me-Nots. Which is not very creative, I guess. xD Yet so undeniably fitting. For Axel it was Cuckoo’s Flowers. One of the few pink things I liked as a child. Probably because it wasn’t some “girlish baby colour”, but a really hot pink that really sticked out. Aaaalso, cuckoos are brood parasites, not so sure how you think about that, but in my opinion that connotation suits Axel.

// the rest Still I didn’t know how to get that onto a picture. Until it snowed some day in the middle of May. This was exactly the input I needed. I just thought, that if the Sea Salt Trio was spring flowers, then Saix would be the snow. The last picture followed to bring the picture to an end. It seemed so unfinished, almost like a lie, with the three of them happy.

Upload // Or: Tumblr hates me I did really have a hard time uploading this thing. I literally tried everything. Even with the supposingly working size of 540 x 810 px the pictures were still blurry ... I even tried to reduce the height by cutting the pictures into parts. Still blurry. At some point I just decided that I didn’t care anymore. They are clear on my blog or when they are clicked. That’s enough.

Close Ups // I promised them and here they are! That’s about the size I worked on when I was colouring, the original sketches are waaay smaller, they are drawn on DIN A4 paper (see comparison in the end). 

I like to set these two into some sort of ... contrasting parallels? Like, creating opposites, yet showing the similarities at the same time. Wow, does this even make any sense? xD I used more colour on the bottom of the last picture, because I really wanted the red to be strong there. That image is supposed to have a sad at first and then almost hateful atmosphere. I wanted it to have an unsettling effect  when scrolling down (and letting it sink in, of course).

Axel looks like a flower himself. x’D Especially in those colours …

When my youngest sister saw the picture with the three of them she asked me, if they were marrying. x’D

Size comparison with the actual drawing; the flowers in their hands are like super mini tiny.

So, in case you did read this, thanks a lot! Would you mind letting me know what you think about it, please? Like, does it make sense to do this? What are the interesting parts? What is not? Anything else that you would like to know/see? Did you like the close ups?

Anyway, thank you very very much for showing interest! :D That’s basically the reason for me to finish pictures and put them up on here. You, that is.

“I’m the one who killed my mentor.”

Happy UR-1 incident day (October 7, 2020)!! He knows what awaits him.