I'm So Pissed That All She Has To Say It That She Has Been Over It For A Month....she Has Been Cheating

I'm so pissed that all she has to say it that she has been over it for a month....she has been cheating on me the entire time we were together. Oh oh and she stopped having sex with me.... That's why I was on the daiting site....not because I didn't love her because she didn't want me....there was always and excise when I did ask... She was sleeping with someone else and didn't want to fuck me anymore...fuck her I tried to talk tell her that I understand I fuked up but she was already hooked on arron or what ever his fucking name is.....ahe never listened to me...she wouldnt help around the house.....but I'm a slob and lazy and didn't do anything when we were together right? That's what she has been telling ppl.....I told her I knew I fucked up....but she choose to sleep and leave me alone and not spend any time With me.....she didn't spend time with me she just wanted to sleep it's her fault this all happend I had some to do but she made it verry hard to find a job and clean the house and watch Brennan all while she slept....im gone and there is nothing that will get me to go back....im done I'm pissed she chose the childish way out and no she didn't try she just made "attempts" and to me it just felt like her being her....so I was looking for work but she doesn't know that I had a couple interviews but she doesn't know because she was sleeping.....i did so much and couldn't find anything and yet she kept saying she wasn't happy.....i tried angie...i tried I called places and went to like 4 interviews..... but because she had to have her schedule I told the interviewers the hours I could work because sometimes I have "My son" or she works at a 11...but I'm the one who didn't try.....she was talking to people the entire month....while I was basically stick and set up to fail.....hard? Ha this is not hard this is more....and it makes me shake as of I'm having a seizure.....i shake like my body is shutting down like when you get to cold in winter and you get trembles same thing.....its a violent shudder.... Idk what to do