And For It To Be The Most Embarrassing Experience… :,)

she was absolutely breath taking

Shelley Duvall, 1970s

Conformity is the expression of an individual within society. It shows others how we wish to be perceived and treated by others in our social standing. Conformity is both imperative and a drawback in humankind. We see examples of extreme conformity in the Nazis, what if each individual soldier had not conformed to what the "norm" of Germany was in 1943. How different would the war have gone? They saw no other way to be part of their culture than to follow what everyone else is doing. Conformities are not evil though.  You see conformity in the way that everyone speaks and eats and dresses. What would the world look like if no one followed the rules of english, because every aspect of the things we conform to is abratry, just as the language of english. In life you need to find a balance of following the crowd and swimming upstream, because without social rules and conformity civilization is lawless. 

owl house oc, I don’t have a name for her yet. :)

73% on a math ASSIGNMENT! :( literally hate school

The black phone (2022)

The black phone (2022)

In my opinion the black phone was the perfect mix of horror and coming of age. It was a fun movie for  teenagers to even  the middle aged. The nostalgia of the 70s was not lost on me and I really think that it hit the nail on the head with culture references; but that is not the only thing they hit the nail on. The bone chilling dialog from the grabber hits so deep in the chills. 

“Eat it, don’t eat it. You are already down here. What do I need to drug you for?”

 This is so gut wrenching I could legit feel my stomach turn. It really highlights to me just what they were going for, the fear of gay pedophiles. All though, I think they were going for a metaphor, or at least wanted to bring this fear that they had back then to life. Despite the grabber being the main “villain” so to speak, I think what really had me hooked on this movie was Gwen, her father and Finney.  Madeleine McGraw’s performance was truly raw and scary.

“My dreams are just dreams.”

The way her voice was raw and how she had her face was so uncomfortable, it really made me feel her and Finn.  This and the dad saying “You are not your mother. You do not hear things. You do not see things. They are not there.” had me on the edge of my seat; which I was anyway all movie. 

I don’t think I can explain how much I loved this movie; from the plot to the execution and the cast, it really slid into place. I think this is probably the movie of the year, or at least the thriller of the year.  

I was all over her-salvia palth

The feeling of this song is best described by the album it belongs to, melancholy. This song triggers a sense of detachment, but still evokes a feeling of contentedness. I can feel the dull numbness of this song all over my body, the feeling of winter depression; A feeling I am all too friendly with. The lyrics are dreary background noise but they still hit hard. 

“I just remember I was lonely 

I guess I am always, it's not a problem”

This to me is one of the most relatable lyrics ever written. On the other hand, I don’t think it’s the sadly amazing lyrics that make this song so beautiful, I think it’s the complete composition of the song.  Every part of it makes that distressing feeling all too real; in another song I don’t think I would feel the lyrics just as seriously. All in all, I think this song is well deserving of being one of his most popular, if not his most, I love it and I know that it holds a special place in a lot of people's hearts.

Sad how short sighted the world is

I hate applying to schools so much, I have good grades but everything is so competitive. And I applied to a reasonable school for a non competitive major and DIDNT GET IN?!? what. I’m just so pissed cause I just need to get into a school so that I can stop worrying about it. I’m literally gonna rip my skin off