dark!merlin redemption au where nimueh steals merlin as a baby and raises him to be Cold and Ruthless. his job is to murder uther and arthur, slowly, with his power, so it looks like a disease. instead of becoming arthur’s manservant, he becomes uther’s. he curses uther’s breakfast every morning before giving it to him, and barely interacts w arthur at all.
when uther dies, arthur is merlin’s next target. he becomes arthur’s manservant because arthur views him as a connection to his deceased father, thinking maybe merlin saw a different, softer, kinder side of uther that arthur never got to witness. no such side existed. instead, all merlin saw was a broken, cruel, cowardly man, consumed by fear and hatred, who only smiled around three times during the year that he served him.
uther hated magic, hunted magic, and in turn, it hated him. it hunted him. uther lost, magic won, and that was that.
arthur, on the other hand.
he’s different. merlin sees that right away. at first, being cruel and hardened by nimueh, he doesn’t care that much. he curses his breakfast like he did uther’s. but then arthur starts banishing sorcerers instead of executing them—which merlin knows isn’t that much better. he starts giving them proper, fair trials, and merlin almost hesitates. he doesn’t, of course, but almost. there’s a job to be done, whether the king was slightly more lenient to sorcerers or not.
then arthur starts letting commoners be knights, and starts asking questions about magic, and starts visiting druids and begging forgiveness, and merlin really does hesitate. so arthur isn’t his father. so what? he still hated magic. he still hunted sorcerers as a sixteen year old boy, who was brainwashed by his father, who was scared and desperate for approval, who—
no. that doesn’t matter. arthur killed sorcerers. well, his men killed druids, but he led the whole thing. what does merlin care that he cries about it every night, has nightmares, keeps trying to pass laws to protect them and supports morgana in her practice of magic? he made mistakes. those mistakes got people killed.
perhaps the curse that merlin puts on his breakfast gets a little weaker.
nimueh is angry. nimueh is getting impatient.
“he’s getting tired. he’s ill,” merlin argues.
“it did not take you two years to finish uther,” she returns.
“uther was older.”
“don’t think you can toy with me, emrys. see to it that the pendragon dies within the year, or you both shall suffer.”
arthur still treats merlin like shit most of the time, but merlin notices that there’s no real bite to it anymore. no more heaping of unnecessary tasks, no more hitting him with spoons or sending him to the stocks. this arthur is fairer, and kinder, and a tyrant, merlin reminds himself, though he isn’t even sure of that anymore.
mordred is the first sorcerer to be a knight. he uses his magic to defend camelot.
merlin is confused. conflicted. concerned.
the year passes and nimueh is furious. when merlin kills her, he tries to make it quick. she raised him to be so cruel and stunted that, when he does kill his mother figure, he only sheds a single tear. then he moves on.
may write more idk
if you close your eyes you’ll be able to sense jacob frye trying to iron his shirt while still wearing it
Allelon Ruggiero as Steven Meeks in Dead Poets Society (1989)
(#Me when I look at the show creators’ choices)
The Maze Runner: A Bad Lip Reading
found this on pinterest coincidentally being next to each other
thought i'd share this playlist since i've been super obsessed with classic/retro f1
the terror (2018) would've been easier to enjoy if i can tell white people apart
TSH spoilers:
I feel like we as a fandom do not talk about Henry’s symbolism in TSH enough. Like, that dude is the literal embodiment of death, and I just think it’s so damn cool. I mean, his whole obsession with language and literature stemmed from the fact that he almost died in a car accident. And then every death we see in the book (the farmer’s, Bunny’s, and his very own) is directly at his hands. The others were accomplices, sure, but Henry’s the one who takes action every time. And in Francis’s failed suicide and Richard’s near death in the epilogue, they both see Henry, not Bunny or Charles or what have you.
Henry is not only obsessed with death, he IS death. He’s the reaper who’s friends toy with their mortality all the time through drugs and booze. The reason they all admire him is not only because of his size and stature and brilliance; it’s because he’s dangerous. If beauty is indeed terror, than he’s the most beautiful of them all. They all have the life preservation skills of a fly, so of course they love Henry. And of course his actions constantly bring them closer to danger and death.
@smuggsy requested: Farrier + COLORS DUNKIRK (2017) dir. Christopher Nolan