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Darling, if your love was a storm, I would still dance in the rain.

-hurricanes and downpours and us

I’m just going to leave this here…

System Of A Down performing (and Rammstein watching) @ PinkPop 2002

I should be doing homework jdslklkd anyways have this stupid thing I made in under 3 hours

original audio from here

Theo “I adore you with every fibre of my being. I would give everything for you. Every penny I have the shirt off my back the shoes off my feet, everything I have I would give just to see you smile. I love you like I have never loved anything or anyone, which is why I cannot marry you, I cannot lock you in to a life of poverty, a life of fear and doubt. You deserve to have everything you’ve ever dreamed of everything you’ve ever wanted. You deserve to live a life of comfort, free from worry about where your next meal is coming from, or how you’re going to afford this months rent. And when your health fails you, in the hardest hours of your life, you deserve a doctor by your side. I can’t give you that life, miss Eloise, so you should go, now. Go and find someone who can, a gentleman who can allow you to live the life you want in comfort and peace. And I will love you, silently from the sidelines. I will watch you walk to your love on your wedding day, and tell everyone that asks that the tears I shed are those of joy.” Sharpe

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Eloise “perhaps you are right. Perhaps I do deserve better than this life, but doesn’t everyone? Why am I so special and different that I deserve more than everyone else, no. I may deserve a better life than the one you can give but I do not want it. I am a woman, Theo. You know as well as I do that there are a very limited number of decisions I get to make for myself in my life. Who I marry, where I choose to begin this part of my life, the person I choose to have by my side until the day I die is one of the ONLY decisions I get to make. One of the ONLY decisions I get the final say in and I’ll be damned if I allow you to take that choice away from me. You may think I deserve better but I do not want better. I want you. I want this life. Because I would rather struggle through with you than live a comfortable life in a big house with some gentleman, and on my deathbed realise I have never truly lived, never truly loved. I deserve to die without regrets, with the man I love by my side, so I do not care if you think I deserve better Theo, because you are what I want. I deserve the life that I want. Please do not deny me that. I love you Theo. And I will never marry anyone else so I suggest you meet me here in agreement, so we can finally begin building the life we both deserve.” Bridgerton

Multiple Personalities Millennial Trafalgar Law au

What if there was an op au that was like the millennial/genz answer to fucking Fight Club

May I present:

Dissociative identity disorder Law, but instead of being a toxic 90s action movie trope hes just this gay depressed millennial with some shitty early trauma, no will to exist in our dystopic modern society, and an antiestablishment streak a mile wide

So, one of us

His alters aren't some crazed antihero things, but protective personalities that (soemtimes ineptly) try to keep him safe from harm and stress

So, his crew

Penguin is the main alter, an efficient yet chill goofball who takes over whenever law cant deal with mundane stresses like going to the bank.

Look, hes a millennial, the bank is a fucking ordeal.

Shachi is a peppy, social sweetheart who takes over when law is forced into social situations, especially groups. Shachi and penguin together take care of most stresses Law faces in the world

Law can deal with most things, he's getting better. but there'll be seemingly random things like a siren or a screech of laughter and he'll just find himself phasing out, til hes gone, and penguin will find himself standing on the street with no real clue how they got there or what they're supposed to be doing. But he rolls with it! Penguins good at figuring things out and getting them home. Law leaves notes for him and shachi on their phone so they know what's up that day if something should happen. They record clips for each other on the phone too, to discuss things. They regard each other like roommates, even brothers.

There's the bepo alter, who comes out only in private, and carries the burden of Law's need for comfort. He's emotional, hesitant and extremely vulnerable. He's also one of the only ones law can let out or stifle on purpose.

Law tries to let bepo out now and then, because he feels bad that he's always stuck in the deep dark of laws head. Law will bring home a fluffy blanket and a pumkpin spice latte and let bepo take over for a couple hours, so he can experience some good things.

Then there are the Doffy and Cora alters

These aren't quite... as helpful as the crew alters, but they're not actually antagonistic. They're part of Law's development and they're older than the crew. They're also the only ones that can 'co-pilot' with law and share thoughts with him, though never at the same time.

Law can't control them.

They come out in response to more extreme stresses, and can sometimes take over and push law to the passenger seat. They are usually at odds with each other and sometimes fight to come out if they don't like what the other is doing.

Doffy is simple. He emerged from law's early experiences of extreme cruelty, and that's what he's good at facing. Any hint of toxic treatment from others and Doffy will suddenly be in Law's ear, analyzing the threat and suggesting horrific ways to eliminate it. He also tends to emerge in moments of extreme frustration or pain. He wants things to be simple for law -- he wants them to do the things that will get them ahead, and to not care about the human consequences

Law never lets Doffy take over because law is not a fucking idiot.

Law has a complicated relationship with cora.

Cora is an expression of love and altruism who emerged from witnessing others' pain. He's actually kinda violent himself, but just because he's so protective. He cant stand seeing others hurting, especially the weak, and will come out when Law is faced with injustice or grief.

Law feels complicated about him because this empathy and self sacrifice thing is seriously nothing but trouble. Every time. Law wants to do things Cora's way, he really does, but it's never good. You get involved in stuff you dont wanna.

Cora has a bad habit of taking over if Law is being resistant, and making him stop the bullies, punch the cop, or worse, offer a shoulder to someone in need.

Which is great, except that these things usually lead to Law being faced with violence or second hand trauma in turn, which then leads to... doffy coming out.

The fic is about Law navigating daily life with all this happening in his head. But the tension doesn't come from like, "will doffy win and make law do all kinds of crazy stuff" because all of the alters, doff included, are just there to keep law safe.

The tension of the story is about Law navigating the shitty everyday of late capitalism, and learning how to be vulnerable safely, and finding balance between his fight or also fight coping mechanisms, and maybe finding love...

I mean, definitely finding love.

And since this is a fight club au, at the end of the fic he definitely still blows up some credit card company together with his lover and they hold hands

concept: spotify wrapped but for fanfics

like these morons cannot put two and two together. ask yourself why a conservative would want to restrict what a teacher does. well what does a teacher do. teach. now why would conservatives want to control what people are taught. well,

@/anonymous

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