Flowers For You

तुम मुझ को कोई उपहार ना दो प्रेम का अपने प्रमाण ना दो बस क्षण भर बैठो साथ मेरे बस वह क्षण हेतु तुम्हारे व्यापार ना हो; तुम मुझ को पूरा संसार ना दो बस अपना ठंडा तुम व्यवहार ना दो मैं बनाना चाहता स्मृतियां संग तुम्हारे बस वो स्मृतियां तुम्हारे हेतु उपकार ना हो; अब अंधियारे का बाण ना दो मुझे तुम परिपक्वता का सार ना दो तुम चाहो तो करना सहायता मेरी परंतु उस सहायता का कहीं प्रचार ना हो; कहने को तो हो तुम पिता मेरे मुझे जीवन का उपसंहार ना दो ना दे सकते जो तुम अर्थ प्रेम का मुझे घृणा का आकार ना दो।

-nikamma

Sometimes you just need to lay on the floor Road.

me after pretending to be okay with a situation that makes my heart physically hurt

I used to struggle with my sensitivity a lot I still do and sometimes it's just too much to Cope up with. It's like a belief engrained in my head since childhood and who am I supposed to blame about that we literally adapt to behaviours that people around us point out in us. My dad called me sensitive that one time I cried when I was 5 and I am supposed to carry it with me all my life? Just because one of the girls in my class back in 9th grade said I don't possess leadership qualities because she was clearly jealous should I just close my eyes and believe her?? When people call you by terms you don't clearly identify with you will fucking believe it everytime and that's because you don't know yourself enough. When situations like these arise you are supposed to argue back and say no I am not. You aren't dumb if you can't solve that one math problem that can clearly be practiced. You aren't unlovable just because a certain someone failed at loving you. Never give anyone else the right to tell you who you are and don't look for the answers outside. You are much above those marks on the paper and number of people interested in you.

At least acing the exam is constant

Unfortunately I can't be your cool nonchalant mysterious partner and would be jealous of each and every single human who has the privilege to see your smile, look you in the eye, hold your hand and simply be in your presence ever.

You outgrow people who don’t grow with you.

"I am what I think you think I am"

I heard this while listening to "on purpose" by jay shetty and it's been stuck with me ever since. Sometimes we become those versions of ourselves that we think other people might think about us. If someone ever called you intellectual you would feel great about it but now you would be scared to disappoint them so you would inevitably act like it. The problem begins when you start looking for that validation, when you want them to say it again just because it made you feel good. When someone specifically points out that you are selfish and you start to sabotage yourself.

The only person capable enough to validate you should be you, yourself.

done healing my inner child. next up is my inner teen. her highness demands a sword.

Indians serving looks at Met Gala 2025