I’d Rather People Just Say They Hate Sydcarm Than To Insist They’re Platonic Under Every Fucking

Please help me find this old forum full of fanfiction please

Full disclosure: this is entirely NSFW, but insane NSFW. I don't know what you'd call it today? Whump? Torture porn? I don't fucking know. My details on it will be a little off because I was a very mentally ill teenager with limited access to the internet. I can't remember basic facts about my life, let alone this fucking website, but I'm now showing my wife The X-Files for the first time and I'm like "this fandom has some of the best fanfic ever but also the most insane?" and this has been plaguing me for the past five years. I lost the link I think?

It was a forum. I remember it being a blue colour scheme, maybe green? It was cool toned. I'm 90% certain the entire website was dedicated to 'extreme' and 'graphic' content. As in, there wasn't really fluff on the site. It took a while to load up, but I was living in the middle of fucking nowhere with shitty wifi trying to load it on my seven year old phone so who knows. I cannot remember the name. I want to say they were organised into cute little categories but I can't lie I don't remember.

It was definitely a product of the old internet though, but I know that's absolutely no use.

However! I remember one (1) specific fanfiction o on this site! And I do not think it was cross posted! However, I do Not have the title! The storyline was essentially Mulder was kidnapped and forcibly given heroin until he was addicted, and then was like. Just dumped? I don't think he got out himself but I can't remember how and then it was all withdrawal/addiction themed hurt/comfort. Mostly hurt. Not much comfort. (In hindsight, that was probably a good tagline for what I remember the site being).

I don't know. I just want to know I'm not crazy and that it actually existed? Anyway, thanks for reading if you read this far lmao.

the way they went back to the painted poster aesthetic for this season oh we leaving the fucking freezer NOW

I cant belive I saw this show when I was 8 and this is my taste in men since 😭

i found it

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how to say "I love you" in x-files [144/?] ⤷ 2.15 — “Fresh Bones”

Watching X Files from the beginning for the first time while I do some repetitive tasks working from home, and my god Mulder and Scully were really looking at each other like that from day one. Like, eye-fucking sloppy style. NSFW longing glances. Explicit 18+ pining. Unreal.