I Just Want To Give Up I’m Tired From The Bottom Of My Fucking Soul Like I Don’t Want To Do This

i’m like if a court jester had a fat ass and a sickening sense of melancholy

“My only relief is to sleep. When I’m sleeping I’m not sad, I’m not angry, I’m not lonely, I’m nothing.”

— Jillian Medoff (via psych-facts)

I need to see a bitches arm vein while she chokes me, I need a death grip on my throat

I am in pain constantly. I am overwhelmed by my emotions constantly. But at the same time I feel so empty all the time. How is it even fucking possible to feel everything and nothing all at once? How is it fucking possible that I feel like my emotions so fucking intense they cause me physical pain, but also feel so fucking empty? What the actual fuck is that? I just want to be okay, all I want is to not be so fucking miserable anymore.

i want this ache to end

[AFTER REVEALING VERY TELLING PERSONAL INFO] But don’t read into that. let’s move along