Some people say Bashir is in the closet, in denial about his gay thoughts, but honestly given Star Trek is supposed to be set in a super progressive future then, (ignoring inevitable attitudes of the time it was written) I don't think he's in denial of his sexuality.
I think it's far more likely that he's on a Bajoran space station and is dealing with the sudden realisation that he is deeply attracted to suspicious morally ambiguous Cardassians.
okay but there is something disquieting about this urge to cast fan writers as altruists. they give us all this for free!! well, no.
they’re sharing
it’s a key difference in perception. fic isn’t given. it’s shared. it’s part of a fandom community— in which readers are also an integral part.
it’s probably inevitable mission creep from the increasingly transactional nature of the internet and fandom-as-consumerism, which was always gonna happen after corps worked out how much bank there is to make from those weirdo fan people
but like. fandom is sharing. i think we’ve lost that somewhere.
this is literally the only compelling case for doctor kelas parmak being real like
who would win in a fight, the delicious trauma of parmak being dead as hell absolutely nonexistant OR the delectable drama of a man meeting the near-identical younger model he got traded out for
I can never decide!!!! both options are so great!!!!! two absolute cakes!!!
Honestly, if Kelas is real did used to date Garak that makes his POV on Julian even more hilarious.
Like, imagine not seeing your toxic ass ex for years, then he comes back from his state enforced trip abroad with a new boyfriend whose half his age and just happens to be a doctor like you. God he would be so catty, as he should
My brain every time I hear "Beshear".
I’m usually glad that star trek didn’t get consumed by franchise capitalism the way some other beloved sf/f stories did
but
last night I lay awake, thinking about how sick a civil defense ds9 inspired interactive theme park ride would be………..
mini julian that can infodump by overlaying him on my notes
[or, that time I spent almost nine months perfecting a self-indulgent playlist for the morally grey space lizard. if anyone checks it out i hope u like it aough <3]
♦︎ fave lyrics under the cut ♦︎
Pedestrian At Best – Lynks (Courtney Barnett) put me on a pedestal and I'll only disappoint you / tell me I'm exceptional, I promise to exploit you
Killer Queen – Queen gunpowder, gelatin / dynamite with a laser beam / guaranteed to blow your mind
Compulsive Liar – Ezra Furman and even if I love you / I'll always be conniving / I'll always be negotiating with the truth // it opens at a young age / that all-protective closet
There’s a Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered, Honey, You Just Haven’t Thought of It Yet – Panic! At The Disco talk to the mirror / oh, choke back tears / and keep telling yourself that I'm a diva
Karen by Night – Jill Sobule I overheard Karen whisper on the phone / she said, "meet me at the club, there's a shipment coming in / and I can't pull this one off alone"
Snake – Halflives I'll twist the knife and leave you with a vicious ache / I won't blink, I won't shake, no / because baby I'm a snake
Dangerous – Son Lux are you dangerous? found your way to my bed / spend fewer nights with the living then I do with the dead // are you dangerous? carved right into my head / quick lobotomy, then left me for dead
Ghosts of Utopia – IAMX you're the conquered stars, the divided heart / you are the ghosts of Utopia / you're the miracle of America
Government Hooker – Lady Gaga I could be girl (unless you want to be man) / I could be sex (unless you want to hold hands) / I could be anything, I could be everything
Symphony for a Spider Plant – Mort Garson [INTSRUMENTAL]
I Think I’m Going To Kill Myself – Elton John I think I'm gonna kill myself / cause a little suicide / stick around for a couple of days / what a scandal if I died!
Mein Herr – Liza Minnelli (Cabaret) you mustn't knit your brow / you should have known by now / you'd every cause to doubt me, mein Herr
Edelweiss Waltz – Irwin Kostal (The Sound of Music) [INSTRUMENTAL]
Michael – Franz Ferdinand Michael you're the boy with all the leather hips / sticky hair, sticky hips, stubble on my sticky lips
Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This) – Eurythmics some of them want to use you / some of them want to get used by you
The Partisan – Leonard Cohen when they poured across the border / I was cautioned to surrender / this I could not do
Cold Cold Cold – Cage The Elephant doctor, the problem's in my chest / my heart feels cold as ice, but it's anybody's guess
The Alcoholic – Röyksopp [INSTRUMENTAL]
Heroin – Lana Del Rey I'm flyin' to the moon again, dreamin' about marzipan / taking all my medicine to take my thoughts away
Mosquito – Model/Actriz down the mirrored halls / wearing cuffs with insignias gleaming / with a body count, higher than a mosquito / with a body count, higher than a mosquito
Faggot – Mindless Self Indulgence dig me now and fuck me later / and sing it to the tune of "faggot, faggot, faggot"
Terrible Things – Brick + Mortar sometimes I think of doing terrible things / I know I shouldn't think it but I do anyway
Before the Line – dodie now every morning since the line between my lives / I greet the sun, and ask, "have I already died? / If not then why am I alone? / and when can I come home?"
Old Money – Lana Del Rey but if you send for me, you know I'll come / and if you call for me, you know I'll run // If you change your mind, I'll come, come, come
Everybody Wants To Rule The World – Tears For Fears all for freedom and for pleasure / nothing ever lasts forever / everybody wants to rule the world
Snakeskin – Rina Sawayama buy my expensive, exclusive, pain wear / my fine couture is your branded repayment // like a snakeskin, like a snakeskin / wear me out and tear me down like
Me and the Devil – Gil Scott–Heron early this morning when you knocked upon my door / and I say: hello Satan, I believe, it's time to go
Maybe This Time – Liza Minnelli (Cabaret) something's bound to begin / It's gotta happen, happen sometime / maybe this time / maybe this time I'll win