Poor, precious lizard boy. I liked ASIT, it’s a damn fine piece of literature. I also liked how he was sad and confused most of the book. I can relate to that
i joined the ds9/garashir fandom mainly because the show and the ship live up to the hype, but also because I knew a 30 year old fandom wasn't going to burn itself out any time soon. i knew i could trust a community this established to hold steady, to keep finding new results tumbling these guys around in our brains ad infinitum.
brother i did not come here expecting new content.
no part of me was prepared for today's events.
i am dizzy.
garak is a pathetic extremely mentally ill cringe gay man in his fourties who day drinks and abuses his prescription meds trying to fuck a twink 15~ years his junior. garak is an ex agent of a fascist state's secret police and has tortured and killed dozens of people. garak is cunty and flamboyant. garak is smarmy and a rude bitch and talks in stupid riddles. garak is terrifying. garak has done unforgivable things. garak is capable of change and kindness and affection. garak wants what's best for his fatherland. garak is a nationalist. garak wants desperately to be loved. garak cannot let anyone truly know him. garak cannot handle emotional intimacy. garak is ready to sacrifice himself for a higher purpose. garak is ready to sacrifice others for what he believes to be a higher purpose. but most importantly garak is a fucking lizard
Turned myself into a cardassian! I kinda look like Dukat lol
I'm honestly relieved that my hyper-fixation has over 900 episodes of TV and 13 movies.
> learn of the show “deep space nine”
> set aboard a stationary station that doesn’t move
> watch first episode
> it moves
where do the lies end
[or, that time I spent almost nine months perfecting a self-indulgent playlist for the morally grey space lizard. if anyone checks it out i hope u like it aough <3]
♦︎ fave lyrics under the cut ♦︎
Pedestrian At Best – Lynks (Courtney Barnett) put me on a pedestal and I'll only disappoint you / tell me I'm exceptional, I promise to exploit you
Killer Queen – Queen gunpowder, gelatin / dynamite with a laser beam / guaranteed to blow your mind
Compulsive Liar – Ezra Furman and even if I love you / I'll always be conniving / I'll always be negotiating with the truth // it opens at a young age / that all-protective closet
There’s a Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered, Honey, You Just Haven’t Thought of It Yet – Panic! At The Disco talk to the mirror / oh, choke back tears / and keep telling yourself that I'm a diva
Karen by Night – Jill Sobule I overheard Karen whisper on the phone / she said, "meet me at the club, there's a shipment coming in / and I can't pull this one off alone"
Snake – Halflives I'll twist the knife and leave you with a vicious ache / I won't blink, I won't shake, no / because baby I'm a snake
Dangerous – Son Lux are you dangerous? found your way to my bed / spend fewer nights with the living then I do with the dead // are you dangerous? carved right into my head / quick lobotomy, then left me for dead
Ghosts of Utopia – IAMX you're the conquered stars, the divided heart / you are the ghosts of Utopia / you're the miracle of America
Government Hooker – Lady Gaga I could be girl (unless you want to be man) / I could be sex (unless you want to hold hands) / I could be anything, I could be everything
Symphony for a Spider Plant – Mort Garson [INTSRUMENTAL]
I Think I’m Going To Kill Myself – Elton John I think I'm gonna kill myself / cause a little suicide / stick around for a couple of days / what a scandal if I died!
Mein Herr – Liza Minnelli (Cabaret) you mustn't knit your brow / you should have known by now / you'd every cause to doubt me, mein Herr
Edelweiss Waltz – Irwin Kostal (The Sound of Music) [INSTRUMENTAL]
Michael – Franz Ferdinand Michael you're the boy with all the leather hips / sticky hair, sticky hips, stubble on my sticky lips
Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This) – Eurythmics some of them want to use you / some of them want to get used by you
The Partisan – Leonard Cohen when they poured across the border / I was cautioned to surrender / this I could not do
Cold Cold Cold – Cage The Elephant doctor, the problem's in my chest / my heart feels cold as ice, but it's anybody's guess
The Alcoholic – Röyksopp [INSTRUMENTAL]
Heroin – Lana Del Rey I'm flyin' to the moon again, dreamin' about marzipan / taking all my medicine to take my thoughts away
Mosquito – Model/Actriz down the mirrored halls / wearing cuffs with insignias gleaming / with a body count, higher than a mosquito / with a body count, higher than a mosquito
Faggot – Mindless Self Indulgence dig me now and fuck me later / and sing it to the tune of "faggot, faggot, faggot"
Terrible Things – Brick + Mortar sometimes I think of doing terrible things / I know I shouldn't think it but I do anyway
Before the Line – dodie now every morning since the line between my lives / I greet the sun, and ask, "have I already died? / If not then why am I alone? / and when can I come home?"
Old Money – Lana Del Rey but if you send for me, you know I'll come / and if you call for me, you know I'll run // If you change your mind, I'll come, come, come
Everybody Wants To Rule The World – Tears For Fears all for freedom and for pleasure / nothing ever lasts forever / everybody wants to rule the world
Snakeskin – Rina Sawayama buy my expensive, exclusive, pain wear / my fine couture is your branded repayment // like a snakeskin, like a snakeskin / wear me out and tear me down like
Me and the Devil – Gil Scott–Heron early this morning when you knocked upon my door / and I say: hello Satan, I believe, it's time to go
Maybe This Time – Liza Minnelli (Cabaret) something's bound to begin / It's gotta happen, happen sometime / maybe this time / maybe this time I'll win