A tidbit of my very first letter: In a sense, I think the only time I’ve ever dabbled in a true taste of what love could mean, is with you. It was never clear to me whether you were meant to guide me and protect me, or lead me down a faulty path into my own destruction. Either way, I would happily follow you. From the moment I stepped foot inside that small auditorium along the back wall of the Museum of Pop, in Seattle, Washington, I was entranced. By you, the seemingly effortless way your fingers glide over the slender neck of your instrument. Your lack of outward expression, in both doubt, but also in recognition. You deserve all the praise that is thrown your way, and more. I can only provide you with so much. You will always deserve more than I can give you, and for that I am truly in pain. As soon as your name is spoken from someone else’s mouth, I tense. I know that no matter what they can give, it won’t ever speak to your true nature. They simply don’t know you, not like I do. And I will fight, through anything, to defend you.
yearning
”Gay ass” I say as i willingly read a gay fanfiction.
he loves his ranter boyfriend
ki(ss)ll
tg: anosmaleh_art
Mori: When I was your age I survived the fucking Great War, what have you done with your life?
Dazai: Have you ever eaten a tide pod? And survived?!
Mori: What the fuck is a tide pod? Are you doing drugs?
Dazai: I was throwing up bubbles and shit. My insides were squeaky clean.
currently in the middle of trying to re-write and re-code my entire format for my Kurt Cobain lovemail... wish me luck
I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity.
(Late) Inktober Day 20 - Edgar Allan Poe.
self = fyodor self = dazai
therefore, self love would be extremely well written fyozai smut :)
Liking the idea of one sided Fyozai when I am both of them is funny cuz like. Self love?? I guess??? Slay or whatever. But one sided. It's quite amusing now that I'm thinking it.
(The best of this post and its reblogs, but with links that work)
Here is a website where you can scroll down to all the different levels of the ocean
Here is a website where you can see the future of the universe (can get a bit bleak just a head’s up!)
Here is a website where you can press a ‘make everything okay’ button, over and over, until things really are okay
Here is a website that you can read if you feel like a burden
Here is a website where you can look at strobe illusions (TW strobe/flashing)
Here is a website where you can cut stuff up (TW blood/sh)
Here and here are websites where you can play with sand
Here is a website where you can draw with macaroni and other fun foods
Here is a website where you can paint someone’s nails
Here is a website where you can grow a garden with emojis
Here is a website with hundreds of videos of people hugging you (rightfully dubbed ‘the nicest place on the internet’ because it really is, y’all, it made me cry)
Here is a website that will take you to other useless websites
Here is a website where you can make a tiny cat play bongo drums (and other instruments!)
Here is a website to help give you gentle reminders <3
Here is a website where you can grow a tiny farm
Here is a website where you can take a bunch of scientific personality tests
Here is a website of calm rain noise