Merdivenler, Merdivenler Devriliyor Leon…

Bones:

The physical change hurts the most, even when it’s what you ruined yourself for.

I’m not pro Ana or anything but damn thigh gap for daysssss

“Isn’t it terrifying to realize this is going to be your life forever. Sober one minute high the next. The saddest part is when you embrace it with all you are. This is me. This is as good as it gets.”

— experience

I know how to be a drug addict, self destruction is familiar so in a fucked up way it’s comforting to me. Recovery and sobritey are new, a whole new way of living and honestly it fucking terrfies me because I’m afraid i wont be able to maintain it.. What if i fuck everything up again?

Excerpt from my journal 6-11-19

My problem is I never healed I just kept going

Are you healed or are you distracted