I Feel Like I’m Losing My Mind Jejwbwbwjqjw

i feel like i’m losing my mind jejwbwbwjqjw

can someone please give me advice on something? i’ve never really seen anyone dealing with what i have been, and i just don’t know what to do anymore.

for the billionth time i’ve tried to shift subconsciously in a dream. and this time, like other times, i wasn’t even lucid yet i was convinced i shifted. but this was just a dream. and like i’ve said before, this has happened multiple times, in different ways too.

today i was convinced i shifted, not to any dr of mine but in the dream i was ok with that. i don’t remember what was happening before really but i just started doing a method i guess till eventually it “ worked ” i didn’t have my senses, but i focused on all of them until i was “ fully grounded ”.

but i am certain it was a dream, no matter what i thought at the time, i didn’t have all my senses. it wasn’t secure like real life.

it’s honestly frustrating that this keeps happening. so maybe someone out there has some advice.

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9 months ago

Ok so idk if this is a stupid question, but if someone could answer that be really great.

How do people shift accidentally? Like I’ve seen a handful of people talk about how they shifted to some place without intending to. And I’m not saying I don’t think you can do that, I just want to understand how you could shift your awareness to a place you weren’t intending to.


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4 months ago

How to enter the Void State?

How To Enter The Void State?

1: It’s easy. Don’t overcomplicate it. Every time you get lost in thoughts and don’t feel your surroundings anymore, that’s when you’ve entered the void.

2: Personally, I prefer to do this method at night. But do what’s best for you, preferably at a time when you won’t be disturbed. Lie or sit down—whatever is more comfortable for you.

3: Scratch every itch you have, then lay still once you’re ready, listening to calm music. Anything that keeps your mind awake but lets your body fall asleep— you should not move so you reach the void faster.

4: Lie still, let the music play for around 20-30 minutes without moving. By now, your body should be asleep, and your mind awake. When the music stops, simply focus on the black behind your eyes and, if you want to, affirm.

That’s it.

You got this.

How To Enter The Void State?
9 months ago

YOUR TAPPING IN PROCESS DOESN’T HAVE TO BE “ALL THAT”

the reason you drift off to sleep and “fail” is because you’re letting yourself down ༄

YOUR TAPPING IN PROCESS DOESN’T HAVE TO BE “ALL THAT”
YOUR TAPPING IN PROCESS DOESN’T HAVE TO BE “ALL THAT”
YOUR TAPPING IN PROCESS DOESN’T HAVE TO BE “ALL THAT”

Now what do i mean when i say that? i think a lot of you expect your experience while tapping in to be this over the top extravagant process where you’re floating and crying and everything else, the whole shabang. But it doesn’t have to be that way, and you guys can’t see that. as you start to tap in, you don’t feel any “symptoms” and then you psyche yourself out telling yourself that because you don’t feel anything, it’s “not working” so your mind drifts off and you fall asleep for the thousandth time.

What you guys need is discipline and trust, although the void is as easy as ever, you need discipline, the same way you wouldn’t just drift off at work or while studying for a test, you should be able to tap in without falling asleep. You could also incorporate sleep into your experience, a great example is SATS, here is a post explaining more on SATS.

And when i say trust, i mean you need to trust god, which is you, tapping into the void doesn't need to be some huge thing where you're floating and seeing all the colours of the rainbow, you can enter by simply falling asleep or can enter unexpectedly

you can tap in randomly by immediately being plunged into the void, there doesn’t have to be build up or some big extravaganza where you experience all the symptoms in the book, just trust yourself, everything you are doing is right, remember that, as a god there is no wrong way to enter the void, idc if you moved (having to stay still to enter the void has to be one of the most stupidest misconceptions to date 💀), idc if you didn’t feel symptoms, you’re doing everything right.

You guys look at success stories and expect it to be just like they had it and then when it isn’t you feel let down and upset, telling yourself you just need to go to sleep and “try” another time.

NO NO NO

you fall asleep when you want to

and the second you do fall asleep, you get into the void

your mind doesn’t drift away, you are focused

you are a GOD and i refuse to believe that you’re gonna let “sleep” be a bump in the road in that journey of yours, and you’re telling me that you can’t say disciplined or focused for just a few minutes to get the LIFE of your dreams?? come on now…

DISCIPLINE + TRUST = THE VOID BEING GUARANTEED 🪽💋

YOUR TAPPING IN PROCESS DOESN’T HAVE TO BE “ALL THAT”
4 months ago

happy valentine’s day shifters!

let’s use some love based affirmations and really lean into the connections we have with those special people in the places we call home…

“love is the strongest bond, and it pulls me straight to my dr.”

“every heartbeat brings me closer to my loved ones in my dr.”

“I am always aligned with the love and happiness waiting for me in my dr.”

“the universe supports my journey home to the people who love me most.”

“I shift effortlessly to a reality where I am deeply loved and cherished.”

“love is a frequency, and I am completely in tune with it, guiding me to my dr.”

“tonight, I wake up exactly where I belong—with the ones I love.”

let yourself really feel that love as you say these. imagine the warmth of a hug from your best friend, the softness of your special someone’s voice, the way it feels to be completely at home with the people who love you most. that energy is what’s gonna help you get there.

tonight you shift. enjoy it.

3 months ago
I Wrote This While Drinking Cola. Pepsi Cola. The Lana Sentiment. The Grant Holy Water. The Tear Drops
I Wrote This While Drinking Cola. Pepsi Cola. The Lana Sentiment. The Grant Holy Water. The Tear Drops
I Wrote This While Drinking Cola. Pepsi Cola. The Lana Sentiment. The Grant Holy Water. The Tear Drops

i wrote this while drinking cola. pepsi cola. the lana sentiment. the grant holy water. the tear drops of angels, if you wish. ANYWAY, do enjoy. inspired by: @/ironrea, her post is serene!! ultraviolence (the album), & richard siken's piece "anyway" .

s/o motivation! or things to script because i don't know how to label anything.

i. they'll catch you staring at them in a quiet moment, and instead of looking away, they just smile, slow and sure, like they already knew.

ii. they'll let you warm your hands against the back of their neck, laughing at the chill but not pulling away.

iii. they'll need to feel the weight of your presence to remember how to breathe.

iv. they'll be devoted to you, just like church is to god, just like the lamb is to the shepherd, just like faith is to the believer lost in doubt.

v. they'll see the way you close your eyes when the sun hits just right, like it’s a moment just for you, and they'll wonder if they're allowed to share it with you.

vi. they'll look at you when you think they're not watching—from across the room, in the glow of a traffic light, through the blurry reflection of a dirty mirror—like they're afraid to be caught loving you this much (they aren't).

vii. they'll whisper your name like it's the answer to a question they don't know how to ask.

viii. when you write your name on fogged windows, they'll try to read their future in it.

ix. when you're getting ready to go out, they'll wait at the door, keys in hand, watching you tie your shoes, smiling a little, because they love the way you double-knot them.

x. they'll stand behind you when you're looking in the mirror, watching your reflection instead of their own, like they only see themselves in the way you see them.

xi. when you look at them, just for a second, they’ll think it's the first time anyone has ever seen them.

4 months ago
Ways To Spice Up Your Shifting Journey And Romanticise Your Drs ♱

ways to spice up your shifting journey and romanticise your drs ♱

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• make playlists for important / specific eras in your dr (for example i have one for autumn 2023 in my actress dr and winter 1989 in my twin peaks dr)

• watch youtube walking tours of the city or town that you live at in your dr

• make moodboards for your favourite people in your dr, develop their vibe and aesthetic

• make shifting bingo cards for things you need to do in your dr (eg. visit a specific place, talk to a specific person) and tick them off once you shift back

• use pinterest as a script, make detailed sections within your dr boards and organise them to make it all look cute

• make moodboards for your childhood in all of your drs and see how they differ

• start a shifting journal, you don’t need to make it aesthetic. write about your drs, how your journey is going, etc

• answer questions about your drs (some posts with questions: 1 2 3)

7 months ago

ACCEPTANCE AND SHIFTING

Yall spirituality has been on the win

I have contact with a god, two guides, and have been shifting like CRAZY

I know how to shift on every try now. I know what was holding me back. I wasn't accepting shifting. There was so many "whys" and what ifs that I never stopped to accept the idea that I COULD shift. Accepting vs knowing isn't really talked about that much.

I had been so caught up in the why that I never spent time to think that it was okay now. I needed to accept the fact that a better life really WAS possible. And then it was "well if that was possible, why hadn't I gotten it yet? Why was I robbed of opportunity?" But that doesn't matter now. I had to accept the fact this reality isn't actually comfortable.

When a baby is born into a burning building, they never know how suffocating the smoke is until they get a breath of fresh air. Shifting is that breath of fresh air. It's scary because you've never smelled the fresh grass. You've never felt the sun on your face. The warmth isn't burning. And that's SCARY.

But you HAVE to accept the fact that the world isn't burning. You have to leave the heat of the house to feel the warmth of the sun. The cold of the pool and ocean.

I had to accept the fact comfortability was higher somewhere else. That I deserve better. That was what was holding me back. I can do better.

And since then, I've known EXACTLY how to shift. Everything just snapped.

9 months ago
How Do You Deal With “negative” Emotions When It Comes To Shifting

How do you deal with “negative” emotions when it comes to shifting

(I want to make it clear I’m not coming here to rant about not being able to shift)

How Do You Deal With “negative” Emotions When It Comes To Shifting

Shifting diary entry (and asking for help/advice) #5

I’ve had many different relationships when it comes to shifting, a lot of them being really toxic and bad. I used to be so obsessed with shifting (in the worst way possible tbh) it was damaging my mental and physical well being. I mean… I learned a way to escape this life as a teenager already dealing with mental health issues along with toxic parents and other life issues, I am absolutely grateful to have learned about shifting but I understand why my younger self took things a bad way. All I used to do was live and breathe shifting, it’s all I thought about and did. I would attempt multiple times a day and sometimes end up in depressive episodes due to still being in a reality I hated. Obviously this led me to neglect my self and the relationships and responsibilities I had here. My baby sister noticed all these things and really helped me get back on a healthier path.

Now I can say I have the best relationship I’ve ever had with shifting. It is not unhealthy, and I have a lot of new perspectives I have on shifting that my younger self didn’t. Despite still living in a toxic environment, and having issues here, I’ve found a way to balance shifting and this life.

Buuuttt… recently (as I’ve said in a previous diary entry) I have decided to put my focus on a new reality. And it has been a lot of fun. I’ve never really tried to actually focus on going to another DR that hasn’t been my better CR DR. I’ve always daydreamed and made scripts for other realities but I’ve rarely ever tried to go to them, and if I have it was like one attempt and back to my better CR DR.

But this one is sticking around! I feel really connected to this reality and something is making me want to continue.

I attempted to go there last night, I did not have an idea for what I would do to get there (I’ve been putting a lot less emphasis on the “method” bc it doesn’t matter what I do to get there. This was something I’ve struggled with in the past). I felt super confident but I still woke up here.

It has been a very long time since I’ve felt sad from a shifting attempt. I’ve been trying to go to my better CR DR for so long that eventually shifting there just felt kinda forced and monotonous. (A reasons why I changed my focus) So it felt odd today feeling so sad not being there.

I also want to point out that I understand the kind of language I’m using in this post, I know I can ignore the 3D and accept that my desires have been fulfilled, that I actually did shift, etc… but I did wake up and feel these things and I’m just not sure how to navigate things like this in a healthy way.

So if anyone has advice to give please give it I’m all ears to hear others perspectives and advice when it comes to shifting, and today I’m feeling a little down.

How Do You Deal With “negative” Emotions When It Comes To Shifting

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4 months ago

How to 'let go'.

How To 'let Go'.

To know how to 'let go' you have to understand what it is. I highly suggest you to read this post first.

Letting go is not a act of forgetting but one of perseverance. It's meaning is quite literally it's opposite. Letting go is not you leaving everything behind and focusing on your life but living regardless. It is the celebration of being alive.

No matter what I write, it won't change the fact that everything you 'want' exists. Everything is already available to you. It has happened and only waiting for you to acknowledge it. The integration of a desire in your reality does not mean that it didn't exist before in your life. It's you realising that it was always there. Staring at you right in the face when you were 'waiting for it to arrive'.

To let go you must know, you must know that searching for something outside of you when you're it is useless. I understand your want, your need, your desparation. But it's literally here? The thing you want is already your reality. Everything is happening now. Why aren't you acknowledging the truth?

Perseverance is something you do, not caring what the physical plane is showing you. The physical plane is you. It is your conscious decision on something. You keep moving forward. You keep rising and falling but you keep going. That is what letting go is.

It's your ability to keep moving forward, your ability to keep doing what you want no matter the present or the result that you seek so hard. It is you never stopping. Now I don't mean that you keep going and never rest. Remember, to move forward you must create momentum. To create momentum you keep doing what you like. What you know you want to do.

Doesn't matter what the world says. If you need or want to rest right now, you must do it. Because that's what's important. That's what you want. That doesn't stop the flow of life. It keeps life going. Your decision to do what you want to do keeps life moving.

It doesn't matter if you spiraled for a million hours or if you feel like you ruined your chances to shift/manifest. It doesn't matter if you think you can't do it or whatever the fuck people think these days. The main most important question is what do you want to do right now? What do you want right now in this moment?

The only way to move forward is to keep doing what you like. Doing what you want in the present. It is focusing on one thing at a time. Whether it is playing a game on your phone, taking a nap, eating an apple, crying your heart out or screaming at the world because you're mad. It is the continuing of the cycle of life. It is the continuous energy in motion. Your emotions felt, seen and heard. Your existence acknowledged and appreciated.

It includes every decision you take. Small or big. It includes you acknowledging yourself in every decision. It includes you looking after your wants, your needs, yourself. Stop running after your desire and run after you.

That's all you need to do to let go. It's all letting go is. It was always just moving with yourself and not leaving yourself behind. You are your greatest asset. Stop waiting for people to help you. Get up, cry and move on. Feel and love. You were yours before the world took you. Come back home to yourself and live.

5 months ago

A realization - Let go

A Realization - Let Go

(TW: light mention of some heavy stuff; rant + personal trauma mention)

To shift, or to manifest, you need to leave behind everything. You need to leave behind all sentiments, all pressures and and all circumstances, on a multiversal level, nothing will care about your trauma, to shift you have to let yourself forget about it fully.

Personal rant, my experience with shifting:

I was depressed. I had messed up this reality to a point where it could not be fixed in the present, I had failed all exams, lied about the results, hoping everything be better, because I will be in my desired reality later that night.

If I had a day off, or if it was a weekend, I would get too relaxed, i would end up daydreaming about stuff that was irrelevant to my DR, and fall asleep, because i knew i was still in my CR, I would wake up back here.

If I did not have a day off, and had to attend college the next day, I would be so stressed out, the need to escape was the only thing on my mind. I would try, get stressed about time running out, worried that I'll wake back and what not.

(Disclaimer)

And due to this, when i eventually woke back, in the same, lonely and cold reality, the only thought that would arise in my mind was to fill the sink with water, and dive my face right into it.

The realization:

It did not matter what I felt, the same thoughts "no one is coming to save me" "it doesn't matter ill be in my DR tonight" "I want to go home", whether it was said in a positive or negative tone, it didn't matter, thinking stuff like this wouldn't work.

It's all just a human way to perceive things, we're suffering and we need to escape. While shifting isn't like any other human process.

Changing your entire reality is almost mechanical. Select a place, act like it, feel it, and leave and let go whatever was in the past. The constant victim feeling we all get, isn't helping us, the constant need to fear we're going to be back in the CR, is a function attached to the human body. We're consciousness, and whatever reality we want is created by our own focus onto it.

Our DRs, also needs our contribution, for us to give it attention, let us form it. thinking like a human, thinking you're "shifting" to a place, you're attempting to shift to that place, thinking you might reach it if you do X or Y, won't work, you know?

We're the creator, our hopeless situation is also created by us, and us being in our DRs, is also created by us.

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