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got your stupid ass. this is a gnome post. give me all the fucking berries right now

Okay something I’ve been thinking a lot about with the ending scene is how the old guard at Waystar has literally seen so much of the Roy family. Like they have seen Logan’s abuse close up as adults when the siblings were just kids and they’ve done nothing, they’ve always done nothing. Because they’ve had to protect their own interests and Logan was always more important than protecting a child. But that scene where the kids are begging and crying for their father to not take away the one thing they’ve been told matters in life while Karl, Gerri, and Frank sit like statues on the couch, unflinching and unfeeling towards their pain is haunting me.

Like sure Frank has acted like a pseudo-father to Kendall and Gerri had Roman as her pet but at the end of the day the pact stands together because if Logan falls it’s just a matter of time before they’re all dispensable as well. There is no one big bad because behind him you have all the silent supporters.

But with Roman begging Gerri to help them and Gerri turning them away I can just imagine the Roy childhood, surrounded by people who knew who your father truly was, knowing your father hit you, knowing your father hit you in front his general counsel and knowing it didn’t matter anyways because they had all decided it wasn’t a smart business move to help you.

somehow, amazingly, i have hacked the impulse that makes me mindlessly scroll on my phone. it's not gone but i've paired it with a conscious thought process that goes like, "what's my goal here? i'm looking for entertainment, for information, for something that makes me feel more optimistic and interested in the world i live in..."

and because that kicks in between apps, too, i'm not doomscrolling as much. i'm intentionally seeking out posts or videos or whatever that actually mean something to me. when i'm not satisfied i walk away or pick up a book instead. most subtle yet impactful change i've gone through in years

i did not intentionally set out to change this. i've just been working on my mindset in general. hey, turns out having a good therapist again helps

see and be seen

I will be honest guys, the Red portrait of king Charles is gorgeous asdfghjkl

it's a bad portrait. Like. Objectively. It does the opposite of what's intended. It looks like the painter is insulting him. If it was in a contemporary gallery with no context you would see it immediately as the ambivalent criticism of Charles's reign, how he fades into the overwhelming red background as a tiny little figure, small and insignificant, insufficient for the clothes he's wearing. It reminds my of Goya's portraits, how they were so 'realistic' that they ended up making these great figures look pathetic to the viewer. So these are our rulers?

the sheer novelty. the surprise and shock, the kinda cunt it's serving for no reason. I. I love it. It's an incredible portrait by Jonathan Yeo. By the sheer fact that Charles, the man, is impossible to portray as greater than man because he's just such a nothingburger of a dude. So a portrait made to make him look huge and interesting made him be swallowed in red brushstrokes. The butterfly, that reminded me immediately of " we will all laugh at guilded butterflies", draws more attention than him. It looks like an omen. It looks like a warning in all this red. Something is not right here.

This is the best royal portrait ever 10/10

Gone Girl (2014) / Succession (2018-2023)

I went for a walk this afternoon and captured some wintry, melancholic vibes for your Wednesday afternoon.

“A terrible storm came around the first of February, bringing with it downed power lines, stranded motorists, and for me, a bout of hallucinations…”

Night