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Well, it was nice knowing you, then. Yep.

Logan and shivs relationship is so interesting bc he always goes to her when he wants to tear down another woman. He immediately tells her that he thinks Kendall’s new girl is an airhead at the gala. He shit talks Rhea jarells character specifically with her. And she’s always so eager to play along. Bc she’s different. She’s special. Unlike all the other women that Logan deems too weak to deserve his respect.

And in those moments when he makes it clear that she’s no different then the rest, she’s devastated. Bc no matter how much she may participate in his misogyny, she was always just a girl to him.

FUCK

There's something to the picture that all this season and the release of the first three seasons' scripts have painted of Logan and Caroline's divorce not as one of maternal abandonment, but one of maternal dislocation and suffocating abuse that's ruining me right now.

The way Caroline tried to take her children and flee in the dead of the night to Morocco, the way Logan took meetings with every worth-its-salt law firm in the city to cut off Caroline's access to them, wielding the legal system like an axe to an umbilical cord, the way Caroline's one recourse was to try and keep their position in the company, to keep them with something even if she gave it away later as they rejected her in adulthood. The way she stayed for their adolescence in New York even as Logan froze her out, the way she had to bargain for Christmas even in their adulthood, the way she sat in the pews with the rest of the women Logan loved and hurt and discarded while her children cried, with no tools or ability to comfort them, the way she sat as her son wrote her out of her own motherhood as he gave their father sole credit in creating them, stood opposite her daughter as she told her she wouldn't see it, i'm just gonna do it the family way like it was on Caroline and not their father, that she never got to see them.

Something about the way it feels like Logan trained them how to bark at her scent, to make sure she stayed away from the door.

Aaron Bushnell's final social media post before his self-immolation.

- All of us, you know, we have affinities for people. We like certain people. You like certain people, right? - Sometimes.

CAROL (2015) dir. Todd Haynes

Stephen Vollo (American) - Strainer, Paintings: Oil on Canvas on Panel

Donna tartt wrote these gay guys so well because she did participatory field research asa gay man

it does not matter if you have a genuine desire to do good (kendall) or a deep capacity for love (roman) or have comparatively progressive politics and are a victim of the misogynistic environment your father created (shiv). because if your sense of self is so intrinsically tied to oppressive capitalist structures, what good are your best impulses, your love, your decency? waystar is them and they are waystar what does any kindness they possess actually matter if they are only capable of acting upon it within the framework of the fascistic, patriarchal corporation that they have no desire to escape?