Katy Perry Singing In Simlish ... Last Friday Night In Simlish ... WHA-

should i be writing?

yes

but will i?

absolutely not

what will i do?

make custom wallpapers cuz pinterest doesnt have the ones i fucking want

can i just say how much it hurts to read this?? this is a kid, barely 18 years, and caught up in an unfinished vendetta of the adults around him. you can literally feel how confused he gets as the chapters go on and when it gets to the climax and you read this... goodness, it gets real. like you understand how fucked up this all actually is.

i cannot stress this enough that he is a kid. a kid and he watched as the uncle he loved and respected and admired and held upto a standard, the only adult who seemed to truly understood jin ling, who saw how lonely he was and got him a puppy because he couldn't make friends, confess that he was the one behind so much of the disasters and deaths that occurred around him. not only that, but jin ling realizing that the smile his uncle puts on his face is fake. that he can lie so boldly and without a second thought. that maybe he lied about everything; maybe this person isn't who he says he is. all of this in just a matter of seconds.

and then we get to the foundation of his character. in the beginning, jin lings character was all about revenge. for himself, for the death of his parents. all he carried inside of him was hate. it also probably didn't help that jiang cheng was grieving for his sister and his parents at the same time while punishing any could-be wei wuxian. seeing these things, how could jin ling not hate the people who caused him to lose so much?

and now, there is all these conflicting feelings about who the true murderer is. he knows wei wuxian is the yiling patriarch and involved in the death of his parents but he's spent far too much time with him to hate him now and knows that it wasn't really his intentions in the first place. the guy is actually very likeable and has helped jin ling in all the times that they have met. wen ning who was the cause was merely a corpse out of control at the time. he also feels a lot of guilt towards it. as much as those things didn't excuse the murder of his parents, it wasnt reason enough for revenge either.

and jin guang yao, who he thought was kind and genuine. turning out to be a fake. all the likeness he has for his uncle in the past, should he turn it into hatred now? but he really can't. or rather, the past 16 years of positive memories are winning over the hatred of a minute.

so who should he hate now?

because he didn't deserve anything that happened to him. his parents didnt deserve it too. so who should he hate now? who should he exact his revenge upon? who should he blame?

he cries. because these are all heavy emotions and complex feelings for a kid. all the anger inside of him, the pain of being deceived, pouring out of him the only way it can. it is weak and jin ling probably shouldn't cry in front of so many people but he can't help it anymore. he doesn't want to let go of the hate he's nurtured for so long yet he doesn't have the energy anymore, nor does he have anyone to put the blame on.

and then there are those three words that just really tugs at my heart - "he felt wronged".

p.s: the scene where he is unable to look and listen as his uncle takes his last breath. chills.

jin ling is my fav character from mdzs and i just wanted to make a post to appreciate him. he is honestly so underappreciated. the way his character develops from just a really angry child to a child wounded by the actions of others is just *chefs kiss* he is so traumatized i wanna wrap him up in a blanket and hug him for eternity 🥺🥺😭😭😭😭

how come mikey's english name stuck on but baji's never did?

i like to imagine its cuz someone showed him the twilight movie and baji never wanted to be associated with edward anymore

was anybody gonna tell me bnha is set in 2100 or was i supposed to find out myself?

why are english teachers so ... communicative

you ever look at japanese people, or korean or chinese and see them being so respectful & nice and be like, i want to be like that ... is it just me???

!!!

i ... searched up how to throw it back ... what have i become???!

someone, plz, im begging, give takemitchy a rest plz

he deserves it

i need to know how the black dragons was formed

like how did shinichiro suddenly go "wait, i need to make my life more interesting" then thought that a gang was what he required

like did he see a movie about a gang and decided he wants it as well?? did he grow up in an environment where he heard or saw or experienced any gang-related things? did he ever tell anyone and no one thought "hey, thats a crazy idea. stop"???

and how did he come up with the name? did he stay up all night, writing down random words he thought were cool, watched several action movies, or just picked up on some english words by coincidence??? or did it come naturally to him as if it was meant to be?

and how the hell did he recruit people into a gang that just consisted of one man? like no offense to wakui but i genuinely find it hard to believe that wakasa and benkei looked at his weeping ass and thought "hmmm, yk what, i like you, i'll join your gang"??? ofc, wakasa and benkei joining meant their members did as well and thus their numbers grew, but did no one oppose? i mean i wouldnt wanna be under the command of a weak ass person. also, before wakasa and benkei, black dragons was just shin.

did he go around proclaiming he was the leader of the black dragons? people mustve thougt he was insane. and what about takeomi? as far as i can remember him and shin were childhood friends, so did takeomi never stop to consider what shinichiro was doing? was takeomi genuinely on board with whatever shin did? i mean, like, he wasnt ever like "hey man, you need to calm down, youve got a brother to take care of."??

i am genuinely curious because black dragons is a prominent gang but i feel like we know so little about it, which is the same case as its leader. i hope we get some information soon.

the yellow border on zoom gives me anxiety