Dear Namjoon,

Why no one's helping me ??? 😫

GET IT LET IT ROLL

If i wanna be hardworking i'll be very hardworking but if i'm lazy i'll be too lazy there's no in between

Happy New Year 2023!!

You never know how strong you a until being strong is your only option ♡

I'm tired of surviving. I want to start living.

So the club I am part of is planning on doing some projects and they're apparently looking for program director to lead the programs. I would like to apply myself for the position but I am so scared of doing it. Because of some not good events from my past, I could seem to bring myself forward for any kind of events. I am scared that I'm going to be lost with no help or get myself stressed while working on the project. What if I really got lost without any help? What if I fail to finish the project and embarrass my advisor too? These questions are torturing me. I don't think I can ever stand my lecturer or my educator looking at me with that humiliating face as if I'm useless one more time. I don't even have any friends or just anyone to rely on. I really really wish to overcome this fear of mine. But it's too hard to do it. It's very scary despite my desire. What should I do?

My first time trying fasting with my malay friends for Ramadhan month. It wasn't that hard but my will power made it all work i guess 😅 Whatever I enjoyed it and I made it happen. I'm so proud of myself. Today I proved to myself that I can do whatever i want if i want to.

I'm sorry dear future me, but i gave up. Forgive me please if you can.

Someone once asked me to ‘Just die and reborn after SPM’. 

But unfortunately, I couldn’t do it even though I wish I could. So, instead of worrying or being scared of SPM, I’ve decided to face it by believing in myself. 

I’m sorry if I’ve made any mistakes with or without my knowledge. Forgive me for my faults and wish me the best to defeat SPM. Please wish me good luck and pray for me so that I can end this war with a victory. PLEASE WISH ME THE BEST! 🤞🍀💕