Oh to be a little bird and spread my graceful wings
Across the bleak and grey winter skies I could soar and sing
Far away, I would fly, until I found the warmer days of spring
Then further on, I would soar, because I'm just a silly thing
Dolichonyx oryzivorus | Xanthocephalus xanthocephalus | Agelaius phoeniceus | Sturnella magna
Plate XXIX | Die Nordamerikanische Vogelwelt (1891)
I guess if I keep spending all my time writing instead of doing my work, I should join my school news paper or something. At least get some extra credit for being a professional idiot
If I'm talking about something from a couple hours ago, but it's almost 2:00 AM, do I say yesterday or earlier???
I feel so unstable, don't think I'll ever be able to function like the rest.
everyday is repetitive, everyone's so damn competitive, and I'm overwhelmed by stress.
I wish I was clean and pretty, small and skinny, and maybe, just maybe, I will be someday.
if I'm only a good in concept, and I'm just another reject, why can't it be in the manic pixie way?
Life's like a test, it's not easy. But it's as if everyone got the answer key, and I was left to guess.
I feel hollow, and all I do is wallow, when did my life become such a mess?
My stomach hurts :(
At the start of class earlier, my professor gave a whole ass monologue about the assignment I didn't do and how we need to do our work. I was so sure this was about me, because of course everything is about me, but, apparently in a class of 20+ students, only one did that darn analysis
I want to be productive, I want to be creative
but no matter how hard I'm working, I just kinda hate this
hate being stuck in my head. Hate getting better, and then wishing I was dead
I hate feeling stuck in a cycle
And so, I just keep working. But, my thoughts are still disturbing
Have I always been like this? am I breaking through denial?
can't afford the bag, but I can't stop thinking about it either.
so I drew myself with one
Moth and Butterfly Bags // Vitka Design
~~Theatre major with a caffeine addiction and constant anxiety~~ [20] [They/Them]
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