I Miss My Mom So Much I Can’t Stop Bawling My Fucking Eyes Out

I’m literally at a point I don’t know what to do I have nobody I havefucking Novody I have nobody god help me god help me

I don’t feel as hurt as I would’ve back then. I’m still just upset thinking about you too hard though. I hate this shit so much. I just want you to hurt. I dont Even Need you to miss me, I just want you to hurt and realize what you did was wrong. I can’t even understand how you couldn’t see what you did to me was wrong

I feel so fucking destructive right now it’s taking everything in me not to fucking brutally stab my stomach over I’ve already sliced my damn legs up but that’s not enough anymore I need to be unrecognizable

I want to talk about how bad I’m struggling. I want help. I want to vent to my friends. I want to vent to people closest to me. But I am so scared and I am so guilty and ashamed. I can’t wait to blow my fucking head off

I feel like puking i feel like I’ve just been robbed of all my love and that resulting in my hatred for romance I just . I’m so dysphoric I’m so bitter I’m so angry I just want an escape I just want someone for fucking once to love me and my imperfections and not prefer a specific fucking genital over my entire being I don’t know what to do I don’t believe anyone when they say they love me anymore because they’re fucking lying

I just want to give up on everything I fucking Hate my life I hate romance I hate sex I hate myself I hate everyone I fucking hate existing I just wish I was dead so fucking bad holy fuck I’m going to kill myself maybe that’s what I should do for my 18th birthday just blow my fucking head off

Everything I love is being taken away from me and revealing itself to all be a false sense of security I don’t think I need to be here anymore

It’s gotten sk bad I can’t even cry for help from tumblr anons oh my god I can’t take this anymore

I am so fucking worthless when will this end

I dont Even Know what to say I want to say things but I can’t it’s too much I feel like I can’t I wish I could but I just can’t

It feels like I’m just back at square one again