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There's been something about the woobification of Buck that's been sitting on the tip of my tongue for weeks now, and I think I've finally figured it out.

This is, of course, mostly in reference to the moral outrage about a decade-ish (give or take) age gap between two adult men and the infantalization of one said grown man, so all the puritanism isn't really coming from a place of good faith anyway, but here's the thing that's been bugging me that I couldn't quite put a finger on until now.

Buck has people he goes to for certain things. He has, what are in his mind, experts in the field for most of the things he can't think through on his own, that he goes to for a sounding board.

He went to Hen to talk through the sperm donor dilemma for a few reasons that made sense to him. 1) She's a mom. She has very much had to deal with the reality of 'giving up' children she considered her own. Buck is aware that he would be giving up something that could mean something to him, and he wants to talk to someone who has some insight into that. 2) She's dealt with IVF. She knows the risks, she knows the trials and tribulations, she knows about this thing that he is thinking about agreeing to be a part of so she's going to have a fuller grasp on the enormity of everything this process entails.

And they drink about it. Hen gives him what she can and cautions him where she thinks she should and they continue to talk about it and regardless of what SHE thinks, he makes his mind up in part because he got to talk to his Expert.

Bobby is often his go to when he feels like he's losing his grip on things. He's seen Bobby staring down the bottom of the bottle. He's seen the work he's done to pull himself back into the world, and he's seen the way he fights for his family, his people. Buck leans on him in times of questioning himself because he knows Bobby has pulled himself off the ledge with bleeding hands and a bleeding heart.

He reaches out to Maddie about interpersonal shit constantly. We see it all the way back in S2 when he's starting to question what the hell he's still doing in Abby's apartment, and that never really changes. She's the one with advice for him when he's angry with his parents, upset with the firefam, worried about his friends, or just generally concerned with the way he's perceived by people or how he perceives the world. He goes to her when he's embarrassed, ashamed, because he knows she won't judge him for it. She'll call him out, for sure, but she's not going to look at him differently when she knows he's done something he considers bad behavior.

When he goes to her during the Tommy arc, he's there for one reason he'll admit, and another she has to ferret out. 1) He lied to his best friend and he doesn't know why. 2) Oh yeah he went on a date with a dude that's not strange WHY IS THAT STRANGE I'VE ALWAYS BEEN AN ALLY PLEASE DON'T PULL BACK THE CURTAIN - and Maddie is there with two things: 1) It's not weird but it IS new and something you clearly haven't worked through all the way which is why 2) you'll tell Eddie when you're ready

And Eddie is sort of his go-to to bounce ideas off of. Eddie is his Buck expert. Eddie is the guy who can sort through all the bullshit and who sees Buck for exactly who he is, every time, regardless of what Buck himself is thinking. Eddie is his best friend, and he knows the good the bad and the ugly better than anyone else. He is also, quite frankly, the one Buck seeks out to help him contextualize all of his romantic feelings for people. Eddie's the guy he talks to when he's interested in someone, when he's falling for someone, he's the guy through which Buck filters his love interests into the firefam. I do the same shit with my best friend. It's instinct to want the person you consider the expert on you to meet the person you are interested in, it's instinct to want them to like each other, to get along. Buck knows Eddie loves him (in whatever way you see that love, Buck knows Eddie loves him) and he wants this person who loves him to be at least an active listener as he talks himself through the minefield of relationships. I do also think that up until the events of season seven, Buck considers Eddie sort of an expert on that traditional love-marriage-kids-white-picket-fence relationship Buck thinks he's striving for - in a very naive way, because obviously the wasn't what Eddie and Shannon had and Buck knows that, but he's probably fed some of Eddie's rose colored reminiscences back into that notion.

When he comes out to Eddie he's got two worries. 1) I lied to you and I figured out why but I'm still a little worried you think it's weird and 2) I screwed it up with someone I really like and I don't know where to go from here.

And Eddie (Buck expert) reassures him that just because it's new and unexpected doesn't make it strange, that it doesn't change anything in their friendship. And then he gets right to the heart of it - if you like him you should reach out and tell him that. He doesn't know you like we do but if you give him the chance to, he'll love you as much as we do. If he doesn't give it the same shot you want to he's the idiot.

With all that context in mind, Buck isn't seeking out Tommy's attention because he wants an authority figure, or someone to take care of him, someone to guide him through sex or love or relationship dynamics or any of the other random shit I've seen ppl infantalizing Buck about.

What he's looking for, and what he ultimately tells Tommy he'd like to pursue, is a partnership. Someone to walk (or more likely for Buck, speedrun) through experiences together. The Athena to his Bobby, the Chim to his Maddie, the Karen to his Hen.

So every time I see someone infantalizing Buck for seeking out a relationship with an older man for X or Y reason, I'm just like - no. He has Bobby, Hen, Maddie, Eddie, Chim etc for that. He doesn't want or need Tommy for that. He is a grown ass man who has built these strong relationships with his peers and his mentors and he is so fucking aware of that because he reaches for their help any time he feels the urge for a helping hand.

So yeah, Tommy's older. Yes, Tommy has more experience with his sexuality than Buck. And that - that's really it. Buck's been in the same career for more than half a decade. He's lived on his own since he was no older than 19/20. He's had serious relationships, he has a rich and fulfilling life. There is no power imbalance in the relationship between Buck and Tommy.

And while the age gap may be a bit of a draw for Buck, it's not WHY he's attracted to Tommy. We know because he's told Maddie. He's cool. He's interesting. He's confident. He has a cleft.

Buck isn't going into this waiting for someone older and more experienced to take the fucking reins. He felt like he clicked with Tommy, like there was an immediate connection, and yes, Tommy had to kiss him about it for Buck to actually figure out what it was he was experiencing, but from that point on it was all on Buck (and the people he leans on for advice) to help him sort through.

Tommy didn't do shit other than pump the brakes and try to give Buck the space he thought he needed to decide what he was ready for. Buck (again, with the help of his experts - Maddie for the emotional piece of it, Eddie for the Buck of it all) did the work on his own. Tommy didn't swoop in and overbearingly hold his hand through a sexual awakening. He kissed him, asked him out, realized he wasn't ready, stepped back and then checked in multiple times when Buck came back at it going 120 miles an hour.

And then he did everything he could to prove to Buck he wanted the same thing - a partner, someone to talk to, and lean on, and flirt with and rely on to show up whenever they could feasibly manage it (and sometimes when it's a little unfeasible too).

The narrative even acknowledges that Buck had no reason to go to Bobby in this scenario, when he often would, and lays out exactly why.

Within the canon of this particular arc, we're meant to see this as Buck realizing he has the experience necessary to think these things through on his own. This is Buck finally taking control of something that's always felt like it fell into his lap a bit. This is Buck doing more than treading water until his legs give out.

And minimizing that growth bc you personally don't like the LI he's pursuing is gross at best. At worst it's something much more insidious.

Johnny Lawrence + that smug face he only gives to Daniel LaRusso

This all of this! Spot on!🙌

At this point I feel like asking someone how they feel about the lawsuit arc is a good judge of character or at least a good judge of how likely they are to be insufferable in fandom.

I get that with the ‘found family of it all’ we’re supposed to feel bad for the 118 but I just can’t find it in me. The law suit arc made the 118 look like an unsafe place to work. There’s some throw away line after Bucks come back about how Buck had to sign a bunch of things prohibiting him from potentially suing the LAFD again and all I could think was ‘so if this happens again Buck will be completely unprotected, cool!’

And with Buck and Eddie I feel like it can be argued that Eddie abandoned Buck more than Buck abandoned Eddie. Buck tried to reach out and mend things and Eddie shut him down. Eddie was spiraling in his own grief and self sabotaging behavior and throughout the entire arc Eddie is essentially telling Buck to ‘get over it’. All that on top of the obvious fact that Buck had no obligation to prioritize his friend and his friends kid over fighting for fair treatment in the workplace.

Apologies for the rant & sorry if you’re ready to move on from this topic! Feel free to delete this 😅

you’re completely right anon.

I don’t want to ship them because he is so awful to her. But I feel they both love and hate each other at the same time. Season 2 is going to be really interesting

How’d you know? You’re my husband.

THE GREAT (2020—)

Part one of 20 parts.

Evan woke up in the morning at Tommy’s with his head still foggy from the night before. Tommy was behind him with his face buried in his neck and their legs tangled. Evan didn’t want to leave this moment of peace.

He didn’t want to go back to his house. He didn’t want to go to work, he didn’t want to worry about the 118, and he didn’t want to be around Eddie.

He didn’t recognize Eddie anymore. His best friend was not the same man he idolized, fought Ravi about, and didn’t see the man Tommy thought was his competition. He couldn’t get over Eddie throwing it in his face that Buck was making Bobby’s death about himself. It was like Eddie never knew Buck to begin with. And that was the root to all of their arguments.

He felt Tommy shift and bring Evan closer to him. He placed a kiss at the base of Evan’s skull.

“Good morning, How did you sleep?”

“Better than the last three weeks.” Evan mumbled as he turned towards the older man and buried his face in his chest. “ I just want to stay here and not face the world right now.”

“Well, you can stay here as long as you want. I’m going to make breakfast.”

“No, stay here with me please. I’ve missed you.” Evan looked pained.

“Evan.”

“Bobby told me I would be ok but, I’m not! I can’t keep doing this by myself.”

“Then don’t. You don’t have to do this by yourself. Let me help you.”

“Then I feel like I’m letting Bobby down.”

“Baby, Bobby wouldn’t want you taking care of everyone else at the detriment of yourself.”

“I know, but, I feel like I’m failing everyone. No one wants to talk with me. I’m trying to make sure the 118 doesn’t fall apart. But, everyone keeps pushing me away, avoiding me, talking behind my back, or in Eddies case yelling at me.”

“They are grieving. But, no one should be pushing you away. Don’t get me started on Diaz! But everyone else should be checking on you too.”

“Bobby was wrong about me no one needs me right now. “ Evan sobbed. He was so over crying.

Tommy held him tightly “I’ve got you babe. Let it all out.”

Evan cried himself asleep. Tommy got out of bed and decided to make some phone calls.



He too cute!

buck + kids

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Me too! 110 percent I would have ran away with him. But totally understand why she didn’t.

I would have ran away with him.