My Room Got Moved Around A Bit To Store A Bed For My Older Sister When She Gets A New Apartment Next

End of the Hall // Generation Loss: The Social Experiments.

Let's Talk About My Watcher from the Creators Life Series AU

TW/CW: talk/implications of suicide and self-harm

I've been thinking about my Watcher's lore a lot and I posted this on my Instagram story while I was thinking about it:

Now, I'm not going to spoil much about my Watcher's lore, but I will talk a bit more about this post I made on my story because I love my Watcher's lore so much, you have no idea.

My Watcher's name is L, short for their full name. However, they don't use their full name because it's too femme in their opinion, hence the shortening to just a single letter. They play an important role in the Creators Life Series AU, which I'm working on with my friend Luna. We talked about the Watchers and we decided to make ourselves the Watchers, but have them still be separate entities from ourselves, hence the reason why we look different compared to them.

Now, originally, I didn't want my Watcher to have wings. However, I realized that it wouldn't make sense if all of the other Watchers did have wings, such as our AU's version of Grian, who is a Watcher. So, I took some time to figure out what L's reasons for becoming a Watcher are.

As mentioned, their whole family died in a deadly snowstorm, with them being the only survivor. So, since this was such an impactful event for them, I thought that it would make sense for them to have survivor's guilt, which Wikipedia defines as this:

So, obviously, something as tragic as being the only survivor in a deadly snowstorm will mess with your mind. L ran away from the scene where their family's bodies lay, only to collapse due to the cold and be discovered by 2 Watchers, named Edward and Eleanor, who take them in and basically raise them. Edward and Eleanor haven't been introduced in videos yet, but Luna and I have been making stuff with them behind the scenes.

Now, as you may have seen in my Life Series AU edit dump, L removed their wings, mainly because of said survivor's guilt and many other reasons that will not be revealed here. As such, they could've bled out and died if not for Eleanor and Edward finding them in the state they were in. This unintentionally ended up being a suicide attempt, even if they never meant it to be. Even after being given the task of running the Life Games, they still think about what they had done and how they wished that they ended up dying that day instead of being saved.

That's pretty much it, let me know what you guys think about this if you want! I'm very normal about my AU (that's a lie, I am not)

⚠️SPOILERS FOR WONDERLUST EPISODE 10⚠️

Updated notes for episode 10, holy shit I cannot wait to see what happens next

Small spoilers for Riptide episodes 105 and 106, go watch it so you don't get spoiled :3

So, I'm on episode 106 of Riptide (was not expecting the fanfic opening of Queen x Alasse, but it was very cute). I just wanna talk about the scene in episode 105 where they're going through the spider webs because I kid you not, I was so stressed while watching it, no joke.

I was messaging my friend, telling her about how stressed the scene was (yes, it was my co-writer for the Life Series AU), I had the get some food to eat, partly because I forgot to eat dinner, but mostly because I bite when I get stressed and I swear, I need a chew tool istg-

Anyways, it's almost 5 in the morning, good night

Hey, I highly recommend checking out my YouTube channel, I have a video coming out tomorrow that is super important that I need people to watch. I won't go into too much detail here because I promised myself I was done posting about it, but long story short, I recently realized that I was being groomed, SAed, and manipulated by someone who I thought was a friend for 2 years.

The video coming out tomorrow goes into way more detail about it, but I seriously do not recommend checking it out with grooming, SA, guilt-tripping, pedophilia, and all that jazz isn't something you're fond of. This video is barely edited minus captions, the trigger warnings at the beginning, and a small message at the end, but it's something that I want to talk about and be able to move on from after the video is uploaded.

Thank you for supporting me and please, PLEASE stay safe online and irl, especially with everything going on with the US government. I love you all (/p) and I hope you have a great day. Lots of love from your local enby dragon.

~ 💜🖤

(P.S. YouTube channel is in my linktree which at the bottom of the pinned post!)

So, my older brother is spending his spring break at home with me and my family, which means he's staying in my room with me because we always grew up sharing a room. Now, I've gotten used to the bedroom just being mine because he has an apartment, which means he lives there until the lease ends.

So, since he is visiting, I get SO scared that I'm being too loud at night because I'm so used to it just being me. Like, even before I was careful because my parents' room is literally a wall away from mine and I don't want my dad to wake up grumpy and start yelling at me, but it's SO MUCH WORSE because he's literally in the same room as me!

I have a bunk bed and he's LITERALLY RIGHT BELOW ME WHILE I'M WATCHING STUPID VIDEOS WAITING TO BE TIRED!! And even then, I have to quietly bring my computer down from my bed (the top bunk) so I can play music while I sleep and and every time I make a noise that feels just the tiniest bit too loud, I freak the fuck out-

I'm not mad that my brother is visiting, I love seeing him, I'm just so scared I'll wake him up and he'll yell at me for being too loud TwT

That moment when Runt from JRWI Wonderlust suddenly becomes way too relatable and it causes you to remember something that happened to you 7 or 8 years ago-

Context under cut, tw/cw for bullying, manipulation, and a toxic relationship if you want to know the context

This was something that happened in 6th grade, which was obviously a long time ago for me now, but that scene with Runt yelling at WD for lying made me remember this moment that I had nearly forgotten about. Again, this happened a while ago, so bear with me because I may not remember all the details.

There was this boy I had been friends with since elementary school, his name was Nic. He was in my last two classes of the day in 6th grade, which were history and math. In my history class, he treated me like a friend, because I was his friend, and for some time in my math class, he treated me like a friend then too.

However, my math teacher switched up the seating arrangements and had me sit next to a girl, with Nic and another boy behind me. The girl and the boy didn't treat me very well. They were both bullies to me and would say horrible things about me whenever they got the chance. And Nic joined them. He was suddenly not my friend anymore, but also still was at the same time.

That shit hurt, especially since I hadn't done anything to anyone. The biggest thing that the girl and boy would tell me is that my breath smells or I smell in general. And that hurt, because no matter how hard I tried, it was never enough to get them to stop and I felt trapped. I don't remember if I ended up moving seats to get away from them or if I put up with it until the teacher changed the seating chart again.

It was genuinely the most confusing experience for me because outside of math class, Nic was still my childhood friend, until we stepped foot in math class. It was so frustrating and confusing and to this day, I still don't understand why he did that to me. I haven't spoken to him or seen him since high school, and I didn't really talk to him during high school either. But yeah.

God, middle school was such a shitty time for me.

It's my brother's borthday!! He is an old man now, he can legally drink fancy fruit juice, holy shit-

In all seriousness, I love my big brother sm! I'm sincerely hoping he's not still sick because the last time I talked to him, he was sick, and being sick on your birthday would suck. Congrats on being 21, you are now allowed to drink booze, so congrats I guess lmao.

The urge I have to stay up all night just to get caught up on Riptide is so strong right now (I'm not going to do it, but I'm desperate right now because I want to look at cool things without being spoiled, fjeifhei)

So I have a random theory/idea about Troy Wonderlust that probably is not at all accurate but it’s been on my brain and I need to talk about it

So like. Troy being a clockwork guy. I’ve seen the theory everywhere. And I thought - what if the reason he looks so human is because he’s not fully clockwork? What if he’s part human?

Specifically: what if Tramilton Lougferd was a real human who died, perhaps in a steam-sledding accident or smth, idk how. But his father then used his clockwork technology to try to bring his son back to life as like a clockwork android.

Maybe the reason Troy and his father are having issues is because Troy is, well, not Tramilton. He’s not the same person brought back to life, he’s becoming his own person, forging his own identity. Choosing a different name and such.

So basically what if Troy’s dad is William Afton and tried to put his dead son back together but oops Troy came back wrong-