Yesterday Was My Birthday.

In every household there is always a favorite child.

sigh* wbk...

I can't believe that my last post on this account I was still a senior in high school but now, I'm going to be a freshman in college

I've been having nostalgic feels by listening to troye sivan's song called h a p p y l i t t l e p i l l

It's kind off weird seeing my old post's on this account y'know. Some post's were about me not knowing what to do in life, i read that I wanted to be a lawyer but 2021 self, your 2023 self would like to say-- sadly you're not gonna be a lawyer anymore instead you took up nursing for college.

i miss my pandemic playlist, I'm literally trying to make a playlist with the songs I was obsessed with during the lockdown

Late night thoughts

Will I ever experience the city life?

Will I ever experience going to college in a strangely new place. Far from my current life. Also far from my family.

If ever I pass that university will they allow me to go, or more like will I allow myself to be far from my family most especially from my mom. Far from my life in the province.

If ever it will happen , will I be able to experience my dreams. Will I finally be able to go out at night like go out on a night out with college friends. Will I be able to have a random stroll at 2 or 3 AM. Will I finally have a boyfriend??

I have a lot of dreams but one question is still roaming around my brain.

Will I pass?

Or

Am I capable with my skills because it is such a big university a lot of people there are probably smart.

Am I even smart enough to pass the entrance exams?

People around me says that I am smart. But up to what extent?

Chen's new song 'Hello' express many emotions.

As he got many hate just because he got married and had a baby.

That's such a odd reason for hating someone and sending then death threats. Can those anti's just mind their own business. It's not like their idol's are gonna them anyways.

I mean it's normal to be shocked because of the sudden news but why does it have to be in that extent.

It affected Chen a lot.

When I watched the behind the scenes of his music video 'Hello', he didn't have a genuine smile anymore. Also he was so conscious of his surroundings. It was like he was scared of people.

I hope anti's would stop hating on him. He did nothing wrong.

I used to post about my junior high school friends but I would also appreciate my senior high school friends who were literally the reason why I survived my senior year.

Now we're college students living in different places and attending different schools, I'll surely miss all of our bonding moments and the usual things we do all together.

I don't know if I'm gonna be happy that my parents allowed me to transfer to a different school or not.

The reason why I wanna transfer to a different school is that I am not liking the school system in the school I am currently in.

The school that I can possibly transfer in has a better school system but it is much more expensive.

I worry that my parents will have a hard time as the school tuition is much higher. And also my older brother is going to college, as we know college is expensive.

I don't really want my parents to have a hard time paying the bills.

Sigh* what do I do...

Hi.

Today is valentine's day

I don't really have any plans for the day

I just want to be alone.

But my mind wants to see somebody,

But I just can't .

It's like I want it to happen but at the same time I don't want it to happen.

Again,

Happy Valentine's Day, self.