*jazz hands* welsh miku
he's so funny when hes greedy
Arthur Lester
Yarn holder
im delilah and im an openly queer plural tgirl living in a shitty homophobic place in texas, and im going to be kicked out on june 1, 2024.
hey yall. this is probably gonna be one of the last posts about this, since im running out of time. because of @punkitt-is-here's super awesome kind reblog, i managed to make about 500 dollars, bringing me up to 1500, but after that things have slowed down to nearly nothing again. thank you to everyone that has donated, i appreciate it more than you could know, and thank you to the handful of famous people who reblogged and gave me a shitload of exposure.
im not sure if making 500 dollars in the next 2 months is going to be like.. possible. and after all the research ive been doing, im honestly not completely confident that 2000 dollars is going to be enough. im hoping that ill be able to pay for a few months of rent at once, so that im more likely to be able to get a place without already having a job in abq. so right now, my goal is basically "crowdfund as much as i possibly can so i dont have to live on the streets"
im hoping for a miracle right now. maybe, under the right circumstances, that could be you. maybe you just got paid and you dont have anything to use the paycheck on, maybe you have a bunch of savings that you could spare a portion of, i dont know, but god, i could really use as much kindness as i can find right now.
beastdesign for bills wierdmageddon form . . mostly did this as an exercise
I like the aspect of Mizi and Sua's dynamic that delves a lot into miscommunication and some parts of jealousy, because Sua's also a bit of a baby about communicating her feelings, Mizi almost fully relies on her to let her know because she's indifferent to her environment and doesn't seem to notice why Sua's upset, and that's because Sua's gripes are entirely a product of her own jealousy and irritation/ or rather exasperation at Mizi not being able to figure it out on her own, even though she's not not meeting her halfway. She doesn't want Mizi to think the worst of her. Even though she confides in Mizi, that's why I don't think she tells Mizi about those feelings as openly, but in general, she doesn't want to ruin that cloud of obliviousness with anything. But alas, Sua can get very petty. Mizi's still the meanie for allowing Till to play with them, not realizing how he looks at her like Sua does, and she's still a dummy for being so dense, even though she's earnestly trying to see what Sua's so upset about...
Sua's common instances of jealousy come from her possessive and obsessive instinct, and importantly, her mistrust of the boys, mostly stemming from how she doesn't want to lose Mizi to anything- at heart, she wants Mizi to be with just her to ensure that Mizi is unchanged and always safe. They can change her if she's influenced by them too much, but Mizi is all too trusting and too kind, especially of Ivan and Till, who are kind to her
I also think Sua doesn't communicate because she's sensitive and can't put it into words, she also can't because she fears it blowing up in her face if she appears unreasonable or something of the sort, she fears feeling hurt or feeling like something will wedge a noticeable gap between her and Mizi that she can't control, her protectiveness over Mizi's dreams and naivety keeps their emotional vulnerability limited from being fully open to each other already, but conflict, albeit inevitable because Sua is delicate, it would hurt her. (in that sense, it's strangely counterintuitive of her. but I can also see it as her being immature, sometimes it just can't be helped ) so she's practically the embodiment of clenching her fist from behind a tree where you can't see her with tears in her eyes because she wants to explode you with her mind, but is too non-confrontational/ stonewalling
β Jack of all trades, Master of none. ββ same user on cara ββ any pronouns β
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