I Would Love To Carpe Diem But I Also Have Anxiety

@redqueenetwork mission 04 | friendships

Elane Haven, Wren Skonos, Evangeline and Ptolemus Samos

Love is so exquisitely different, how can we possibly claim to be familiar with it? Each type a whole new season. Catagorizing a thing beyond words waters it down.

Love can be slow and sweet like honey. It can be flames of fire. It can burn you and warm you together. It could be low embers you sit around long after flames have left. Love can cool you, someones touch can calm you. Love lights sparks in the dullest places and brings butterflies or wild passion.

If one can fall in love with love it self I have done so.

Got Bored, Made These...Bon Appetit

Mare Barrow:

Maven Calore:

Tiberias Calore VII

Kilorn Warren:

Cameron Cole:

Evangeline Samos:

Elane Haven (Not My Fav):

Diana Farley:

Clara Farley Barrow:

James: Why do you love me though, Lils?

Lily: You know I married you for your money and status, right?

James:

Remus: Yeah, Lily and I saw two pureblood idiots on our first day of school.

Lily: and we were like, "This is convenient."

Remus: and the plan worked.

James and Sirius:

Lily and Remus: *high fives*

Stages of tea 1. Rapid-tiny-sip hot 2. Optimum temp 3. “Down it” lukewarm 4. Just-too-late cold 5. Accidental yesterday’s tea horror sip

I honestly wonder how Maven would have been like if Thomas had lived. Like, obviously, he’d still be pretty screwed up from how much Elara messed with his head, but I think Thomas was good for him and clearly helped him a lot (not to mention, unlike with Mare, this relationship wouldn’t have become obsessive and abusive). With his help, he could have even eventually tried to break free of his mother’s control. Could you imagine how different the books might have been if like how Evangeline had Elane, Maven had Thomas at his side while trying to keep anyone from finding out (not an easy task when his mother’s a Whisper). 

It is canon that Maven’s grandfather was gay and had his consort and a wife to carry the bloodline. Elara wouldn’t let that go, though, since it’s also canon she had issues with that, and she’s always in Maven’s head. Plus, a red and a silver prince…the secondborn to be exact? Nah, I see literally no one taking it well except maybe, MAYBE Cal. I don’t know why but I think I honestly would have been interested to see that romance play out along with Mare and Cal’s (Marecal’s relationship is so complicated, like they both know what the other represents and they both kind of resent each other and yet can’t let go of each other). 

Like, would Mare figure it out after a while since she’s both observatory and oblivious at the same time? Instead of an unhealthy and abusive relationship between them, would we have gotten a sort-of, complicated friendship (plus, I’d like to see more male-female friendships in YA that don’t turn into the guy friend being secretly in love with the mc) since Mare’s one of the few people Maven actually somewhat lets in and likes? Would she like Thomas since they’re both Reds with a secret trying not to get caught (and heads over heels for a silver prince that will probably be the death of them), being so close yet so far from the ones they’ve fallen for, and, hell, you could put in the AU I heard of Thomas being a Newblood to explain how he survived to add in their similarities (now that I think about it, that’s probably why Maven became so obsessed with her in the first place, because he reminded her of Thomas and he latched on to that.). Would Maven be listening to Elara’s orders to infiltrate the Scarlet Guard to protect Thomas? Would Maven join the Scarlet Guard for real with Thomas’ insistence or to protect him?

In Glass Sword, if Maven stays evil, would he have Thomas as his remaining tether to the light? Would Thomas leave Maven to join the Scarlet Guard because he’s scared of what Maven’s become? If he stays, would Maven try to change things for him to make him happy and accidentally become a better king to Reds than his father while still being the bad guy? I’d even settle for them just being an evil power couple willing to do anything for each other in a healthy and loving relationship with a healthy dose of murder, spying, and manipulation of others, Thomas joining the Guard to spy for Maven while he creates an equality of sorts between Silvers and Reds through intimidation and tyranny. Also, it’d be kind of amusing for Maven to be using Evangeline as a beard only to find out in the next book she’s using him as one, too.

I don’t know, there are so many ways my mind can go with Maven having someone on his side who might actually be able to keep him sane. Thomas was the one person Maven ever had a normal, untouched relationship with and probably ever will have, so Thomaven is a ship whose backstory I’m intrigued in, I’d love to know more about Thomas, and frankly, I just want to see my boys happy. I have read through almost all I can find on Ao3, and I’ve only found 3, THREE fics with Thomas alive that takes place in the Red Queen universe that’s not in a modern setting, and of the three, one’s a oneshot and the other two are incomplete. Could someone PLEASE write a fic with at least one of these concepts, because if not, I’m probably going to end up doing it myself and I have WAY too many WIPs! I would literally sell my soul for a story of these two with all the RQ drama that comes with it!

Am I an agnostic young woman in the twenty first century who has plenty of real life things to accomplish? Yes, yes I am.

Have I nonetheless devoted an inordinate amount of time to memorizing the Lord’s Prayer in Proto-Celtic, Early Brythonic, and Old English? Yes, yes I have. 

Do I have regrets about this? Not as many as I should. The ability to scream holy Celtic verses from memory in open fields is terribly under-appreciated in this society.

Want to buy beautiful hard copies of my favorite books, annotate the shit out of it, fill it with sticky notes and letter and then give it to that one person.

hello! I’ve spent way too long curating spotify playlists instead of studying for exams so I figured I’d at least share them:

an unnecessarily pretentious and dramatic dark academia playlist

you’re making breakfast with the love of your life on a beautiful sunday morning and everything is finally okay

evil sexy villain making evil sexy plans

really pissed-off punk playlist to overthrow the government to

sitting in your room and reliving your angsty emo phase

it’s the middle of summer and you’re laying outside on the lawn and staring up at the sky, no thoughts, no responsibility

getting horribly reminiscent and sad about the fact that you will never be nine years old again

i don’t know how better to describe this than just ‘Dad Music’

another dark academia playlist, but this one’s less pretentious and more fun

it’s raining at 1am and everything just feels sad and horrible

sea shanties to shake ur ass to

a playlist for hopeless romantics creating daydream scenarios in their heads

feel free to rb this and add your own!!

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